I Failed At Trying To Get Rid Of Myself. It Hurts

I promised myself i would stop cuttting, i guess some promises are meant to be broken.

I’ll always be the ugly friend, the friend that nobody ever finds attractive, the insecure friend, the depressed friend, the friend with social anxiety, the dumb friend, the always left out friend, the useless friend.

I should've stayed quiet.

fighting the urge to skip my classes and relapse in the bathroom

Apparently this needs to be said so

Forgetting things is morally neutral! Memory issues are morally neutral!

You're not a bad person if you...

forget things quickly

forget people

can't remember entire stages of your life

can't remember important things

can remember some things very well and forget other things all the time

can't remember things (or anything!) about your interests

forget to eat, sleep, go to the bathroom, etc

forget to reply to texts

remember things and immediately forget them again

can't remember birthdays, events, etc

frequently answer 'I forgot' to questions

can't retain new information

forget things you used to know

only remember things when it's too late

have vague, distorted and/or unreliable memories

depend on others to know how an event you were in played out

have other symptoms that are worsened by memory issues and vice versa

... and anything else I might have missed!

anxiety has taken away all my happiness.

School is so fucking hard

The moment i'll finally be at peace, is the day i die.

having access to things that can kill me is so comforting

I wanna cry, but i am at school what do i do?