Today, was a easy day so far. i got to go to the store today. it was not what i ecxpected, it was pretty boring....
so an update on how I'm doing, my stress is going and leaving I'm tired but scared to sleep... and my swallowing is getting a bit better but not by much. I just want to wake up tomorrow and everything be back to normal, ugh I hate having stuff wrong with me. I can't even eat hard food bec I keep associating it with not being able to swallow last night, and my stress is just getting the best of me bec I'm all alone right now. I hate being alone, well... not being alone. I just hate being alone when something is wrong with me in case something happens and none is here for me. I have to take my sleeping pill I hope I can swallow it...
Hello, it's been another long time since I talked to you hasn't it. I'm sorry. I've been in my head a lot and I've been trying to get stuff under control in my life, I don't know what to do anymore. I've been so down lately... I've been trying I really have. but it's hard to fight monsters you can't see you know. I just want to be able to wake up and not have to stress about anything. I wish time would stop. oh! I have big news... in two months I have been with him for 2 years. yes I know it's coming up to that date but it's okay I think I can make it and push through it. he's the second one that's actually stuck around this long and not left or done anything bad to me... I'm not sure how I feel about that really. well I have to go jump back into Gilmore girls. see you in the next one.
Well, today was actually a great day. Man was I tired when I got up this morning, but I didn't let that stop me from going out today. I got up put my hair up and put on some makeup and left out the front door. Off I went to store after store. The sun felt so good on my skin!!. OOOHH!!! you guys might or might not be happy to hear that Mexico is going to come home soon!!! so he says, I believe it when I see it XD but other than that today was a really great day. I loved it!!
This shit messes with my head The only home I know is my bed Too lazy for suicide I just watch the days pass hoping to die
Man, do I have stuff to catch you up on!! There has been so much happening lately.
I'll be posting ALOT soon so make sure you keep up π€
itβs time is driff off into a dark slumber agian...
If a demon ever took over my body, Iβd just hand it over and be like you can take it from here... good luck bitch in my world!!
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