Haha Hello Crispy Nation I’ve Returned And Given You Christopher With Sharp Teeth Because 90% Of People

i actually think there's some significance in the fact that mithrun wears oversized shirt with open collar (it most likely belongs to laios) in the final arc of the manga. i mean, not just that kui simply wanted to draw him in oversized clothes, lol.

in all instances we see young (pre-dungeon) mithrun he's wearing clothes that hide his body as much as possible. which seems normal, until you see what other elves prefer to wear: most of them wear light short tunics with no sleeves and they don't usually even wear pants. here's a comparison to his brother's outfit, for example, as they stand next to each other.

it's not like his fashion choices are unique, but it certainly feels deliberate. he doesn't add any variation to his canary's uniform either, but that's not especially notable, i guess, because a lot of canaries don't do that (i mean, it's still their armor).

but in his perfect world he's also one of the few who always wears this type of clothes. never revealing himself. sitting a little further from everyone else.

he even lies in his bed fully clothed, like he can't ever bring himself to let his guard down, never showing his "true" skin to anyone.

btw notice that his bed is a single bed, even though he's been living with his partner for 5 years at that point.

and that's the idea, isn't it? he never lets himself be truly vulnerable with anyone, even in his dungeon, where people are supposed to like him unconditionally. i think it adds something to the horrible scene with the demon: it's especially disturbing that the demon literally doesn't care how much of yourself you wanna hide, it sees (and eats) right through every protective layer. and we all know what the allegory of this scene is.

when mithrun loses all his desires, he no longer cares what clothes he wears. and in some twisted metaphorical sense it's heartbreaking to see him in a simple elven tunic when he's recovering, the one that doesn't hide any of his injuries or scars or terrible physique.

he doesn't care to hide himself anymore, but it isn't on his own volition. it's something that was ripped away from him, as well as his privacy (a lot of people have to go through this when they're in medical care actually).

when he recovers and enlists to canaries again, he starts to wear full uniform again, but i don't think it holds much significance to him anymore. or at least he thinks it doesn't. we can see that cithis forces him to wear frilly dress at some point and it's implied that he goes along with it (cithis is still an asshole for that btw).

at this point he's fully focused on finding the demon, but i think the sad reality is that he's always been capable of developing new desires. i'd argue that there are already some things he cares about without realizing it, in the main story. but what's stopping him from actually realizing it at that point is that he's clinically depressed. his disability makes his life difficult; he lives with the idea that he's completely "broken", he accepted the reality of living like that and always goes along with what others make him do. so, he doesn't believe in his own privacy anymore. it’s actually something kabru talks about in the adventurer’s bible comic, when he tries to help mithrun to figure it out again, to help him see the value of privacy, of choosing what he wanna reveal of himself. mithrun needed a reminder that he still has this choice like anybody else.

i think the scene where kabru asks him about his past for the first time is interesting in that sense. first of all, i like the symbolism of kabru unbuttoning mithrun’s collar and cuffs, revealing the scars underneath (a good amount of them is self-inflicted). he does so unthinkingly, but in his defence he doesn't know anything about mithrun yet. another interesting thing is that the first reaction mithrun has is covering his eyes with his hands. he's trying to hide. he supposedly has no desire to hide, but this reaction is almost instinctual to him. i think kabru notices this as well (of course he does) and i think it's one of the things that prompts him to voice his concerns about mithrun's privacy later. 

so, what about that laios' shirt he wears in the final arc of the comic? he has to change his uniform's shirt for something else because it's covered in spider's guts. it's unclear if someone puts laios' shirt on him or if it's something he chooses to wear himself. regardless, it's still symbolic for his change. it's not particularly revealing or anything, but it's different from the type of clothes he usually wears, and it's tallman clothes. and in this final arc we can see a lot of his true feelings as well. he's visibly mad at kabru, he shows concern and tries to help marcille, he helps kabru to break out of his spiral. and obviously, in chapter 94 he reveals a lot of what he actually feels and think and shows genuine emotions other than anger. and I think it’s the first time he decided to be open and vulnerable on his own volition, probably in his entire life.

we can see him wearing variety of clothes post-canon and it’s ambiguous how much of it he picked for himself. pattadol probably helps him a lot with choosing outfits and she also prefers high collars. but mithrun knows he can choose now; even if he doesn’t want anything in particular, he always can express his opinion or feeling, like he did with kabru’s food. he always can choose how much he wants to be seen. i’m just glad to see him wearing similar shirt with open collar and rolled-up sleeves on the cover of daydream hour book.

your average mafuyu but i gave her a fish.

crispy with some sbs characters because God he’s been taking over my brain. i’m so normal (lie) i like to draw him teeeheehe eeheee i’ll probably post more soon i Love him

mithrun's desire to live in a world where he has no enemies or people who'd harm him makes me so incredibly upset, but it's a very important piece of the puzzle. the guy clearly was plagued by paranoia and/or anxiety to such unhealthy degree that his biggest desire was… to not have it? i mean, pretty much every bit of extra material confirms that he had troubles with being vulnerable and could never truly trust others, of course, but if it truly was his biggest wish? (if the translation is correct, i mean). it's just. heartbreaking.

because obviously the demon was gonna use it, play the games with him: one day everything is fine and you feel secure and the next day something is starting to feel off. the paranoia would never stop. he'd build hidden passages everywhere in his home just to have safe places. he'd get rid of everyone in his life. turning his partner into a chimera who'd protect him (literally his own words), but still not trusting them enough to be in his bed. and after all these twisted games, after all these defenses were built, the demon couldn't care less of them, it just… intruded into his bedroom and ate right through his body, the last protection he had.

master of the heavenly yard deleted scene

i'm not great at drawing, i hope none of you mind much. i just thought it would be cute.

Stop the hate

Eyyy I see some of y'all hatin on the earth gems. Especially on Sensei, Cinnabar, and Bortz, and Euclase.

I know you’re all like “Phos just wants for all the dust gems to come back, and he also wants everyone to be happy.” But he also destroys others in the process.

Antarcticite was taken because of him, the Amethyst twins were almost taken because of him too, Ghost was chipped off because of him, Bortz lost his hair, Cairngorm is now in a toxic relationship with Fuckmea, started a war with the earth gems, caused Rutile to go insane for taking Padparadscha, Yellow is now more depressed than ever, and other shiz.

The gems can’t see a good thing that Phos has done.

{No one wished Christopher a “Merry Christmas” yesterday (yes, I’ve started expecting holiday wishes at this point), and all I could picture in my mind was this:}

"Look. All your friends have left."

Or it was the demon who told Msrn that his friends 'disappeared' in the dungeons.

yeah sure i get ayin’s whole thing about angela because of carmen but also LOOK AT HER. SHES LIKE A KITTY. HOW CAN YOU LOOK AT HER AND HATE HER FACE. he might as well be one step off from kicking baby animals for his own entertainment