Why Are We The Villans ?

All At Once

Today I felt unsafe I felt the panic I felt the loss of control I felt the rage I felt the sadness I felt everything all at once

Watch my mood change as quick as a roller coasters loops Like trying to figure out what that one switch does but never getting a kind of answer I'll love you for a moment, but then I'll be filled with hate Watch me rage and smile as i break my knuckles on the drywall You pushed me and I broke the window There was glass shards in my skin for months after

Today I felt unheard I felt confused I felt the regret I felt paranoid I felt the anxiety I felt the depression I felt everything all at once

My face can't decide on a frown or smile so I'll just fight to not show a single emotion because if I let even the smallest bit I'm overwhelmed and I'll just break I spend so much looking at nothing that maybe I should just move on into the void I'm supposed to be screaming at

"...And you, what would you do for Love?"

Forgive.

*forgets to message back* *forgets to check notifications* *forgets to look through bookmarks* *forgets to check reminders* *forgets to check out [insert content] that i said i would* *forgets to take my phone off do not disturb* *forgets to

I was getting to the shore. Then you came back and tried to drown me. again.

But darling ,

Now I know how to swim.

Sometimes people leave you

Questioning all of your instincts

Because you thought you knew

You thought you felt it

You thought you could trust yourself

You thought it was real

And then reality stepped in and showed you

An entirely different view

A painful view

A view you do not care for

A view you cannot unsee

And it hurts

And it bleeds

And you need someone to blame

So you blame yourself

This is how people get lost

This is how I got lost

When you put yourself first,

you teach yourself the right kinda love.

~ K

No. You're wrong.

They can't clip our wings. The best they can do is to chain them.

And I am going to destroy the chain.

today, i realized i am drowning.

i am drowning and i can't breathe. its all dark and too much. i am choking and coughing. but. the catch is, i tried to scream. i screamed till my throat bleed. but when i saw them laughing, i realized how it didn't matter. how i never mattered. my screams , my cry for help never mattered. they knew. they fucking knew but they shut me out.

They left me here. in the dark. to drown in blood.

finally i had put my walls up,

after it was shattered by millions

And there you go again,

breaking them like it was nothing,

and leaving me in pieces,

again.