im currently at the point of my transition where im happy and proud to be me
but i wish i physically matched who i wanted to be
i love my box braids and protective hairstyles in general, but i wish i could dye my hair and wear it naturally to help me look more masculine
i wish for nothing more than to finally start hrt (appointment with callen-horde on 4/10!)
i feel nothing towards my breasts. theyre just.. there. i dont feel sad or angry seeing them but they dont feel like me. like they shouldnt be there. but binding tape makes my cheat itchy and uncomfortable.
i just wished that people looked at me and went, “thats a guy”
how I view you based on your favourite Disney princess ⋅˚₊‧
tiana - lily pads, good food, gold hoop earrings, sitting by the river and talking
update if anyone cares
we ended up staying an extra day and im flying down rn!!
the flight attendant thought i was some random woman harassing my mom 😭
she was like “is everything okay” and my mom told her that im just her kid bothering her like usual 😭
the flight attendant was RELIEVED since she didnt want a problem
watching despicable me 4 its not too bad
word of advice!!!
never fly standby.
ESPECIALLY when the flight is for you returning back home!!!
we havent been able to get onto 2 flights now!!!
its 3am!!!
im on the verge of a mental breakdown!!!
i want to go home!!!
i have to stop myself from cracking my skull on the wall!!!
and we might not be able to go home for 2 days!!!!!
isnt that fun!!!!!!?
my brothers response to me starting hrt a few weeks ago
dude i want to take out my hair and wear my fro i wanna look more masc 💔💔
In 2021, my country debated on a law to open medically assisted procreation to women couples and single mothers. When it was debated we asked for it to broaden the conditions to include trans men and transmascs since the only mention of women excluded whose who had changed their gender markers.
We were consistently told by cis and trans women alike to stop making reproductive rights about men, that it was their fight.
The law passed. And we celebrated, and they celebrated, and we held back tears, we'd never be fathers.
In 2024, my country debated on putting abortion in the constitution.
The minister of families received 2 renowned TERFs and tried to change the law go forbid professionnals to refuse an abortion to "women", so trans men whose gender markers were changed could be denied. And we fought, and we fought for the definition to be changed and we won, and we celebrated in
Deafening silence.
“If men could be pregnant it’d be in the constitution already !”
If only you knew.
After I got assaulted, I wanted to take a self defense lesson.
They were “cis and trans women only”, because a man like me shouldn't know how to hit. I went to the gym and I punched a dummy until my knuckles turned purple.
I got a sleep exam. Under anesthesia, the doctor asked me if he should say “sir or ma’am”. I’m tied up on the bed. I asked him to say “sir”. He tells me “I guessed so, you’re such a pretty boy” and he stroke my arm. I want to scream and cry. When I recall the scene to people I'm stealth with, they say I just dreamed, he wouldn't do that, I'm a man. I'm a hysterical woman with extra steps.
I catter to my wounds alone and I wonder
If I got to the point of being hatecrimed
If people would argue on my grave
For it to be called
A feminicide.
They are feeling more empowered so keep a watchful eye on who is around you.
i find this really funny because before i finally transitioned (like a month before) i was telling my then boyfriend about how i wanted to have a dick and asked him if he ever wanted to have a vagina and he went “???? no???” and thats when i found out that wanting the opposite sex organ is NOT a normal thought most people have :/
all of my bsfs when i had told them about my want also agreed with me and ironically half of them are trans (one is a trans man and one is genderfluid) LMAO
Just trans things.
tbh i find it very ironic that in the past before my transition, i hated makeup and found it too much work to deal with but NOW?
i LOVE makeup. i LOVE doing my eyeliner. i LOVE femininity. and wish i didnt donate all my makeup because i didnt think id ever like them TT_TT
im literally taking the time to learn makeup and stuff so i can
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