The Pain Is Good. It'll Prep U For Later, So You'll Start Not Giving A Crap About Most Things

“Do you ever miss yourself? The person you were before you had your first heartbreak or before you got betrayed by a person you trusted?”

— Unknown

“Just in case you ever foolishly forget; I’m never not thinking of you.”

— Virginia Woolf, Selected Diaries

I feel tired always as if my eyes is asking for rest, my mind is constantly thinking,I feel completely blank as if I am dead inside, sadness is like on and off

There are a few moments where I spend time with myself.. when my thoughts take over there is some heavy feeling in my chest, I become an unknown person, I feel like staying in isolation and breaking things and scream out loud...since I'm unable to do all those.. I scream without a voice and hands began to crawl over my face , I act like a mentally ill person , I feel like scratching my face, hitting myself, I just feel like destroying everything, my hands and legs crumbles and most of the time I scratch my face , I cry quietly. What is happening with me

"You are not the only person in anyone's life." - poosanika

why is being alive so expensive, i'm not even having a good time

I don't feel like I deserve love because I haven't done anything to earn it. I believe there must be a reason for someone to love you, and I don't see any reason for anyone to love me. Even if someone did, I would still feel like I don't deserve it. So, there's no point in being in love or in a relationship. I'm flawed, and I don't think anyone should be with someone as flawed as me. That's why I don't want to fall in love or be in a relationship right now.

Hug me please, I need that.

With Love, I part ways

My love for you, was as gentle as wind

The wind that breezed across thy face once

Ne'er failed to bring thee a slight glee

You seem'd to enjoy, and assure thine love was true

Which I blame myself as I mistook

You mad'st me believe the enjoyment as love

I trusted it more than my soul

Breaking it, seem'd like a merry chore to you

But for me, it was my oxygen

A reason to live and breathe

Parting from thee felt like a rock lifted off my chest

A heavy block that hindered to inhale the goodness

You wert the block in my life

I devour thee and hence I shall let thee go

I wanna cry out loud 14-06-22

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