The Truth Is: The Whole Point Of Dying Is To Be Scared. Because That Means That Your Life Meant Something

has anyone ever had the problem where you literally never want to do anything that you cannot reap benefits from immediately

like maybe I’m hungry but everything I have in the house at the moment would take 10+ minutes to prepare so I just……put off making the food for WAY longer than it would have taken to prepare the food when I first got hungry

Or i want to order some necessary thing online but the website says it will take a week to get here and i’m like “oh well fuck that” so I put off ordering it for like a week

Or if im like “I should clean my room because I like when it’s clean” but I know it’ll take me a couple hours so I don’t do it for like six months

It’s like there are only two times for me: right this instant and The Entire Rest Of The Future.

I want to be the girl sitting in that chair

Peony and Iris by Hanne Lore Koehler

And while listening to Pogo, for example: Do Something Rhythmic, or Skyheart

happy stimming by jumping up and down in circles and flapping like crazy and then falling over to catch  your breath is so good!!!!

movie recs?

I was going to post a different list, but right now it is only films about Afghanistan and by Afghan filmmakers that matter.

by Afghan (& Iranian) filmmakers:

An Apple from Paradise (2010), dir. Homayun Morowat

Black Kite (2017), dir. Tarique Qayumi

The Black Tulip (2010), dir. Sonia Nassery Cole

Chand metre moka'ab eshgh/A Few Cubic Meters of Love (2014), dir. Jamshid Mahmoudi

Hava, Maryam, Ayesha (2019), dir. Sahraa Karimi

Kabuli Kid (2008), dir. Barmak Akram

Khakestar-o-khak/Earth and Ashes (2004), dir. Atiq Rahimi

Namai ba rahis gomhor/A Letter to the President (2017), dir. Roya Sadat

Opium War (2008), dir. Siddiq Barmak

Osama (2003), dir. Siddiq Barmak

Panj é asr/At Five in the Afternoon (2003), dir. Samira Makhmalbaf

Parwareshghah/The Orphanage (2019), dir. Shahrbanoo Sadat

Safar e Ghandehar/Kandahar (2001), dir. Mohsen Makhmalbaf

Syngué sabour, pierre de patience/The Patience Stone (2012), dir. Atiq Rahimi

Utopia (2015), dir. Hassan Nazer

Wolf and Sheep (2016), dir. Shahrbanoo Sadat

Zolykha's Secret (2006), dir. Horace Shansab

by Western directors:

In This World (2002), dir. Michael Winterbottom

Jirga (2018), dir. Benjamin Gilmour

The Kite Runner (2007), dir. Marc Forster

Mina Walking (2015), dir. Yosef Baraki

Documentaries:

16 Days in Afghanistan (2007), dir. Anwar Hajher

Angels Are Made Of Light (2018), dir. James Longley

Frame by Frame (2015), dir. Alexandria Bombach & Mo Scarpelli

Kabul, City in the Wind (2018), dir. Aboozar Amini

Learning to Skateboard in a Warzone (If You're a Girl) (2019), dir. Carol Dysinger

No Burqas Behind Bars (2012), dir. Maryam Ebrahimi & Nima Sarvestani

The Silhouettes (2020), dir. Afsaneh Salari

Taxi to the Dark Side (2007), dir. Alex Gibney*

A Thousand Girls Like Me (2018), dir. Sahra Mani

What Tomorrow Brings (2015), dir. Beth Murphy

- Sahraa Karimi's account of escaping from Kabul

- The women’s film collective Women Make Movies (WMM) based out of New York is streaming nine films that touch upon the lives of Afghan women from their catalogue for free during the month of August.

*This is the only film that I will include that discusses Western intervention in Afghanistan as it is a powerful critique of the topic; and I have consciously excluded most other documentaries that almost exclusively focus on the experiences of Western military soldiers which do not matter in the slightest.

The whole world is exhausting. Constantly trying to deal with sensory input and confusing scenarios is energy consuming but the most tiring part is having to pretend that you aren’t finding any of it difficult.

It’s okay to need to show the fact that you are struggling. Autism, isn’t shameful and we should not have to hide it.

That’s me to a T

I love being alone in my room, I love not having to be a person

rest in peace, you brilliant little monkey

A quick search of Stephen Hawking quotes because I wanted to read some of the things he had to teach and some of the words he left behind...

“Intelligence is the ability to adapt to change.”

“The greatest enemy of knowledge is not ignorance, it is the illusion of knowledge.”

“I have noticed even people who claim everything is predestined, and that we can do nothing to change it, look before they cross the road.”

“We are just an advanced breed of monkeys on a minor planet of a very average star. But we can understand the Universe. That makes us something very special.”

“My goal is simple. It is a complete understanding of the universe, why it is as it is and why it exists at all.”

“Life would be tragic if it weren’t funny.”

“I have no idea. People who boast about their IQ are losers.”

“People won’t have time for you if you are always angry or complaining.”

“We only have to look at ourselves to see how intelligent life might develop into something we wouldn’t want to meet.”

“Not only does God play dice, but… he sometimes throws them where they cannot be seen.”

love pogo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MVxh92lf_EU&feature=share

I know that. Oh I got a text message from the cute girl I met at anime group! She likes me!! I’m finally going to have a friend!

Two days later: Why hasn’t she texted me back? I must have said something to turn her off. I’m going to be alone for the rest of my life!

that feeling when you’re hit with a manic wave of affection and positivity that you know will pop the moment something minutely goes wrong