𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘺

One of the things that the drama did was reveal an incredibly important part of hyyh vmon's dynamic that has always been there but I just didn't get before.

We know that Tae looks up to Joon as an older brother figure that he can rely on, and that Joon takes this responsibility very seriously despite being so young himself. What used to confuse me before was that Tae's safety was his responsibility, but Joon never stopped him from doing those illegal activities. In fact, he would join him.

In every one of the hyyh pairings, there's a give and take.

Jihope is made of two liars and one is in the hospital room pretending to be well and the other is there pretending to be sick but among the white walls and hallucinations and fainting and pills they give each other something solid to hold on to, a tether to reality.

Yoonkook is a cycle of addictive self-destruction born from the co-dependency of someone who latches on too obsessively and needs hurt to feel alive, and someone who cries guilt but can't help but hold on to the one person he can hurt again and again but won't disappear no matter how hard he tries.

So what did Joon get from vmon? What was the take part of this give heavy dynamic? I honestly can't believe I didn't see it before.

"Do you know what I hate most about myself? I get used to things, whatever that is. I give up and don't even fight on- no... I don't even want to fight."

Joon who is only 16 but is the breadwinner of his family, who works and works and works to support all the people who rely on him, whose worth is determined by his reliability and even temper and maturity in every situation. The first to forgive, the hardest to anger, doesn't even complain when he locks away the box that contains all his potential and dreams for people who suck him dry and give nothing back.

"I see you pouring out your anger and I get vicarious pleasure. After that, I grill you not to do that and even rationalise to myself that I'm right. That's who I am. I'm a despicable coward - so who am I to console others!? How could I understand other people!?"

I forget sometimes that Tae is older than Jungkook when he represents the clinging to youth aspect so well. He's loud, he's brash and angry and kind and rough and empathetic and raw around the edges in all the ways a child is allowed to be. Joon doesn't get that, he's not allowed that. So he lives through Tae, lets him pour out all the emotion and the thoughts he doesn't let himself say.

That scene at the container after it was set on fire breaks me because it represents this so well. He was almost murdered and he stands there silently while Tae yells at Jin all the things he doesn't let himself feel enough to say. It's like Tae is talking for him in that moment, straight from his heart, and that's what he gets from it. That night only one of them watched his home go up in flames at the hands of people he holds not an ounce of power to, knowing that they expected him to burn along with it. There are three people there in the aftermath and it is only him that doesn't cry. That just smiles and thanks Jin for the warning and tells them to go to bed.

I want to scream. How did Dogeun end up being the character I felt the most physical hurt for. How is his apparent normalcy the most tragic thing in a show littered with suicide and murder and mental illness. Agh.

𝘸𝘦𝘭𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘨! 𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘥 ! 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘴𝘬 :)

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𝘸𝘦 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘴…

— 𝙝𝙮𝙮𝙝 𝙟𝙞𝙝𝙤𝙥𝙚 𝙭 𝙗𝙚𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙩𝙝 𝙭 𝙧𝙚𝙛𝙡𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨

𝙝𝙮𝙮𝙝 𝙭 𝙗𝙚𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙩𝙝 𝙭 𝙧𝙞𝙘𝙠’𝙨 𝙥𝙞𝙖𝙣𝙤

hyyh taejoon x merry Christmas, i miss you

projecting my sadness onto hyyh taejoon🙂‍↕️

𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘨𝘰

— 𝙞𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙤𝙣’𝙩 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 / 5𝙨𝙤𝙨

hyyh taejoon x the one that got away

idk bro i just love them😭

first part is supposed to be tae’s pov and second “in another life” is joonie’s pov!

“𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘐 𝘧𝘦𝘭𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨-𝘢𝘨𝘰 𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘢 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺. 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭 𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴.”

— 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘱𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘦𝘦!!

fake love x headlock

hyyh taejoon | begins youth x spring into summer / Lizzy McAlpine

guys i’m actually proud of this one