I Don't Have A Clue How Any Of This Works Yet But I'm Learning. I Could No Longer Tolerate FB, Or Any

I am not a ghost.

I don't have a job. I have always had a hard time making money. I will not show you my tits or do sexually charged things with you. I won't constantly stroke your ego. I can't connect you to anyone "important". I won't agree with everything you say or do. I won't laugh at stupidity with you. I don't think life is always easy nor do I feel that easy is always the best idea. No, I won't make sure to maintain a certain "appearance", I don't even wear make-up. While I do understand that money is a "need", waving your net worth at me will not impress me. I strongly believe in effort, learning, and making constant adjustments. I have often put a lot of energy into helping others but I have finally also accepted that I deserve acknowledgement and help as well.

I know. I understand. More than one human has explained that I am simply being too difficult and that's why I can't connect. I get it BUT, I also understand that I'm not invisible. Just because I am not one to conform to common behavior patterns does not mean that I deserve to be treated like I am even less noticeable than the homeless person you happily see as either a problem, or a way to feel better about yourself by donating to the charity case. I am very much alive. I too have feelings. I... am not a monster... or a ghost! I am simply different. I don't want to be medicated or changed so I can be more "normal". I just want to be me, and be accepted as human. Yes, I know... good luck with that. Humans can't even seem to get beyond skin color so why would I expect my list of differences to be accepted? meh... A girl can dream.

Your creativity is your strength, fuel it with confidence. Embrace self-improvement, you'll sculpt your future masterpiece.

Miles!

Okay, here is where I will post a question. Does anyone use MapMyFitness? I don't do the big challenges they offer as I'm not exactly in ... the condition.. to participate effectively but, I do enjoy tracking the miles of my walks, hikes, and stuff like bicycle rides. I just think it would be neat to have someone there again to share with. It can be a fun little motivational boost as well. Meh... the question is here. Maybe someday it will prove useful. hahaha

The same examples can be found for leg protection and other safety gear. It's annoying sometimes but yes... safety first! Ride safe folks. Too many things can happen so fast... especially when other drivers are involved.

SAFETY FIRST

We live in a world of options. I don't always understand those options but, we definitely live in a world full of them. Here are a couple of today's rather entertaining .... options.

This... is part of why I get so uncomfortable sometimes. I have always tried, painfully so, to be a positive person. But, I am finding it harder and harder with time to be... positive. Why? The poor behavior that can be found close, out and about, and pretty much EVERYWHERE online, that's why. I mean seriously, the fact that signs like this are even needed is a display of the kind of behavior that makes it hard some days to brush it off and smile. I know it has become the norm to allow your electronics to think for you but dang folks... seriously? From where I'm sitting, we're all doomed but, I still do try... to be a positive person and at least not abundantly feed the ugly, nasty, YUCK that seems to be EVERYWHERE at this point. -sigh-- Okay, I'm done now.

DONKEY DAY!!!

Well, I did not realize a day had been created to celebrate the sturdy donkey but... now that I am aware of it, I MUST say.....

- - - HAPPY WORLD DONKEY DAY!!!

I'm not one that agrees with creating a day for everything so that humans will acknowledge the ... contribution... that people, places, creatures, or things have in what humans call progress BUT... if that is something that is needed... I will GLADLY support the recognition of the hard work animals do as slaves to the ... humans.

Just a couple of today's pretties.

The many faces of loss

I always get so grumbly with humans that think loss is a simple thing. A death, job change, relationship end, and many other forms of loss can have lasting, and often hidden (even to the one dealing with it) effects. So many people focus on the short term handling of the loss, or the lingering obvious issues and seem to think they know how the person should or shouldn't be acting. It's complete ridiculousness. NOBODY has ANY right to tell ANYONE how they should feel, or how the loss impacts them in their own realities. EVERY SINGLE CREATURE deals with each loss in their own ways. Some of the effects can be dealt with quickly and easily, some make permanent changes and will never be fully understood. NEVER.... EVER... let ANYONE tell you that you are somehow broken, or messed up, for how a loss impacts your own thoughts. Those who are trying to help will usually offer support, reassurance, patience, and space. If the person you think is there to help is pressuring you, making you feel like something is wrong with you, or is irritated by how things are effecting you... they are clearly NOT as helpful as they want to believe they are. If someone doesn't understand and is a bit inconvenienced because of your handling of a loss, that... is completely understandable... BUT... if they allow that to become an attitude towards you... THEY are the ones with a problem... NOT YOU! This human experience does not come with complete and foolproof instructions. We each have to figure things out in our own ways, no matter how many others try to tell us they have all the answers. So, if you're out there, and you're dealing with something, and you're feeling a bit beaten.... just remember.... you got this. There are those of us out there that understand it's complicated, it takes time, and USUALLY it's a lot more messy than anyone cares to admit. Just keep picking at it. You'll get where you need to be with it, if you really want to. Believe. ... Much love.

hahaha Okay... I grumbled.. now for the more uplifting stuff. Grumble, complain... then feed the mind and body with healthy happy using some fresh bananas and blueberries in some blueberry banana Cheerios. Cool, refreshing, and healthy.