𝘸𝘦 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘴…

“𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘐 𝘧𝘦𝘭𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨-𝘢𝘨𝘰 𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘢 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺. 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭 𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴.”

— 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘱𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘦𝘦!!

“𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘪 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘺 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴, 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘈𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘭 11”

— 𝙝𝙮𝙮𝙝 𝙭 𝙨𝙪𝙣 𝙗𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙙 𝙛𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙨 / 𝙚𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙡 𝙘𝙖𝙞𝙣

𝘪 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘮 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶

— 𝙝𝙮𝙮𝙝 𝙭 𝙗𝙪𝙯𝙯𝙘𝙪𝙩 𝙨𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙤𝙣

It’s so interesting to compare Haru’s and Jooan’s characters as someone who hears things that aren’t really there vs. someone who can’t hear things that are (out of one ear albeit).

It makes for such an interesting comparison between their characters. Haru who believes things that aren’t real vs. Jooan who (symbolically) turns a deaf ear to what’s real but he doesn’t want to believe. Haru who cannot decipher hallucination from reality vs. Jooan who won’t accept reality.

And although they are contrasted in such a way, they both have a fabricated reality which is less painful.

You have Haru who has no outlet for his trauma, isn’t allowed to talk about it, and has to constantly lie to his best friends. Then, you have Jooan who wants to believe things will be okay with his father, things will get better and he won’t have to leave. Jooan who wants so desperately to believe it is just bad luck he’s deaf in his left ear and it isn’t his father’s fault.

Reality for Haru is twisted so he has someone he can talk to, someone he finally does not have to lie to. Jooan twists his own reality by ignoring the truth for something less painful.

This is only makes Jooan’s outrage at Haru’s believing in a friend that doesn’t exist all the more interesting to me since he essentially does the same thing. They both believe in lies.

𝙝𝙮𝙮𝙝 𝙭 𝙗𝙚𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙩𝙝 𝙭 𝙧𝙞𝙘𝙠’𝙨 𝙥𝙞𝙖𝙣𝙤

begins youth is absolutely everything younger me could have wished for. its scratching the hyyh itch so well that its leaving me elated. sure, some things are different. sure, bighit messed with the release logistics. honestly? i cant care.

jin is here and he's carrying the pressure of the adult world and his found family. joon's here and he's throwing a protective arm over tae's shoulders like they aren't tired from 16 hours of work. jimin's dealing with demons that are straight out of psychological horror movies and his empty eyes when he smiles might be the biggest offender. hobi with his absolutely insanely human condition about the things he did to get love and attention and that conversation about tools for survival. tae who is the most hyyh of them all, balancing that knife's edge of innocent childishness and genetic violence, standing like he isn't a ticking time bomb.

jungkook, the youngest, who found a family and latched on too hard. who everyone worries will be corrupted, who has never quite fit in right, who smiles as he says words that belong to experiences much older than him. yoongi who has never been just the angst, the emotionless bastard. who has always shed that for his friends, thinking nothing of high falsettos and ridiculous cheers for their smiles. who silently protects and is loyal to the end. who is afraid of letting it be known, so that they can't expect him to stay, be someone worth staying for, because he wasn't enough for her and he'll never be enough for them. the roof of a building and the flickering of a flame.

agh. its so good. i feel so vindicated. this mattered to me, and whoever worked on this, it mattered to them too. the actors clearly studied and respected their roles, the characterisation stays true to them despite the source material being so easy to retcon. there's so much care and authenticity to what hyyh was back then. its still here, we never moved on, and they haven't either. thank god. i never said goodbye.

jungkook | jeha x let down / radiohead

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blood sweat & tears x take a slice / glass animals

hyyh taejoon x merry Christmas, i miss you

projecting my sadness onto hyyh taejoon🙂‍↕️