Cuddles And Games

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤDitch with me, Genshin characters

genshin characters reacting to you saying, "I'm bored, let's/can we go make out somewhere."

includes: albedo, rosaria, xiao, hu tao

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ〔 ALBEDO ━━ THE CHALK PRINCE 〕

Maybe becoming a volunteer in Sucrose's experiment just because you wanted to see Albedo was a bad idea; you didn't know what you were thinking, of course Albedo wouldn't ditch his job, overseeing Sucrose's experiment, half way to indulge in you━━ hell he wouldn't stop even if Mondstadt was on the verge of collapsing. Even so, you sat at the table, passing along different chemicals and materials ( that you involuntarily learnt the name of ) to the two when they asked.

You knew better than to become a hinderance to Albedo's work and to keep your private relationship out of his work cave but having him stood right infront of you, have his hair be waved in your face without you being able to touch it was just a crime. So when Sucrose slipped away to find the materials from the different side of the room, you took this as a chance to sneak up on Albedo and wrap your arms around his waist and swaying him side to side. He leans back into you slightly, which makes you happy, knowing he had been craving your touch as you his.

"We're nearly done━━" Albedo starts, only to be cut off by you, breathing down his neck, "I'm bored, can we go make out somewhere?"

Albedo freezes, still stiffly following your swaying. You let him ago upon feeling him freeze up, turning him around to face you━━ though he didn't look at you, casting his gaze upon the floor. You hear him mumble something under his breath, "what was that?"

You lean down, hoping he repeats it. He manages to grit out, "after we finish," hoping Sucrose didn't hear. You hum happily, letting him go when Sucrose comes back with an armful of materials and places them on the table. "It's a promise then," you tease. Sucrose seems confused, but with you having an amused smile on your face as you went back to your table and Albedo, who seemed to be out of it, she didn't know who exactly to ask so hoped it was nothing serious.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ〔 ROSARIA ━━ THORNING BENEVOLENCE 〕

If joining the knights taught you one thing, it was never to go drinking with the Cavalry Captain, Kaeya as his go to was usually his brother's cavaran and God knows how much those two pretend they hate each other. See Kaeya enjoyed riling people up, no matter who, but somehow, he got an extra thrill when it was the red haired pyro claymore user; so when Kaeya asks if you want to go for a drink, you say no.

However, this time was different because Kaeya used your weak spot ( Rosaria ) and so here you are now, extra drunk because the alcohol is the only thing that's heloing you ignore the annoying bickering of the two adoptive brothers. Diluc usually ignores all of Kaeya's advances to rile him up, but obviously his day has been shitty because he responded less level headed than usual.

With your face flushed and flat against the bar, you peer up at Rosaria, whose face was hid behind her wooden cup. "You're staring," she states and you push yourself up, placing your head on your crossed arms this time as you hum, acknowledging her words. You glance at the brothers and then glance back just as she sets her cup down, "I'm bored," she looks down at you, "can we go make out somewhere?"

It seems you were a little louder than you thought you were being because the trio stare at you━━ Rosaria, Kaeya and Diluc, all three of them, drill holes into your soul and you should be embarrassed, but the alcohol in your system was definitely messing with you because you hiccup and straighten up to place your cheek on your palm and give Rosaria a smile.

The first to speak is Rosaria, who sighs, "you're drunk," she pushes your mug away from you, nodding at Diluc to take the mug away from your vision. You pout though, a little mad that you dismissed your words as drunk rambles but Kaeya appears behind you and places his hands on your shoulder, "now now, haven't you heard that a drunk man's rambles is his truth?" He teases.

"Shut up, Kaeya," Diluc steps in, not appreciating his humour, "she's not going to take advantage of their drunk state, truth or not."

"I'll take you home," Rosaria urges you to your feet, wrapping your arm around her shoulder and hers around your waist. "Kaeya can take the bill." She says before she leaves with you, stirring up Kaeya on purpose.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ〔 XIAO ━━ CONQUEROR OF DEMONS 〕

Ganyu's training, how should you say this, wasn't what you expected it to be. Though you weren't expecting something of large grandiosity, they were still immortals so you were expecting something which is why you followed the traveller and Ganyu ( also because you hadn't seen Xiao in a long time so you were looking for an excuse ).

You wanted to hug Xiao the moment you saw him but upon hearing you shout his name happily, he sent you a look that said 'not—the—time' so reluctantly, you let him do what he was there to do. When Ganyu went to train though and the traveller was stood far away from you, speaking to Paimon, you glanced over at Xiao, who was trained on Ganyu's figure as she pulled back her bow and aimed.

"What?" He snapped, arms crossed when he notices you were just staring at him without saying anything. "I'm bored," you huff, leaning back on the mountain just behind you.

"Why did you come then," he asks━━ a rhetorical question, he didn't want an answer, he just wanted to rebut you. Too bad though, he was going to get an answer, "well, I came for a certain someone," you emphasise your words so he knew your 'certain someone' was him, "but my certain someone is too busy for me right now."

He doesn't answer, arms crossed and eye still watching Ganyu as she flew platform to platform, summoning her bow and firing with each platform she landed on. "Xiao," he doesn't make a move to acknowledge your words, "Xiao, I'm bored━━"

He gives you an exasperated sigh, ready to answer but you continue, "let's go make out somewhere." He finally looks at you, his neck snaps over to you with a sudden movement that you're scared he broke it but his ears peaking through his bangs and you see them turning read. He stares at you like you've committed a crime but you blink, "please keep it in your pants until we're done."

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ〔 HU TAO ━━ FRAGRANCE IN THAW 〕

Hu Tao usually leaves majority of her paperwork to Zhongli, simply because the latter was better at paperwork whilst she did field work that allowed her to stretch her legs. Due to certain circumstances however, Zhongli was currently unavailable and Hu Tao had to take care of paperwork, that she had kept away in hopes he would come back. You didn't understand much of the paperwork, simply there because the other workers had asked you to make sure she actually completed the work.

Bad decision on their part, you got bored even easier than Hu Tao, at least she had something to do. You had to sit there and watch as she stared at paperwork with great diligence, tongue slightly poking out of her mouth as she concentrated. You busied yourself with the odd bits here and there she had on her desk but even those couldn't quell the urge to grab Hu Tao and jump out the window.

"Hu Tao," you call out she ignores you. "Miss Director, I'm bored."

She pauses, like she's debating something but then promptly return to her work. "Let's go make out somewhere." She jumps up at her seat, slamming her hands on the desk before grabbing you by the wrist and before long, you're both out the Funeral Parlor's door with her employees shouting out after her.

Diary: 12th March 2022

today i ate breakfast (lunch) at 1 because my mom was in a meeting. i didn't eat anything for 4 hours since i woke up except for a pack of 3 month old japanese grape jelly. her meeting was so long it was about orientation for new students @ her school.

i don't get why even the teachers must attend its not like the teachers are answering the questions the parents of the children ask anyway. the people responsible for hosting the meeting could just send them the powerpoint they showcased in the meeting a day before or something.

for breakfast (lunch) my 8 year old cousin is treating us!! she got so much money in her bank account it's crazy. (don't rob her)

she took us to Soon Lee (omg a grandeur restaurant!) it has private rooms and a ballroom and a vegetarian branch next to it. (basically the same dishes owned by the same company but vegan)

they occupied this square room in the restaurant that looked like some gathering place for mafia or people who earn black money having a party. she ordered stir fried veggies (lotus, mushroom, ginko..), sweet n sour pork in yam basket, orange juice fried chicken, tofu in cut up octopus tentacles and lala soup! (the bill was rm168..)

after the bill was paid (by my kid cousin..), my M grandma invited us to sit in her house but we told her we had to catch a movie. it was at 2.20 (we haven't actually booked it yet). when we arrived at the mall, my dad went to the directory and picked 3 tickets. ONE SEAT: RM18. KIDS: RM13. like i literally watched a movie yesterday in the same cinema and they had discount for students and it was RM11 per adult. there was a RM7 price difference between the weekday an weekend! how unbelievable... (so we planned to watch the same movie in a different mall in 2 hours)

we came back to my P grandparents house to freshen up. my grandpa made steamed buns!! it looked like durian flesh on the outside but it's very tasty. i washed my hair with their cold water and it was so refreshing!!!! they collect cold tap water in a huge tub and we have a pail to collect the water and splash it on our bodies. its super convenient and wakes you up even at 6am!

at 5 we departed to watch a movie in a different mall this time. AND GUESS WHAT!!! ADULT FOR RM11!!! KIDS: RM9! and they charged me for the kid price!!! no way in hell. i am 172cm... but whatever saves my money i guess!

after i ate 1/5 of the popcorn i immediately gave the rest to my parents. no way i'm peeing in the middle of a 3 hour movie. never. during the movie i kept fumbling around in my chair searching for a position that will let me hold in my piss for the longest time possible. there was this kid who kept going to the toilet which i only noticed were 3 different kids wearing the same shirt at the end of the movie.

when the movie ended it was already 8.20. we went back home and my grandparents ordered takeout! i got cold fried rice while both my parents ate char kuey tiaw. my nana baked a sponge cake for supper which i ate because i forgot i had my teeth brushed.

lessons learnt at educastle's seminar!

25/6 last sunday, i attended educastle's seminar on how to be motivated to learn!

through this talk, i learnt that LEARNING is a choice. it will NOT end after writing that PhD thesis📃. what matters is your curiosity🔍. noone is content with knowing only surface level textbook knowledge, they must also want to know the depths of the iceberg! 🤔

you are a student🧑🏼‍🎓not because you are binded to high school🏫, but because you are learning. an old man without a degree can also be a student. you choose to learn than stay idle, so congratulations, learner! 📚

a way to be constantly motivated to learn is to develop curiosity for the workings of life🤯. for me, i am extremely interested in the fields of mechanics and engineering🥼, so i will learn that as an interest.

a fact i learnt was that you will remember more of something when you question it🤔, more than if the speaker was directly spitting out facts you don't want to know about.🥱

to understand in depth about real-life problems🤨, you can use the 7 layer technique in which you question your answer 7 times💭. you can use this to develop higher order thinking skills🤔 and also know the contributing factors to your dilemmas.

why do i crave validation? because __. why __? because ___. why...... .... x7

How Genshin Impact Characters Love (as told by tarot)

tags: headcanons, tarot

a/n: (smh i was supposed to do my tokyo revengers version of this today and i come here with genshin because i’m so excited about inazuma releasing lol) here we are with another ‘how genshin characters love’ post, but this time with a tarot-based twist! my tarot event was surprisingly popular, so i thought why not do this again with fandoms i really like and obviously i had to do some genshin characters. if people really like it, i think i’ll do more genshin characters if people have certain characters in mind! let me know what you guys think of the interpretations, i think they’re accurate to the characters!

deck: true black tarot

xiao

the emperor, the moon, page of wands, knight of cups

xiao’s love was a risk he decided to take, a dance of uncertainty he isn’t sure will lead him but he joins it anyway. xiao knows the pain that ultimately always follow when one of the adepti decides to love a human, it is something he was painfully aware of before pursuing a relationship with you and it is something that is always at the back of his mind throughout. but that fear and sorrow wasn’t enough to stop him in the end. xiao’s love is expressed through his actions and spending time with you. his love is sturdy and a love you can depend on because he presents himself as such. if there are only so many days, months, and years he can have with you, xiao doesn’t want you to feel unloved or neglected for even a minute of it. his love is protective, likening himself to your own personal knight like stories of old from nations like mondstadt and fontaine. he dreams of a day his karmic debt is something he no longer has to worry about and he is able to cast away his yaksha mask for the simple pleasures of being with you and experiencing life the way you have. maybe a day like that will come, maybe it won’t, either way xiao plans to be beside you

albedo

seven of wands, anant, five of swords, the sun

there’s a selfishness to albedo’s love that he isn’t able to figure out. he wants to devote all his time to alchemy, yet he also wants to spend the exact same amount of time with you. he wishes to discover the secrets of life that this universe holds, but he also finds himself wishing to discover things about you that you haven’t revealed or that even you yourself aren’t privy to (although there are times he does figure something out about you only for you to do something else completely contradictory, it’s an endless cycle that only goes to show how complicated human nature is). the selfish desires running rampant in him are all at conflict with each other and a practical solution for it all is hard even for the chief alchemist of mondstadt, and one of the brightest minds in mondstadt, to come up with. but despite his troubling, for lack of a better word, inner conflicts, albedo love is warm and joyous. he enjoys having you in his life and cares for you greatly. the sunflower is a symbol of longevity, adoration, and loyalty, all of which he feels towards you. he may not be one for dancing, but the way you make him feel is a feeling mighty close. perhaps he can recreate the imagery with alchemy, you certainly make his feelings feel like they are sprouting up like sunflowers

eula

the fool, eight of swords, strength, the emperor

for the spindrift knight, love would be a new, less traveled road she’s never embarked upon until you came into her life. love was something eula’s had yet to receive from even her own family, so romantic love was especially unfamiliar for her. those were feelings she’s never thought of having for anyone, definitely unplanned. but isn’t love generally that way to begin with? still, eula likely held herself from back from her feelings, though it shows on her face plenty despite trying to present herself as apathetic and uncaring. when she let’s go of those self imposed chains and learns what love is supposed to be like, eula’s love is secure and steady. she might not always express it the way she’d like, but her actions speak far louder than her words ever could through caring and compassionate actions. you don’t care about her status as the depraved descendant of mondstadt’s fallen clan. you only see her as eula, your eula, and that for her gives her the courage to walk with you on a path together and see where it leads you even if she feels as blind as a newborn with every step she takes

yanfei

page of swords, eight of swords, knight of cups, the hierophant

yanfei’s love is straightforward and clear. just as her contract to her parents dictated, yanfei lives freely and only makes choices that serve to make her happy. as such, when she comes to love someone, yanfei doesn’t hold back and she presents herself in earnest to be in a relationship with you. she assures you through her words that she loves you and loves being with you and whenever her busy work as a legal advisor gives her some free time, yanfei is more than happy to spend it with you (though she may chatter most of the day away). despite her cheery and lackadaisical disposition, however, it hasn’t slipped her mind that being half-adeptus your lifespans are severely different. she often worries about when the time will arise that this detrimental difference begins to show on your body that will age much faster than her own. but yanfei knows this is the price all of adeptus blood must pay if they wish to partake in relationships with the humans

childe

knight of pentacles, queen of pentacles, the tower, four of cups

childe’s love is as dedicated as love comes despite his playful and shrewd nature he shows to others who don’t have the luxury of knowing him the way you or his family does. but when childe loves, he is no longer childe the eleventh harbinger of the fatui or tartaglia the thrill-seeking warrior. no, when childe loves – truly comes to fall in love – he is ajax of snezhnaya who loves his family above all else. the people he becomes with his various aliases aren’t associated with the relationship he has with you, like a shield of love and luxury that exists only for the both of you. he can be himself and pretend his troubles and duties don’t burden him when he’s with you and relax solely on you. but ajax isn’t foolish, he knows there’s only so long he can keep you separated from the fatui and what carrying the titles childe and tartaglia brings. something has to give, either your relationship or his duties as a harbinger. it is something he thinks about constantly but perhaps there is a flower hidden in the branches of the weeping willow tree that alludes to a positive outcome after the end of his contemplative period

oh albedo!🧎🛐🙏💯🥵😇🥰

busy

nsfw!!! albedo x f!reader

cockwarming, blowjob, needy!reader, uninterested!albedo

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“I’m busy,” Albedo tells you for about the sixth time in the past ten minutes, and your shoulders drop in dissatisfaction. “I’ll take care of you after I finish my research.”

You huff in response because you know he won’t be finished anytime soon. He would stay hunched up in this room forever if he could - and he tries to.

He’d probably be able to if it weren’t for you, his pretty angel who would come bother him for even a sliver of attention. Whether it be just to sit beside him in comfortable silence or to ask him about what he was researching, you were always there with him. You were surprised he wasn’t sick of you by now.

Unbeknownst to you, he adored it - adored you. Loved when you would come to visit him even if it pulled him away from his work, filling the otherwise quiet room with your sweet voice while you leaned your cheek onto his shoulder.

Today, though, you were pestering him a little extra. Heat simmered under your skin and its been so long since he’s touched you and he hasn’t made any move to do so. So you took it upon yourself to get what you wanted.

What you wanted translated into you asking to suck him off while he worked.

“I’ll stop bothering if you let me.” You promise - a lie but he didn’t have to know that - gently trying to push him so you could move in front of him. “I’ll be good, Bedo, please.”

He pauses, letting out a light sigh before sliding himself and his chair backwards to make a space for you.

You beam at him, eagerly crawling and squeezing yourself into the space under the table and between his legs. He watches you intently while you so excitedly kneel below him before reaching out and pushing your hair back and out of your face.

That was the only time he touched you, leaving you to do as you wished while he did whatever he was up to before.

It’s a shame he was so set on research instead of watching you. You looked so pretty with his cock in your mouth, doing your best to fit him all the way down your throat. Hands splayed out on each of his thighs and your eyes blinked back tears while you tried to accommodate his girth.

You were so messy, too, saliva and precum on your chin - Albedo likes it wet, likes you looking a mess.

The way he didn’t react - besides a few heavy breaths and a small ‘fuck’ that spurred you to take him deeper - made you feel hot and more desperate for him, squirming in your spot between his legs. This wasn’t enough for you, not when you know you could be getting fucked right over the table he was sitting at.

Pulling off him and gasping for air, spit stringing from the tip of his cock to your mouth. Your jaw was sore from it being kept wide open for so long and your throat burned.

“Bedo,” a small, raspy whimper.

A small noise of acknowledgment from him, “hm?”

“C’n I please-“

“I thought you said you would stop bothering me after this?” You wiggled your hips again, whining and wrapping your lips around the wet head of his cock.

“I’ll never get anything done if you keep pestering me like this.”

His hand grabs your jaw, pulling your mouth away from his dick and making you peer up at him. He admires you for a short while, thumb swiping along your slick bottom lip, to which you open in hopes he’ll let you suck on it.

He doesn’t, opting instead to lean back a little more, patting his thigh like he was calling a dog to come to him. Your face burns at that but you don’t pass the opportunity to sit on his lap, crawling up and situating yourself atop him.

You can feel his dick against you, pressing against your cunt, twitching under you at the feel of your wetness. You thank god that he’s so lenient with you, letting you act out your desires with nothing more than amused scolding.

With hands on shoulders, you lift yourself just enough so he can slip himself inside. He hooks his own chin over your shoulder, seemingly drawing his attention back to his work once again.

“That’s better?” He asks whilst writing, but its rhetorical. The way you immediately start rolling your hips tells him all he need, a high chant of “yesyesyes” spilling from you.

A try at making a rhythm was lost quickly, head too cloudy to do more than little desperate jerks of your hips.

Doing all the work was tiring, with Albedo not even shifting his hips to aid you, just letting you pathetically twitch and grind and whimper like a bitch in heat - he’d tell you that, if he was more vulgar, but doesn’t. He’s sure you already know, anyway.

Even though he was quite good at blocking things out, the wet suction and squeeze of your walls around him were a little much, and he had to stop his work to take a breath and calm himself a little.

It unfortunately didn’t do much, the never stopping movements from you becoming something that he couldn’t just ignore.

So he decided on a different course of action.

“You’re distracting me,” he murmurs, grasping you hip with one of his hands, to which they kick forwards. “Stop moving.”

You shake your head, a silent protest at his notion. How mean could he be to make you stop?

A pinch to your side and a simple “what did i say?” were enough to make you think twice.

You let out something akin to a sob, hips shaking as an attempt to keep them still. It was somehow too much and not enough at the same time and it made you want to cry, made you want to tell Albedo how mean he was being right now.

He’s so stubborn sometimes, so set on working and blocking out the rest of the world that even when he wants something he wont get it. You, tearful and pouting, shove your face in the junction of his neck and shoulders and try your hardest to just sit.

“Good girl,” a praise - he knew you were pouting - to keep you from being too upset.

“Just a little while longer, alright?”

⛷️🐝d Toilet fun!

(random scenarios i have in my head as someone with a bad imagination)

"Shall we ditch this juicy block of steak to head over to the urinals for some due fun?" he indicated to the signboard in front of your table indicating two genders separated by a line, shimmering pale grey eyes blinking in mischief.

Relax, he meant to make you follow him as company for his trip to the loo, nothing more. How could anyone mistake his boyish maroon curls for a dirty scheming jerk? The ruffled tangles he own probably came from innocent ruffles from his aunt in their frustratingly functional, happy household.

"No," you tease, then breaking into a hysterical laugh as if you just cracked the most hilarious joke known to man. Toothy grin in place, you swished your wine red gown to trail behind you as you rose from your puffy seat.

As he walked away from the table, he walked with one calloused hand outstretched behind him, welcoming aura made obvious. He didn't even have to look back to make sure your mountain-scaling-hard hands were placed in his. You observed the way his midnight blue suit sleeve stretched richly over his lean forearm and took his hand in glee.

Upon reaching the entrance, he spun you to a stop, your braided chignon unfurling into dark, untamed waves upon your bare neck before he took a ravenous glance at your pouting lips and you admired his perfectly inclined foxy eyes obviously oblivious to your admiration. Your lip quivered at his perusal, as if every thought of his was your command.

Looking at the checkered toilet floor, you broke the electrifying eye-makeout that left you stumbling mentally and dragged the top piece of your dress with both hands down to disguise your discomfort. In letting go of the satin piece that stuck to your flesh like a desperate crush, you cursed at it for making you feel itchy and hot.

He flashed you a tooth in his large smile and leaned his head toward the stall to indicate his departure. You relaxed and drooped to rest your back on the smooth pink-painted wall adorned with abstract paintings you find meaningless. Who would put in effort to decipher this heap of strokes drawn in succession with no thought put into it, if they already had a life full of meaning and hope?

Musing in your sneaker clad feet sure makes time pass fast... or maybe Nic was just the fortunate owner of an efficient sphincter muscle. Striding out of the half open wooden door without a sound, he splashed water onto your countenance from a water reserve in his palms and screaming, "BOO!" while horror dawns on your unsuspecting wide black eyes.

After getting you in the state of shock, his impossibly light eyes arched entertainingly upwards and eyed you mischievously as he quickly stretched his arms forward to pull you down with him as he fell backwards.

Everything happened in slow-motion, as all highly anticipated moments in your life do –

Expecting a fall from your unexpectedly less than restricting retro dress, your normally unreactive brows furrowed in anticipation, narrowing your long-lashed eyes in response. The whole world turned quickly like a rogue panorama with romantic chandeliers all over - until your vision was filled with him and only him.

You've always noticed his eyes were an electrifyingly rare shad of grey almost close to raw egg white, but also so baby blue they were angelically pure. Once the two of you were bouldering a really steep course, and Nic was about to fall, his fingers loosening its grip on the handhold. When you saw his helpless puppy dog eyes definitely not suiting his foxy demeanor drooping in a watery pool, you couldn't help but felt forced to reach out a hand to pull him by the neck like a baby pup.

You weren't exceptionally strong to begin with, definitely not strong enough for men bigger than you, and never strong enough for Nic, who was larger than life. If he drifted away, you wouldn't even have the strength to pull him back into your life. Holding Nic by his sweaty neck plagued by wild maroon curls extending downwards, you lasted for 3 seconds before you slipped down the course onto a soft gymnastics mat next to an out-of-breath Nic.

Hair luminescent like light shining on fresh blood, you held eye contact with him and found that he smiled back, head tilted to his left and cheeks extended enough to show you his light dimple. You never held eye contact with people other than your family for long, and you never knew people appreciated it. What on earth were you missing out on?

Pondering the long history of viewing into his eyes did you no good as he spun you 180° over like a ballroom dancer and you were on top of him as he stayed cornered into the wall, head tipped back in defiance, daring you to exceed his expectations. He definitely wouldn't have thought you'd be admiring his kissably visible jawline. At this point you were still standing straight, until you weren't. As if every moment was escalating into your wildest fantasies, he closed the distance between your bodies by reining in your waist, generating a thundering, warm shiver in you. Nevertheless, you arched your neck back so you wouldn't have to kiss him. He was made for admiring, not indulgence.

"It's okay, you know me," he purred softly, sounding like a dangerous whisper in your ear despite the distance between your faces. "Not like this," you murmured and looked down to his messed up collar, his priceless necklace creating depth in the endlessly contoured desert that is his collarbone. "Look at me," he chided, sharp eyes knifing into your betrayingly flattered skin. Out of all people, he has eyes on me. Isn't that so... exclusive? "Remember when you held me by the neck before we fell together?" his eyes explored your relenting nose tipped high upon your face, and you could feel his eyes pecking secret kisses onto the bridge of your nose.

Your lips widened in protest, and he held your nape gently as you pulled his collar close to your body. Smiling your endless black hole eyes at his candy reddened lips, you indulge in the feeling of his fingers caressing the curve of your head in a secure clutch, your chest pressed against a new, foreign surface.

That day, you almost relented and put your head in his shoulder. You could feel his curls welcoming you if you rolled to his side. The thing is, you've never been brave when it came to love.

Now, you could explore all you wanted. Because this was real. His head dipping down to infuse your lips with his cinnamon flavour was real, and he tasted better than your bad imagination. The way his sharp nose was crashing into yours was real, and you've never wanted to feel better. You are living in the better. "I wanted this," you spoke your illegal thoughts through your busy mouth, and he drew his head back to look at your characteristically shadowed face. The shadows suited you well. You could tell from his hungry gaze.

Putting his comforting palm on your cheek, you felt the cold of his ruby ring and it led you to seek warmth in exploring the shadowed lines of his jaw. A mystery. "I've wanted this since the day I laid my eyes on you," he declared discreetly, voice ravenous and eyes wild.

4 June 2022

Today is Alia and Dafiy bday, Happy birthday!!

In the morning, I had 2 hours before my tuition, so i read a bit and watched a few tarot card videos. tuition was lovely, it was history and i learned a few things! tch praised my kbat question's answer.

Then for 10 hours i was stuck in traffic. I took rlly nice pictures. i did tarot readings intuitively to my parents in the car and we reached ipoh in 8 hours. the restaurant we wanted to go to was closed, so the restaurant next to it was packed bc the closed restaurant was like, famous! This is all for today bc there really got nothing happen

yeah nobody is..🤨🤨😣👍

Nobody is gonna talk about how Hazel had Leo and Frank fighting over her at age 13 🥲🥲

emergency diary copy paste

6.11morning roti canai breakfast. rabbit hole of social media. chemistry notes. lunch longbeans spicy, ginger chicken yum, sour potato slices, naipak. banana. ttdi library hehe so cun cuz absolute focus, j rock n phonk. had a blast playing w my stickers. so cold. went to 1u mr diy so happy hehee felt like myself again. bata shoe kinda meh. burger king stalk st nicholas school acc see what shoe they wear haha. so fun went to inside scoop the cashier so friendly. blueberry yogurt, coffee almond fudge & raspberry sorbet. yum. went to hobility n stayed there for so fucking long Helpppp it was at least 20 mins there i was investigating evey fucking product HAHAHA. it was the first time i did sth like this cuz there were no salesmen n i enjoyed it so much. esp talking abt ultraman n jia tong to dad. "yo wtf ultraman is my generation one lol". hehe so many cute figures. and wafers, gachapon, pre order shit. lolol so ecstatic exploring the damn shop until dad realised xiao gu was here as well. we walked to pjpac and next gen theme park. lolol talked to her there it was so comforting and reality sank in - goingyo sg tmr. not that scared and sad anymore. dinner waisekai so happy hehe. took pics. lou shu fun soup fishball. sugarcane water. talking to liyeen so fun. went 1u again refund brush hehe.

Diary o' 18th April 2022

Chicken floss bread with choc milk for breakfast.

When I was walking along the school hallways, I saw a student getting lectured by our discipline teacher for wearing sport shoes and i probably looked terrified or soemthing because he averted his gaze to me and stared at my shoes, then called me there too...

"Cannot wear these type of shoe ah." "Ok." "Blah blah blah..." "Ok." "Ok u can go now."

MY SECRET TECHNIQUE 😈😈😈😈

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When walking to my class, I saw a morning session teacher probably. He was really fun to talk to.

"Heyy u know where is 2M class?" "Huh why is it your first day?" "No, just my class is currently being used by 4A." "Oh, then I don't know also." Then i see people on the fourth floor waving to who knows what and i point at them and say, "Oh, there?" because i thought it were my classmates lol... "Um no that's form 5 LOL." "Oh.." Then i see my responsible class monitor (U saved me!!) and i shouted her name and waved goodbye to the teacher.

we are using the science lab as a replacement for our class for the first period. i put my bags down and liting asks if i want to go buy the math workbook our teacher wanted us to purchase. while talking to her i looked in my (not so serious anymore) crush's direction and he was looking back at me. i looked away quickly and continued talking to my friend. when we were preparing to leave i looked again to confirm that he was staring and he was. hm. he always does that, looking at me for so long then doesn't look at me for the rest of the day like 🤬🤬🤬.

in recess liting asked me what i ate for breakfast and instead of chicken floss i said dog food... LIKE ON ACCIXENT 😨😨😨😨...

"你吃什么” “狗粮 面包”...

i like math class actually 😍😍💪💪

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in pjpk me and liting sneaked to the toilet when teacher wasn't looking. we took turns in the same stall because the other toilets weren't working. we talked to each other while pissing if that isn't friendship idk what is!

then we also snuck to the equipment room after we finished our business. THERE WAS SO MUCH STUFF IN IT ❤️❤️❤️❤️

There were rugby balls, bow (with no arrows for some reason), BASEBALL MITTS, CATCHER'S HELMET, BASEBALL BAT AND SOFTBALLS, HOCKEY STICKS AND MORE!!!!! I wore the baseball mitt with a softball in my hand for a while and liting was holding the bat until teacher found us out lololol.. she said in PE we could only play with the mainstream sports... 😒😒😒😒☺️

we mostly chilled in pe.

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- we first walked to the upper centre of the field and sat on the ground talking, then walked in a circle once and were motivated to longjump

- we ran and jumped, used a dry leaf as an indicator... she and i jump same length lolol

- then we ran 3 laps from the middle of the field to the slope...

- we are very exhausted, we take off our masks to breathe for a while.. it is certainly nicer without a mask! the breeze~~~

- we walked another lap around the big ass field, resting on a tree near the slope later

- it was time to go home, while walking back to take our bags i saw my (blah) crush mock kissing his best guy friend and i dont know if they really kissed or not they just snickered so loudly after.

DINNER

fried pork fatty sweet and sour flavour???, broccoli and cauliflower, fried chicken (i got the drumstick), po lei shang choi!!!

- i watched major again after dinner, it was so good!!! i like all the characters again!!