scene queen sounds sm better at 100+ mph <3
You gave up on me Michael. A naive part of me still believes you’re a short drive away, because I can’t believe you’d just leave without saying goodbye.
i just wish to be perceived as gentle and kind. that’s it, that is truly all i want.
it hurts to know this will never be.
being “considerate of your bpd” my ASS, no improvement whatsoever, no regard for changing plans multiple times,, he just doesn’t fucking care it’s ridiculous like dez literally thinks we might have to break up and i’m thinking she could be right
i’m going to start screaming and crying pretty soon. like i am so SO tired of caring SO much for people who don’t even have the courtesy to officially end things.
i just keep getting abandoned over and over and over again and i will end up in the psych ward oh my god.
being aware that your behavior is shaped by childhood experiences is so cringe every time i notice it im like ooo look at her can't even get over what someone told him when she was 7. grow up
bpd is a bitch.
i forgot how fucking delulu i get over this specific person. i need to just be fucking shot.
i miss him so much. i miss his quick wit, i miss his comforting presence, i miss the constant companionship, i miss the everything about him.
it’s so hard missing someone your brain created, that because i am doing better they took my friend away.
i don’t know what to do, how to fix this pain.
I have found a writing that i truly think all hellenic polytheists should be required to read.
I was so moved that I had to write a thank you email immediately after I had processed everything.
These hardships of life were a gift, Lord Zeus is not a vengeful God who hates humanity (Though i’m sure those Zeus devotees out there already knew this)
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If you want to read my takeaways please do read below the email I sent. This piece was truly inspiring and insightful.
i’m obviously sad how hard would it be to say you love me, or maybe try sending something to cheer me up? anything?
✩ 21 ✩ bpd, bipolar, & cptsd diagnosed ✩ helpol ✩ “Freedom is a length of rope. God wants you to hang yourself with it.”
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