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i feel like gregors roach traits could be read as allegories for PTSD/trauma. obviously the way he got them was a very traumatic experience, but i wanna focus on the war shit and the other genetically modified veterans we see. Like how he grows more buggy when he gets really stressed, and the more traumatized he gets the less physically human he becomes (because trauma dehumanizes you!!). and when he survives the war and tries to live a normalish life, the one thing that keeps it from happening is his cockroach arm. It won’t go away, even if he tries to cut it off, and it lashes out indiscriminately much to his scorn and resentment. like that scene in the subway where it attacks that woman seemed to be followed by mentions of the war and thoughts of it on greg’s part. I also think that the way gregor and all the other insectoid smoke war vets who turned to enkephalin (can’t say i blame them:( ) couldn’t get their lives back and were used and thrown away is like obvs a statement on how the govt/war machine/military industrial complex treats (disabled, but that’s another text post for another time) veterans. not to mention the fact that gregor explained they were operated on without their consent!! gregor and co are seen as disposable, disgusting insects who are less than human. i also think there’s something to be said about the fact that he’s a cockroach specifically. yes, they’re viewed as gross, disgusting pests but they’re also survivors. no matter how disgusting people think they are they don’t die in water and they can literally survive decapitation. also like the way trauma makes you feel so disgusting and tainted and like how your own mind and body don’t belong to you. he can’t look at him own arm/body without remembering that his own mother decided to surgically experiment on him… he consistently talks down on himself for being a roach human hybrid or whatever. he makes me so sad. the way other people treat him like he’s gross too like omfg it makes me sooo mad. he has endured so much dehumanization on so many different fronts :( i hope he has a good support system. anyways i like gregor hes a dilf cockroach milking

i joined @lotus-pear 's dtiys!! congrats on 5k!!

i tried to get creative and had so much fun mixing different mediums (swirly background in oil paint, other colorings in pencil and some burnt paper with stars on them)

Hbghdhhhhrhgghh sobs

is it time to tell you guys abt my dabihawks kids yet. is it time. can it be time.

Me when a person seems really cool and I wanna befriend them but they have harmless groups in their DNI (like endos, contradicting labels, harmless paraphilias etc)

That's it, i'm just posting my old crappy pt doodles for now, i NEED to draw Arcane stuff

the fic where Techno and Phil are old immortals, and Tommy and his brother are decidedly not.

Can you do Paige x black!cheer captain reader hcs? would most def be cute!!

paige x black!cheer captain reader

warning(s): none ! (sfw) a/n: lmk if you want a part 2 for a nsfw version. also this isn't proofread atm so ignore mistakes it's past my bed time 😕

loves loves seeing you in your cheer uniform and your usual makeup look

her lock screen is a picture of you two in your respective uniforms, hugging each other on the court

as much as paige loves being on the court she equally enjoys sitting on the bench as well just so she can watch you cheer a few feet away from her

before every game you give her a good luck kiss on the cheek which leaves a puckered lip print on her skin (thinking about that one video of asap rocky and rihanna at the met gala pls tell me yall know what i'm talking abt)

looks at you when she makes a shot so she can see you cheer for her and either smooches at you or points towards you with a smile

and after the games in post game interviews or conferences she brings you up whenever someone mentions her excellent game performance

"yeah, i had my girl out there cheering for me."

when you're not cheering she's definitely trying to learn all your cheers 

"wait- wait! do that again slowly." paige said eagerly as tried to copy the routine you just showed her

she looks a mess trying to do it too 

and when you're trying to come up with routines she always wants to help out.

"bye, paige. i'm not adding a dice roll into the routine..."

or sometimes she'll just watch you practice whenever she's free and she'll be so hypnotized by the way you move and facilitate the practice

I've been wanting to scream this for 2-3 years now so I apologise if this is incoherent.

Okay so Transformers Cyberverse, season 3, episode 21, Alien Hunt! With Meteorfire and Cosmos (wow very specific, I know but that's VERY IMPORTANT) we get to see like, weirdass fucking ghosts targeting Bumblebee right? Shockwave literally fucking came outta the screen like that tv ghost or whatever (never watched that movie and never will, I'm a pussy) and like... as i was watching it for the first time, I thought, "omg, their finally gonna reference Cheetor again! I've been hoping they'd do that."

But guess what? I'm delusional. They didn't. They fucking didn't. Alright it's cool, cool, it's not fine like- WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHOCKWAVE GETS TO APPEAR AGAIN AFTER DEATH? WHAT TO YOU MEAN BLURR, WHO SHOWS UP IN ONE EPISODE AND DIES APPEARS HERE? WH- WHY ARE RANDOM SEEKERS ALSO HERE??

I need to calm down- I'm being salty over CHEETOR NOT SHOWING UP AGAIN IN THE SHOW *falls to the ground* *curls up in ball*

BUT ALSO-! I'M NOT DONE- Meteorfire said the aliens targeting Bumblebee, and! I fully believe that it's about shit that traumatised him. SO BY THAT LOGIC- IT WOULD HAVE BEEN A VERY GOOD OPPORTUNITY TO PUT CHEET- *gets dragged into the abyss*

oh oh oh i am very interested about your thoughts on age is play

Okay, let me just clarify, this is my own personal opinion. I cannot express enough that this is how I, personally, as Jess, feel on this topic because of my exposure to it and instances in my own life. Completely personal. I’m not trying to make anyone else conform to my viewpoint. I’m just saying what I personally think about it.

So all that being said, I hate it more deeply than I will ever hate any other thing ever.

I don’t have problems with non-sexual age play! I completely respect sub-space and regression and understand how it makes a person feel safe (especially when they’re regressing to the age they experienced trauma and are using this as a coping mechanism)! I don’t have any problems with a caretaker/little dynamic that is purely about taking care of the little and making them feel safe while in headspace. I respect someone’s right to regress and get away for a minute into a safer space and wanting someone there to protect them and give them the opportunity to feel small. A lot of the times, people can’t even really control that headspace.

However, I believe firmly that sexual age-play is disgusting and should in no world be normalized. It’s a direct gateway to pedophilia and no one should be glamorizing the romanticization and sexualization of children in any way. I’ll go ahead and take this opportunity to link a post that describes what I think pretty perfectly. A little is literally unable to consent to sexual acts because of the nature of their headspace and a dom should in no way be sexually attracted to child-like behavior. I don’t blame the sub in this situation like I blame the dom. No person should be getting off to children or child-like behavior. I don’t care if it’s “two consenting adults” engaging in the activity. This kind of play inherently normalizes attraction to children and child-like behavior and if a dom is sexually attracted to their little exhibiting child-like behavior, they will condition themselves to develop that same attraction to real children. If a person is reading fiction and getting off to the idea of children being molested—or having sex with someone in real life who is acting like a child and associating their arousal with child-like tendencies—this will literally definitely lead them to actual consumption of real child pornography and inappropriate interactions with kids irl. This kink actively harms real children.

So those are my thoughts!! And nothing will change them.

*COUGH* I uuuuuuuuh-

yeah

Siffridoodles!! Siffridoodles!!!!

everytime toby gets drawn without his cheek scar a angel loses its wings