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Imagine a mean girls genshin au where Kaeya is Regine Goerge and Diluc is Janis Ian. Traveller is obviously Cady.
Rosaria could probably be Gretchen Wieners (but more badass), and Venti could be Karen Smith.
Albedo as Aaron Samuels and Childe as Shane Oman.
Jean as Damian Leigh (Gay queen slay)
Zhongli as mrs Norbury
GENSHIN MANGA SPOILERS! but honestly if you haven’t read it by now it’s your fault alone
So why did Kaeya initially try to hurt Collei?
The obvious answer- he was trying to defend Mondstadt, Collei was a very suspicious figure at the time, and he knew that being aggressive towards her would probably draw out her hidden powers and reveal herself as the culprit of the Black Fire incident.
But there’s more to it than that.
Kaeya canonically loves, LOVES kids. He adores them- there’s lots of times in the game where he talks about how precious childhood is and how he wants to protect the purity of childhood dreams for as long as possible before kids have to grow up and face the real world (kinda similar to Childe). In 3.8, it shows how he is literally willing to do anything to protect a child- Klee, when he literally throws aside his own sibling issues in order to shield Klee from being exposed to the same thing and scolds a couple of bickering brothers for upsetting her.
Additionally, there’s his whole thing with Mika and how he’s basically a big brother figure to the entirety of Mondstadt’s population under 17. The highly implied bond between Bennett, Razor, Fischl and him, even.
Anyway this whole aspect of his character obviously stems from his own childhood and how tainted it was by his hidden identity, so like he probably doesn’t want any other kids to have to go through such hardship especially while they’re still young.
So if he loves kids so much, and wants to protect them so badly, why did he not hesitate to become a full blown villain against Collei, literally wounding an innocent 12-year old girl?
Because he sees himself in her.
Collei hates herself (or at least she used to LOL). She hates the burden (her powers) that was forced upon her from a young age, and those powers inevitably label her as a bad person, one who can harness evil powers to kill And hurt and whatever. It makes her feel like she has no real control over herself, and that she has no self-identity- she doesn’t think of herself as a regular person, instead a monster. And she hates, hates, hates herself for it, but she shoves all of it down under a mask.
Sound familiar to a certain cavalry captain?
That’s why Kaeya didnt hesitate to Go after her. He knows her too well, knows that she’s hiding her true identity under a well-crafted face, that there’s something evil and dark in her- because that’s exactly who he was as a kid.
But then this panel happens.
Collei, evidently so tired of living such a torn life, gives up and offers her life to Kaeya just so that the torment can end, which stops Kaeya in his tracks, because that’s when she reminds him off himself just a little too much.
Kaeya, so caught up in her uncontrollable evil, forgets that she’s just a child, one who never should’ve been forced to deal with such a thing, and certainly not want to die because of it.
That’s exactly what happens internally to him, as well. Over the years, Kaeya internalized being a traitor so much, that often he convinces himself that he’s truly not a good person. Yes, he acknowledges that it’s really not his fault, but that still gets lost and it shows through when Kaeya shows us how willing he is to get himself harmed- because of his self hatred, he places so little value in his own wellbeing and his own life, because he thinks that all harm that comes to him is deserved and that it’s better off if he’s dead anyway so that he doesn’t have to deal with being torn apart every day.
No I’m not making this up, it’s in how he literally covers for Diluc all the time and risks himself in the process, and how Adelinde told us about that one time Kaeya literally took Diluc’s punishment for himself when they snuck into the wine cellars. There’s lots of times, even throughout in the game where Kaeya tries to convince us he’s not a good person- he quite literally says that, at some point.
Only when Collei shows that she’s in the exact same position does Kaeya realize what he’s doing and stops himself. Only then does he remember how painful and hard it really is, and he ends up helping to save Collei and removing her powers, because that’s one burden he can help take off, unlike his own.
Idk man for me the Kaeya vs Collei fight (I like to call it the chapter where collei gave us the hottest panel of Kaeya choking ever) told a story about Kaeya’s internalizations, too, and his own-self hatred and how deep it really goes. BRB CRYING
Three protectors of Mondstadt
They are like 3 shades that work well together:
Jean: the honorable knight, work in the light and guide her people in the light of day
Kaeya: a shady knight who sees and observes what is lurking in the dark
Rosaria: is one with the darkness, spill the blood the honorary knights can't have on their hands
Jean places a lot of trust in Kaeya and his judgment and Kaeya keeps Rosaria's secrets, while Rosaria respect Jean a lot.
Zantedeschia Aethiopica 🌹
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A comic I did for @kaeyazine on twitter! Musings about Kaeya's past, present, and future. (Fully platonic/no ship)
Oh right I have a tumblr
kaeya alberich I am once again asking for your hand in ma-
Do you ever think how Kaeya never had a proper 18th berth day party, or how his promotion to a Calvary Captain went without a celebration? Or How most of his Achievements go without acknowledgement?
A quick but not really Kaeya with no regard for proportions or his design :)
"Well, largely because I like the taste."
greyscale painting practice with Kaeya because why not :) It was inspired by a screenshot that was sent to me by dish on twitter lmao. I can't not draw him. I am, in fact, weak. To Kaeya pics.
3 is so evil bestie, can i ask about 3? (u don’t have to answer lol)
3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr
you are the one sending me other ppl's bad takes adfghjkl do u want me to screenshot our chat
so many kaeya takes i see are the worst. like when fatui teaser released and everyone was yelling how jester is kaeya's dad and kaeya is a fatui plant, including you. literally every single kaeluc take is unhinged. the kaeya psychopath manipulator takes. kaeya shy bean victorian orphan being saved by rag family and he like never known love before takes. kaeya passing out drunk daily in the tavern takes. diluc did nothing wrong takes. this is why i'm never going into kaeya tag afghjkl
every single ship war take i've seen is the most stupid, but after this lantern rite i've seen "guizhong x ping is canon, if you ship her with zhongli its lesbian erasure"
oh oh, i remembered one super infuriating popular take, it's that Xiao should have died in the chasm and that like hoyo didn't kill him bc they're too cowardly and it "cheapened his sacrifice" and zhongli saving him was deus ex machina. bitch his entire character arc is about finding will to live and self-worth, his fucking banner is called "invitation to mundane life", how do ppl manage to see v clearly PTSD chronic pain victim of abuse who thinks he's not worthy of peace coded character and go yeah, when his father figure saved him from suicide attempt it was cheap :\ :\ :\ he should've died :\:\:\
Diluc as the captain of the cavalry and Kaeya as the owner of the winery.
3.8 spoilers!
This audio reminds me so much about this scene. Omg-
(The song is la la la btw)
when you are so gay your soulless eyes start shining ✨
I hate this bitch ❄️
This is my apology to them for the last post.
This event was so fun.
But that day they, uh… It was, it was when. You know. When Crepus he- Um… can- can I just?
If characters are living in same timeline they possibly make out Thats my logic
Sorry I'm missing for a while, here's my faves and their respective missing eye that I made because my brother told me I have a type