sorry i've been inactive i literally have bronchitis and its sapping any creative energy i have
had the epiphany last night that the opposite of a bottle of holy water is a cursed molotov.
too many stories about turning yourself into a monster as a metaphor for pretending to be something you aren't and losing yourself in the process. not enough stories about turning yourself into a monster as a metaphor for choosing to openly embrace yourself even if it's strange to other people
The futility of forcing oneself to appear as anything; the emptiness of seeming-to-be.
You need to practice. Living is a craft, so is love.
But you are on the verge of dangerously veiling everything. The problem is not the magic, itβs that you chose the dark kind. Veil this room in light, veil this room in wonder. Understand that life is rising and falling consistently. You desire creative ownership. But do the right thing. There are days in which I want to sleep through the day. I want to sleep through the day because I want to close, to close myself to the excruciating crushing of life. I want the drug of the dream, I want to float headless. I want to not be affected by blood, pain, bones, or gravity. A rainbowed mass of vision and no form. I want to be full of the beams of fantasy. Sometimes I am like that.
I want to be so full of life. I want it so much I donβt focus. I die among other things. White wine, joints, cigarettes, too many naps, reality television, the mixing of substance. I want to feed without having to feed on anything. I want to be full without having to move. My craving for that pure dark stillness. It is a blackness made only of a blinding brilliance. That stillness which is life in its most basic essence. It is like nothing on Earth. So far here I have only found glimpses.
The witch took her sharp green finger to the fabric of life.
She could not be sure of life.
β Her Green Pedicure, Cyber Diary
I want to learn swordfighting, but like, at home. Does anyone have any resources?
playing through Little Nightmares and Little Nightmares II and i can't help but wonder if our playable characters are fae-based? and the only information i have to support this is that they're small, they're young, and they have weird powers
there's a theory that the seven days of creation are metaphorical - to connect the attributes of the ancient Egyptian gods to a singular God. another theory is that the days themselves are metaphorical, and that each element of creation corresponds to the order of cosmic development.
there's a theory that early humans inhabited around water sources, and that eating sea food, rich in omega fatty acids, contributed to our mental development. the apple is a metaphor. we gained self awareness - and through it, existential dread.
there's a theory that our souls interact with the physical world at the quantum level, which dominoe-effects into the electromagnetic spectrum, allowing us to interact with our surroundings. isn't it strange that an electron changes its behavior just from our observation of it?