SOWOOZOO D1 ➛ BANGTAN X DAECHWITA  (cr. Dwellingsouls)

Over thinking kills your happiness by Me

having health anxiety is the worst because you’re so worried about dying that you actually forget to live

Okay sooo lately have I have been taking anti anxiety medication and I'm not gonna lie I think it's working, sometimes the negative thoughts are really hard to shut up but recently I can tell them to fuck off and they fuck off, which is awesome! But sometimes I don't know if the pain I'm feeling is anxiety or something bad but I'm pretty sure it's anxiety.

the confusion when i go to the doctor for a check-up and they find nothing wrong with me despite the 38 illnesses i’ve diagnosed myself with in the last week alone

Man I have to take anxiety pills just to hang out with someone 🙃

Me: I guess an advantage of my hypochondriasis is that I’m always aware of the state my body is in. So if I do find something amiss I can get treatment and raise survival rates.

Also Me: Has this always been here? Has it always been this size? Do my cramps always hurt this much? Have I always breathed this way? Is it serious enough to bother a doctor? I don’t think it is - but what if? Guess I’ll just wait until the fear becomes unbearable and I burst into tears at lunch.

Update on me 😊

So I've been on my anti anxiety meds for four months now and I must say..... I feel so much better now. My anxiety is still there which sucks but am able to shut it up easier now. I also stopped googling symptoms which is a huge thing and I don't ask for reinsurance that much anymore but sometimes when I get scared and Jeff decides to be a dick ( Jeff by the way is what I call my anxiety lmao) I ask but only once or twice. I also don't freak out about every little sensations i have!!!!! if I get a headache, I'm not terrified of it. Even though there has been good things, my anxiety is still there which means I still have some of my stuff still. But what really matters is that am learning how not to let it affect me anymore and I'm learning how to fight because im gonna be honest, its never gonna go away, but if I can get it to be not so loud, that's what matters. 

Do you know what I hate, I hate how I can get something and remember having it before but now I freak out over it and it makes it worse like wtf!

i love how we've collectively lost our minds over t8s

One thing I hate:

How my doctor says I'm fine yet I still dont believe am fine 😑