(detail from the San Barnaba Altarpiece (c. 1488) by Sandro Botticelli)
also i literally have zero coherent thoughts about atsushi rn. i hate you and i want you out of my head, i've wanted that for so long. the softness in the way the headmaster smiles at him and says, i'll be gone. your sort-of-father who was cruel to you and who cared about you (never in ways that justified what he did to you, but never quite the monster you wish he was, either) and who haunts you and who gave you the same things that kept him alive and didn't know how to give you better. you know. the way the headmaster's death and the fact of the headmaster's humanity slices atsushi open in both universes— you hate him, and still. and still.
HELLO FRIENDS In honor of one of my friends starting tma i am posting the rest of what i have for this series
I'm going to be honest, i wrote all of these like a year and a half ago so i don't even remember if all of them are as accurate as i thought they were at the time so tell me what u guys think ( ALSO IM SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO POST THESE)
if you guys want more i can be convinced to relisten to the series and finish this and also send me asks i love getting asks
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111. god fuck he just wanted his friends to call him gerry
112. guys I have a great idea for a game it’s called murder tag and there are no downsides I promise
113. sweet dreams goodnight don’t let the carbon monoxide poisoning bite
114. cleaning lady takes a trip to mandela effect land
115. ship cook discovers an infinite meat glitch!
116. oh god the unknowing ritual is fnaf security breach
117. alright guys it’s time to prepare for clown time let’s do a roll call
118. martin burns some stuff and gets traumatized while Jon and the homies are sneaking through an interactive wax museum.
119. ah fuck it’s clown time
120. omg! you were in the archivist’s dream last night! so cool!!
121. dude I’d KILL for a good night’s sleep
122. the worst person you know tells you about their "new philosophical theory" for 24 minutes
123. man is scammed into being the helpless mod for murder reddit
124. old man ruins our austrian mountain trip with impromptu skydiving
125. bagpipe music makes an entire town do a The Purge (2013)
126. man is so shit at sculpting that it literally makes four people loose their minds
127. hey guys… eye am not feeling so well…
128. skinwalker delivery man mourns the loss of his skinwalker delivery husband
129. we needed this rain
130. HOT SINGLES IN YOUR AREA WILL FILL YOUR HOLE WITH MEAT
131. I get the guy who turns peoples’ bones to turn my bones and also tell me the story of how he started turning peoples’ bones
132. MAN OPENS COFFIN. WE ARE VERY WORRIED FOR HIM.
133. My son’s weird boyfriend is a little too invested in my treasure hunt.
134. journalist takes a short and awful trip to dystopia land and it gives both her and adelard decker an existential crisis .
135. let me tell you about our lord and savior: shadow jesus.
136. my boss does a reverse pinocchio.
137. I am saved from the real horrors of war by spooky ghost horrors of war.
138. my dear jonah, it seems my years of fucking around have finally caught up to me, and I am nearing the time in which I will find out.
139. Local cult cooks up an antichrist and then deals with the terrible consequence: parenthood.
140. 17th century homoerotic rivalry between an astronomer and shadow jesus
141. our captain got depressed and then made us all steal a camera
142. hey sorry your archivist got addicted to eating trauma. yeah he’s just watching people on the street now. yeah he’s pulling statements from them like teeth. yeah he’s been showing up in my dreams and he is all eyes.
143. we KILL this evil orb using the power of looking at it too closely
144. math podcast makes man foresee the end of the world
145. gertrude drops the hardest diss track of the century on the desolation / part 2 of local cult’s adventures in parenthood
146. man is stalked by a sneaky door.
147. the archives is stalked by a sneaky spider lady.
148. Security camera guy loves his job so much that he becomes a security camera.
149. weird trash art in the Amazon rainforest bites researcher
150. HOMOPHOBIC SUBURBAN HOUSES
151. have you ever played aquarium tycoon
152. let me introduce you to the world of recreational dirt naps ( I am not asking )
153. evil worm polycule
154. i quit my job and my hot goth wife kills me.
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OK correct me if I'm wrong, but I feel like the main 'yin/yang' parallel with Atsushi and Akutagawa is not something like 'this one is bad but secretly has a good side and this one is good but secretly has a bad side'.
I feel like it's more about 'who they are at their core vs who they choose to be'.
At his core Akutagawa is kind and at his core Atsushi is not. But despite this Atsushi tries every day to make the kinder choices and I love him so much for it. He has to work so hard to be good.
He wants to be a bitch SO bad I know he does but he tries his best to help people and be nice (sometimes he fails but that's OK <3)
Atsushi doesn't always WANT to help people, a lot of the time he's selfish and scared, but he does help people anyway. He keeps helping people over and over again. There's still some selfish motivation to it, and his initial motivation for helping people was because the headmaster told him that's all he was worth, but overall he does care about the people he helps and it weighs on him if he fails to save them. And of course, as the series goes on he starts helping people more because he can rather than because he feels like he needs to.
In Akutagawa's case, he's still capable of being kind but his environment led him into being someone who chooses to hurt people. But he's always been a protector at heart. In the start he was bad compared to Atsushi because he was choosing to hurt people and keep the cycle of abuse going. Just like how Atsushi developed in why he saved people, Akutagawa starts to get redeemed when he chooses to not just act on his rage. Not only does he start to spare people, but he speaks more kindly to them (apologising to Higuchi and telling Kyouka he's proud of her). It all culminates into the moment he chooses to help Atsushi and sacrifice himself for him, going back to his core value of being a protector. Even when he's finally revived, he keeps this role in his new position as Aya's Knight.
I kind of see the streaks of white in Akutagawa and the streaks of black in Atsushi not as their 'hidden sides' but as their fundamental selfs. That's who they are at their core, and their main colours (black for Akutagawa and white for Atsushi) are how they're presented to everyone else and how they try to have people see them as.
Petition for an Antiviral video game tie in similar to Nintendogs. You must ensure your Syd March is regularly fed and groomed. Play minigames to earn money to pay for his enormous veterinarian bills
was scrolling through the "the mechanisms was Jon Archivist's college band" tags on ao3 and misread "martin finds out Jon is the lead singer of his favorite band" as Melanie, and i honestly think that would be a hundred times funnier. imagine your eldritch boss who you fucking hate but sounds vaguely familiar asks what you're listening to one day out of awkward obligation to make British Small Talk and you roll your eyes and tell him he probably doesn't know them and then you drop their name and he goes very still and flushes and suddenly Jonny D'Ville is speaking in your airpods and you're looking at your boss (who again, you fucking hate) and your world crashes and burns
metalocolypse insanity dump all ive been able to think about for the past like 2 weeks has been toki wartooth. this is a cryyy fro help
TMA is so hilarious for introducing Gertrude from the perspective of someone who never knew her, letting us assume she was a confused, old lady losing her touch, only to then reveal she was a morally fucked up arsonist that tried to burn down her workplace, killed like two of her assistants, was an active menace to society and nuisance to all the Avatars, and arguably one of the most badass characters in the series.