Mayesh: As It Is, Everyone Thinks Conor’s A Lunatic-

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this is THE FIRST alastair official art with his beautiful dark hair! and he looks so good!

"thy frown will kill me"

I can't.

Some people joke about depression and being suicidal like it's funny. But it's not. It's like you'll never be good enough. Like no one loves no matter how hard you try. Like you are a total failure. It gets worse when you are just numb. No emotions, no happiness, no sadness, no anger, nothing. Just empty. Like there's nothing inside your body, like you are just a shell. And you want to die but you are too scared to try because you are afraid that you'll survive and you'll have to face the world with that. As someone who had gone through this, as a suicide survivor (though only a few friends knows), it fucking hurts when people joke about it like it's nothing. It's not. It's bloody not.

When you want to cut your hair but you are too afraid ask your parents or cut it yourself because there's a fat chance that you'll get kicked out

So who has changed the most?

Jace when he meets Janus:

I'm halfway through The Sword Catcher and all I can think about is how Conor and Kel are so much like Alec and Jace but with even fewer brain cells

He tries to grin, tries to smile, but you can see how bloody worried he is that he’s really messed up this time and she’ll go. The shift of his brows, the muscle in his neck. 

 He’s a remarkable actor. 

This is his FIRST ROLE.