For The Apostate Ask Game:

kids who werent raised christian being like "lol baptising children is whack if they tried to do that to me i would start doing things to make it look like i was possessed" no you would not. you would bask in the pride and approval coming from the adults around you and you would quietly wait your turn because you were told from birth that sinning sends you to hell and baptism is The Promise that youre dedicating your life to jesus that youve had hyped up for years and watched other people be fawned over as they cry happy tears about it and you do NOT want to fuck up your One Big True Promise To Love Jesus Forever So You Don't Get Tortured For Eternity when you are literally 8 years old. im begging yall to remember its a thousand times easier to see the church's bullshit for what it is when you're not actively in the church. eight year old you is not thinking about trying to fight back against an oppressive religious group indoctrinating children because You Are The Children Being Indoctrinated. stop acting like you would've magically known better if it were you.

🌟 Would anyone be interested in participating in a live zoom call with fellow cult/religious trauma survivors? Hoping to create a safe space where we can all share our experiences and offer advice to one another 🌟

come and get your gender here folks! assigned gender at uquiz! 

Just remembered how as a child I was really weirded out by the idea of marrying a man. So my dream was to live with my best friend who was a girl in the city and adopt a puppy together. I was like, "Haha I don't need boys i have my friend who I'll cuddle with in our king sized bed."

Anyway I'm gay and I don't know how nobody noticed.

struggling with the knowledge that i will lose my parents when i come out.

sure, they've been awful, and yes, they are abusive and controlling and have brought me grief. yes, they are stubbornly rooted in bigoted, heartless, cult beliefs. they're still my parents, though. i still want them at my college graduation. i still want to call my mom. i still want to see them at christmas. i still want them to love me, and i know they won't.

christian love is conditional and i will never be their son. they will cut me off.

i wish, sometimes, that i could suppress myself. i wish i could hide my identity forever. i wish i could live without transitioning. i can't. i can't go on without being who i am. i can't go by a name that doesn't fit. i can't stay in a body that makes me miserable. i have to exist.

it breaks my heart, but i am never giving in and i'm never changing who i am.

The only thing you owe yourself is to live a good life

I can not explain how validating it is to see other nonbinary lesbians with religous trauma on here. Especially ex jw or ex cult ones. After realizing I was in a cult I thought, "There is so much crazy in my life. Will anyone understand my hyper specific experiences?" Apparently the answer is yes and it feels amazing.

Basically Alex Hirsch

The Rage of the Burnish