How Do You Decide What’s Best For You?

Do I exist

Like I know I am here

I feel my body, I see everything around me

I smell smells

I hear things

I feel feels, I love and I am loved

But sometimes it doesn’t feel real

It’s hard to call it dissonance

But I feel untethered from time to time

Like most times I am not here

But the real me fights through the haze and I am me

In that moment

But that makes all the other moment not feel real

Okay it doesn’t sound coherent

Maybe it’s not

Maybe that’s the whole point

Watching another grieve

You almost want to cut a little bit of the sadness and hold it on their behalf

But you can’t, you can only sit with them, hold them,

Try to pour all the love you can muster into them and hope the sadness doesn’t swallow them whole

A little life walks you through the life of 4 friends and it’s a really good book but in there I also see where love and converting intersect, we’re friendship meets envy, we love our friends for who they are and also envy them for who they are

To The Person Who Walked Past The Window - Jordan Bolton

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My Cat

I dreamt I had a black cat

She, oh yes a female

She was brilliant

With black beady eyes and a

Careful countenance

She was my black cat

Do you ever ask the question why you?

Or maybe even “why not you?”

I think it’s futile to question a situation like that

Because it’s just what it is

It’s either you or it’s not

The real question is how to make peace with that tea

This is my kitty cat Luna, as you can see she loves sleeping and is actually asleep on my lap as I type this.

I hate to do this but I need some help, due to her health issues Luna needs medication multiple times a day, which altogether costs around £200 a month. Which I cannot afford with my paycheck and I have tried. Without her daily medication her health will go downhill and she will have to be euthanised.

I'm not going to ask for donations but if I could have some help signal boosting my Etsy shop that would be awesome! Please have a look, especially if you or someone you know likes pokemon, I have been told they make great gifts too.

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ZiggyZaggyCrafts - Etsy UK

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In the quiet,

in the spaces that are far apart,

in the days before we meet again.

I feel a sense of simple acceptance and then you drift in again, i get excited and disappointed,

which is why I yearn to be in the quiet