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demonicgirl88

4 months ago

I really get this. I've actually said this before, obviously not word for word, but I have said this.

"Just because I don't care doesn't mean I can't be nice!" -Me

I don't have aspd (at least I've never been tested or been tested positive for it) but I really get this. I make good relationships and do good things not because I feel like it but because I know it's profitable for me in the future. I've been told that's a bad thing, but I do enjoy being around the people I've formed relationships with so I-don't-know-whatever.

I will never FEEL affective empathy.

I will never FEEL guilt or shame.

I will never FEEL compassion or sympathy.

Just like my mom, dad, mom's mom, aunts and uncles and cousins, and more.

So many in our family seem incapable, no matter how well raised.

Yet my ACTIONS are more GOOD then the average person that says they feel so much affective empathy, care, compassion, guilt

Think of it. People's guilt can trick them to thinking they are good just because they feel bad...even if they don't put in the effort to improve, keep doing the harm.

People's empathy can make them overwhelmed by suffering to the point they either do nothing or outright push for "quick fix" to stop seeing it, like removal of benches or spikes cause homeless.

People's compassion gives thoughts and prayers more so then helpful actions.

I on the other hand feel powerful helping someone when i knew without me likely no help or suffer worse (like by peoples bad advice)

I see the long term prisoners dilemma and know it's in my selfish hearted interest...to act helpfully, forgiving, but not a pushover. Transport, science, art, knowledge, stability, less death, garbage cleaning, economic stability. Long term for it all and how all connected means i ACT helpful and kind will always result in benefits i want. And I'm not slowed down by FEELING those things.

I may be the "psychopath" as I've been so called cause genetic aspd. But all that matters is ACTIONS.

Your EMOTIONS do not make you good or bad, they just are.

And appearing and viewed as good are much different then acting good acts.