I Made A Ref For Susan To Have Her As A Solid Character Instead Of A Foggy Human-shaped Figure In My

My personal take on Riley

microdosing on catharsis by watching a fictional character or persona i relate to have an emotional breakdown until my chest starts to ache from the amount i’ve repressed

I'm sorry. Poppy playtime obsession got to me😞

I feel bad for the toys and I won't rest until my mind comes up with a scenario where everyone lives!! However, that need alone is not enough to make me draw something.

While I love the toys' designs bc they're all such cutie patooties, their biology/anatomy just make no sense to me (well, most of them, i have little to no issues with Huggy and Kissy) >.<

That's why my autistic ass (powered by sheer confusion and need to make sense) decided to redesign the characters. Well, not the TOY designs themselves, but rather the ones that are alive and were previously humans- YOU GET IT

To justify my redesigns I also had to rewrite the story a little. Pardon me, but I don't understand how they made human/toy hybrids that are both organic and artificial... This makes zero sense to me, so in my rewrite Playtime Co. created their living "toys" via mutation and crossing human and other creatures DNA. Some Umbrella + Urbanshade shit, yea... Right now I'm done with Yarnaby and Doey, and there's also a Catnap redesign in progress (I'll show him later)

Here are some notes on my redesigns:

YARNABY

- I genuinely tried my best to figure out his vertically split mouth, but after doing some research I realised that this is probably anatomically impossible:')

- my main inspo for his mouth are snake jaw and some resident evil mutants. I used boss forms of Moreau and Lady Dimitrescu from re8 as references, bc they both have these weird segmented jaws, but i feel like Moreau's jaw gives off more of like, Yarnaby vibes, so my Yarnaby's jaw is similar to that of Moreau's

- instead of having fur made of yarn, he has real fur, cuz my Yarnaby is a fully organic creature, a mutated human. His fur is just dyed in rainbow colours, however it wasn't re-dyed since the hour of joy, so he isn't as aesthetically pleasing as he once was (still perfect to me)

DOEY

- again, Istfg I don't get the logic behind this living play dough. If he's made of clay why does he need food... The answers I'll never get. ANYWAY- Since I'm trying a mutation approach here, rather than ??? whatever we see in the game, I thought "what is the most play dough-like creature on earth?" And my mind immediately screamed OCTOPUS. I mean, they're squishy and gummy- They can squeeze through tight spots, they're colourful and look like jelly

- also while looking for octopus references, i found out that they have neurons in each of their tentacles, which allows them to multitask! I thought this was a cool explanation for how Doey's personalities control the body

- so yea, my Doey is basically a human/octopus mutant hybrid. That's it. Although idk how they merged three persons into one living being. My main idea is that boys just fused during the experiments... I'm trying my best here to make sense out of this all, don't be hard on me😞

Movie Lloyd going through puberty🫶

(he doesn't like it and has body dysphoria😋)

I think he's a very dysfunctional autistic😞

He displays a lot of symptoms:

- intense special interests (engineering, robotics, that scary clown is probably a thing im their world too, so it counts)

- stimming. Lucas can be seen shaking his leg and humming to himself in Not a Hero. Vocal stimming seems to be a common thing for him. He makes a lot of funky noises

- social withdrawal

- He only wears loose comfy clothes, which may be an indication of sensory issues.

- he also doesn't like being touched (he tells Zoe to get out of his face when she clings too much in Daughters)

- or when his stuff is touched (annoyed when Eveline is taken to his old room; also that fuck you list entry about Jack throwing some of Lucas' stuff out on the veranda)

- sensory issues with food (kinda? He complains about his mom's cooking, doesn't like it even when the whole family is fucked up with mold lmao)

- difficulty with neurotypical communication patterns. Lucas is very direct with expressing his discomfort. Takes things very literally (like in that fuck you list entry about him looking in on Zoe when she was doing yoga. She called him a pervert, most likely JOKINGLY, but Lucas took it seriously)

- tendency to systematise and categorise (the fuck you list and childhood journals)

I can think of a few more symptoms of autism (+adhd) that he shows, but they're either based off his general vibes or my speculations

Aaanyway-

Due to mental health neglect, Lucas is dysfunctional and unaware of his autism, which leads to internal turmoil, low self-esteem and sense of emptiness. Idk it's me speculating here again, but I just enjoy diving deep into psychology, so I dare to assume that Lucas tried to get rid of this emptiness and self-hatred by projecting it onto others and killing people

I'm experiencing curiosity so

Lucas Baker enjoyers, what mental illnesses to you think he's coded with and why?

I've seen a few, I've definitely seen ADHD coded behaviors but I've seen a few people theorize he could be schizophrenic. I'm just overall curious to what people think and their reasons, especially since I haven't analyzed too far into it.

⭐️ Fourth.

And in the Fourth, everything feels just the same — and yet, somehow, a little different.

«Life in the Fourth is worth any discomfort. Here everyone does whatever he wants whenever he wants, and for exactly however long he needs.» — Mariam Petrosyan, The Gray House

It took me two months to finish the illustration, but bot once did I regret taking on something that big. All of my endless love for “The Gray House” captured in this drawing, and I poured my heart into it with great dedication.

class sketches of the two scarf-clad kids that told us to eden ourselves

(bonus photo spam cuz i care them i love my children) vv

they’re besties in my small brain

They will all meet in the afterlife

(aka what if Jinx actually died and could find peace with her little family)

DROP ON ALL FOURS. DROP DOWN ON ALL FOURS.

He's absolutely capable of it, his body maybe find it even more comfortable moving around like this but it would hurt his ego to move just like an animal or his experiments. So he just mimics the way humans walk