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Hitoshi Shinso - Not Alone
Here's another Shinso story for you guys!!!
I hope you guys like some angsty fluff!
Enjoy!!!!!
Shinso opened the door to your apartment and found it very odd that it was unlocked. You never leave your apartment unlocked. With furrowed brows, he walks in on alert. The lights in the apartment are off and everything is quiet.
"Kitten?” he calls out as he flicks a light on.
He gets no response.
He ventures farther into your home and continues calling out for you.
After looking in the kitchen and the living room, a small sniffle catches his attention, causing Shinso to hurry towards the bedroom, turning on the light.
There, in the middle of your mattress, was you. Eyes red, nose plugged, and tears streaking down your cheeks.
Alarmed, Shinso drops his bag and crawls onto the bed next to you.
"What's wrong, kitten?" he asks while he scans your body for physical harm.
You only sob in reply as you wipe the tears from your face, finally realizing that he's next to you.
"T-Toshi?" you ask blearily.
Your vision swims and all you see is a blotch of indigo among white. Rubbing your eyes again, you're able to see him clearly. Upon seeing him clearly you try to give a smile, but it doesn't last very long. Seeing this, Shinso opens his arms for you, and you immediately enter his embrace.
As Shinso holds you in his embrace, he feels your body wrack with sobs as you start crying again. He rubs your back comfortingly, just letting you cry for a minute.
"What happened?" he murmurs into your ear as he continues to rub your back comfortingly.
“M-My friend, (friend name)...” you choke out.
Pulling back from him, you look up at Shinso and inhale a deep, shuddery breath. "I-I just... don't understand how they could be gone... T-They were such a-a huge part of m-my life and n-now they're g-gone..." you stutter out.
Shinso's lips purse at your reply.
Heartbreak isn't an easy thing to deal with...
"Oh, love." he coos as he wipes the tears from your cheeks as they fell.
"It's alright kitten." he soothes as he leans forward, pressing a kiss to your forehead. "I-I just can't b-believe they're g-gone T-Toshi..." you mumble against his chest.
"I know love, I know." Shinso soothes again, rubbing your back comfortingly and pressing a kiss to the top of your head.
"I cared about them so much... I loved them so much... L-like a sibling..." you say as you grip onto Shinso's shirt for dear life.
"I-I don't e-even kn-know if I ever t-told them that..."
Shinso takes you by the shoulders, gently pulling your face away from him again. He looks down at you with a soft expression on his face as fat tears well up in your eyes.
You blink causing them to roll down your cheeks.
Shinso's thumb immediately brushed them away as he holds you in his arms.
Your voice cracks when you begin to speak again. "My heart hurts so much... Please make it stop hurting Hitoshi..."
"I just want to back to before everything happened..."
Shinso's heart breaks at your pleas. He wishes that he could take away the pain you felt. He looks at you, clearly an empty shell of your former self.
"I can't do that, kitten." He says, pulling you close to shelter you from the world and nuzzles his cheek against the top of your head. "I can't take the pain away, but I can be here to help put you back together."
You grip his shirt as if he would be the next person to disappear.
"I feel so alone..." you whimper hollowly.
The fatigue from this situation is catching up to you and settling in your bones. You want nothing more than to wake up refreshed and discover that this whole situation had all been a nightmare. To wake up and find your friend alive and well.
"You're not alone." Shinso says to you gently.
"I can't even begin to replace them, but I love you. What can I do to help?"
At his question, you stop and think for a moment before your stomach growls loudly in response.
Shinso's lavender eyes narrow at the noise. "When was the last time you ate?"
You chew on your lip, averting your eyes from his probing gaze. Taking care of yourself hasn't been that high of a priority recently... The grieving process has overwritten all other needs and hopelessness and despair made sure that you haven't left your bedroom all day.
"Kitten." Shinso prompts.
"It's been a while..." you admit sheepishly.
Shinso hums at your words before taking you in his arms again, putting one arm under your knees and the other around your back.
You look at him in confusion as you wrap your arms around his neck so that you don't fall.
"Toshi? What are you-?" You begin to ask but he cuts you off as he carries you out of the bedroom and to the living room.
He sets you down on the couch. “I’m going to make you food.”
Your posture relaxes and you nod in reply, agreeing that getting some food in your stomach will be good for you.
"I'll be back." he tells you gently as he kisses you on the forehead before exiting the living room and entering the kitchen to make some dinner for the 2 of you.
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After about 10 minutes of sitting on the couch, just relaxing, you decide to go to the bathroom and wash up before dinner. You get up from the couch, walking into the bathroom and closing the door behind you.
You let out a long, tired sigh as you turn to the bathroom mirror. As you look at your reflection, you grimace slightly. Your eyes are red and puffy, your skin is dry, your hair is greasy and unkempt and the dark circles under your eyes look like bruises and rival Shinso’s own eye bags.
Maybe after dinner you'll take a shower.
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After washing your hands, you exit the bathroom and head back into the living room. As you walk past the kitchen, the scent of frying bread hits your nose, causing you to drool slightly.
You walk over to the kitchen door, seeing Shinso standing in front of the stove. You smile at the sight of him before you walk up behind him and wrap your arms around his midsection.
You hear him chuckle softly as you nuzzle you face into his back.
"Food will be ready in a minute." he says to you gently. "Go sit down and I'll bring it out to you."
"Okay." you reply before kissing him on the cheek and exiting the kitchen.
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A few minutes later, Shinso exits the kitchen walking over to you with 2 plates. Each plate had a grilled cheese sandwich on it.
"Here you go." he says as he gives you your plate.
You take it from him gratefully.
"Thank you."
Shinso smiles at you gently as he takes a seat next to you on the couch, ready to start eating his own sandwich.
After finishing your food, as well as a glass of (favorite drink) you lay your head on Shinso's shoulder. You let out a sigh as sadness and confusion still runs through your body.
"Thanks, Toshi." you mumble.
Shinso wraps his arm around your shoulders, pulling you in closer to his side. "I'm sorry that you're going through this kitten." he begins.
“But I’ll be there every step of the way, okay?”
“Okay.” You nod, grateful Shinso who you know will stand by your side, no matter what.
The eepies getting a well deserved sleep :)
I yearn to draw ship art but characters interacting in any kind of romantic way is one of my artistic weaknesses lol (so say thank you to the stock photos I used for inspo/ref)
