My God, Why Have You Forsaken Me?

reblog if you’ve read fanfictions that are more professional, better written than some actual novels. I’m trying to see something

bloom in the abyss

Today is my 44th birthday. I was brought to my mother’s arms as Ronald Reagan was being sworn in and then went to the airport to welcome the Iranian hostages home—a meeting we now know was pre-arranged, as Reagan’s team negotiated to keep the hostages in captivity a little bit longer just so it could be Reagan, as opposed to Carter, who got the credit for releasing them.

Every four years my birthday falls on a US presidential inauguration. Some of those days are good; some are bad; some are terrible. Today is certainly one of the worst.

My birthday also sometimes falls on the day the US honors Martin Luther King, Jr.—or, when it doesn’t, always on a day very close to it. I always spend some time on my birthday thinking of him, too. Like all of us, he wasn’t perfect, but more and more what I think about regarding his legacy is how some of the things he said have been cherry-picked and stored like prize possessions in jeweled boxes for admiring every so often while the rest has been buried. MLK was an outspoken opponent of the Vietnam War, of income inequality, and of capitalism. Of all things I remember the first time I heard anything by him about that was in college when I happened into a record store in San Francisco and heard one of his speeches (not the “I have a dream” speech) remixed in a song.

Often you will hear that you should focus on what you can control. This is true, when it comes to your own personal well being—your state of mind. I feel like there should be a balance, though. Sometimes your well being is well enough that you can spare the anguish that comes with worrying about the state of the world—the many injustices you can’t fix, either by yourself or right away. We need that to push us to actually fix these things, either in small individual ways or collectively, through both direct and indirect action.

Each of us at different times in or lives—or on a micro level, at different times of the week or year—goes in and out of phases where we must focus on self-care and phases where we can look outward. Today I hope we can treat ourselves and each other with a little kindness when it comes to recognizing where it is we need to be in a given moment. Looking around on social media, it may seem that some are always on—always fighting, always pushing for change—and some are always off—cat memes, shipping, fandom. But that’s nothing but a small window into a person. First, that’s simply how that person interacts with one social media platform; it’s not their entire life. Second, it may be that this is the place they come to unwind—or, alternatively, this is the only place in their life where they can share the rage inside of them. Whoever they are, however they are, let them be, and offer them kindness. It’s going to take all of us to fight back.

“Meeting with the Gods”

Acrylic painting on canvas

Size 20x30 cm

2021

Modern Girl In Middle Earth Fanfic Recs

I love a good Modern Girl In Middle Earth fic, so here are some recommendations. All of these fics are on Ao3.

🔳Nothing Gold Can Stay By getoffmyrichard🔳

https://archiveofourown.org/works/27409063/chapters/66992233

Summary: A young woman is turned into an elf child, and struggles as memories of the past keep coming back. Takes place in the year 1005 of the Third Age. A found family fic. It's a very cute fic mainly focused on the OC and Erestor’s parent-child relationship. 

⚫Uncompleted work with 52 chapters and a part 2 with 7 chapters. Updates every other Monday.

Rating: General Audiences

Ships: Erestor/Glorfindel

🔳Oh, Son of A--- By StrivingArtist🔳

https://archiveofourown.org/works/3822802/chapters/8523700

Summary: A woman is sent to MiddleEarth with no explanation and no knowledge of the languages there other than what's in the movies. Needless to say she’s pissed and is going to keep Thorin’s company alive even if he’s a jerk who makes her curse in a way that makes sailors cry. Takes place during The Hobbit. A Fix-It fic. 

⚫Completed work with 37 chapters with a completed part 2 with 2 chapters.

Warning: The OC curses a LOT. There are also references to the weird side of fanfiction. There is also sexual content in later chapters. SUPER vulgar.

Rating: Mature

Ships: Fili/OFC ▪ Bilbo Baggins/Thorin Oakenshield ▫ Kíli/Tauriel ▪ Dwalin/Ori ▫  Dwalin/Nori ▪

🔳Renacida By seeing_blue🔳

https://archiveofourown.org/works/17689715/chapters/41726621

Summary: A woman is sent to Middle Earth and is determined to get home. POC OFC. Some angst due to homesickness, typical Middle Earth things, and the OC’s past. Semi-Slow Burn mainly focuses on the friendship and love felt between characters. 

⚫Completed work with 43 chapters with an uncompleted part 2 that has 4 chapters.

Rating: Mature

Ships: Fili/OFC

I hope you enjoy it. Part 2 is coming soon. Happy readings!🤍

thank you for being a victim to my shallow emotions

if you ask me, the guy who put the sword INTO the stone should be king, not the chucklefuck who got it out.

the problem with being creative is that you start to feel very guilty when you haven’t created anything in a while

Drawing I made of dick being affected by fear toxin