[Image Description: A Huge Whirlpool Of Blue Water With White Waves And Ripples. It Looks Like The Ocean
[Image description: a huge whirlpool of blue water with white waves and ripples. It looks like the ocean is draining out like someone pulled the stopper out of a huge bathtub. End of image description.] VORTEX DAYS A vortex day is a day where one appointment suck all your energy up for the entire day before and after. For example, today I went out for Japanese class which I really enjoy, but from the moment I wake up I have to start fighting with my own irrational negative thoughts that say: “No, it’s too difficult, it’s not worth it, no one will miss you if you don’t go, just stay home.” Then in the midst of this tug-of-war, practical preparations have to be made: my hair is a mess; where the heck is my hairbrush? Oh no, better feed the cat first. I should wash my face...but ugh, no, I don’t want to see how ugly I am. Let’s have a Klonopin and sit down for a while. Oh no, I fell asleep! I’m already late! Rush out the door tripping over things and cursing like a sailor. I do enjoy Japanese class, but when I get back the rest of the day is devoted to recovery. Curl into a ball, pull my hat over my eyes, twist and turn my tangle toy into and out of a thousand knots. Light my butterscotch scented candle, turn on the humidifier, turn on the air purifier and the white noise machine. Ah, finally I’m back in my space capsule. Expeditions to Earth take a lot out of a fragile alien visitor like me!
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i’ve been seeing this post a lot lately:
which means a whole lot of you don’t know the difference between an intrusive thought and an impulsive thought.
intrusive thoughts are a symptom of ocd and many other disorder, they are upsetting and often graphic, they are thoughts you do not want and that scare you, commonly thoughts about doing something violent or about abuse. i suffer from intrusive thoughts, they are triggering and upsetting and yes, dark or about killing people.
an impulse can also be a symptom of a disorder, impulses are not inherently bad and are just your brain telling you to do things with no thought as to why. some can be unpleasant, but they can also be things like “cut all your hair off” or “eat the cardboard”.
please stop saying that intrusive thoughts and impulses are the same thing, you are only adding to the stigma and misunderstanding people with intrusive thoughts face.
thank you.
i think it means: people who miss phone calls...or maybe it’s people who dial the wrong number—that is, they miss-phone ya.
Support Autistic people with misophonia
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I know that. Oh I got a text message from the cute girl I met at anime group! She likes me!! I’m finally going to have a friend!
Two days later: Why hasn’t she texted me back? I must have said something to turn her off. I’m going to be alone for the rest of my life!
that feeling when you’re hit with a manic wave of affection and positivity that you know will pop the moment something minutely goes wrong
Polish language
Czy pani mowi po polski?
me: develops a sudden but casual interest
hyperfixation: *jaws theme*
you are my crush you are my lover
ironic response: klonopin and seroquel
sincere: the sun and the moon
name two things better than self isolation and the refusal to face reality
How I see myself
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