Si11ykitty23 - Hi :3

i am having a very overwhelming and stressful day today already and it’s only 7:40 am. and i had a very stressful day yesterday too. everyone wants me to do this big job but i wasn’t planning on it. it’s messing up my whole plan for the next 2 weeks and im very overwhelmed but no one seems to understand that i am overwhelmed. my supervisor said that she’s feeling overwhelmed about the other custodian quitting and my mom is stressed out but they don’t think or feel like i would be overwhelmed???

hello :3 i forgot to make an intro post, so i’ll do that now.

my username is a placeholder right now until i think of something better.

transsexual man | 20 years old | united states

i love drawing, collecting stuffed animals (especially build a bears and pillowfort weighted plush from target), vintage electronics/clothing/toys/etc, and watching youtube.

my special interests are my little pony: friendship is magic, psychology, genetic syndromes, true crime, cats, and disabilities. i love learning about disability aids !!

i have 4 cats at home. i have a girlfriend and she’s super awesome sauce :3. i love my mom.

i have GERD and i have joint problems which i suspect may be hypermobile ehlers danlos syndrome. it’s really hard to get into a doctor to do genetic testing, and i don’t want to take away time with a doctor from people who really need it. i try to deal with it by using braces for my knees, elbows, ankles, back, shoulders, and wrists.

thank you for listening! i will update this as i get more comfortable ^_^

i wish i had EVEN MORE TANGLES !!! even though i have like 15 already x0

i had to use my aac yesterday after i got into a very minor car accident. my partner was driving the car. it was really shocking and scary. she screamed and yelled and that scared me. i verbally shut down and i still haven’t spoken since then. i think i will be okay though.

speaking on what i posted earlier, i’ve been working on allowing myself to verbally shut down/freeze up when something bad happens because when i overreact it hurts my head, makes me cry, brings a lot of stress, and makes me feel anxious. i recently found out what AAC devices are and SGDs are! i use weave chat on my ipad when i verbally shut down and wow it has helped so much!

I am a grown ass adult and I still get nausea when I feel like I'm in trouble. They're gonna send me to the principals office and take away my toys for a week. Can you just fucking kill me instead of making me stew in my fucking anxiety

let's lean with mama

happy autism awareness day to all the girls who had “ friends” growing up who were actually bullying them . to the girls who always sat alone in the grass and wondered why nobody wanted to talk . to the girls who spoke to animals like they were listening . to the girls who created a little world in their room . to the girls who always felt ashamed for how deeply they love things and how passionately they enjoyed media . to the girls who covered their ears when they were overwhelmed by everything . to the girls who carrying a special thing around to feel safe . to the girls who never understood what they did wrong to feel so lonely . to the girls who were diagnosed later in life because they weren’t little boys who liked trains. you are so special and beautiful and you’re not worse for it, you love deeply and that is so wonderful please never try to push that down . I LOVE YOU !!!!!

i listen to a lot of true crime/psychology/crime stories because it’s been a long term interest of mine. something that always bothers me is when there is disabled victims specifically victimized by their parents/primary caregivers. when you have sex to get pregnant and have a child, you are signing up for a disabled child whether you like it or not! “it won’t happen to me” but it could! and you could also become disabled. it boggles my mind why some people who hate their disabled child then decide to keep and take care of a person who needs help or is dependent on them and then in turn decide to ABUSE THEM.

today is horrible