Hes A Cat. He Is A Fucking Cat.

im in a bad place rn. not mentally, i'm just not at the mcr show where they played bury me in black for the first time since 2003 and this is the best day ever for the first time since 2005

your memory will carry on.

its that time of year again

Strangest thing was i dont remember asking

Hashida Haruka is an incredible observer. He has a good eye for art, lends an ear to those who need it, and is a walking encyclopedia when it comes to art history. He pays very close attention to things, to people, to the art that surrounds him.

Interestingly enough, though the teaching arc showed us more of Hashida than ever, I was left with more questions than answers. In spite of us seeing him so often in these few chapters, much like Yatora, we realise how elusive he is. He is, if anything, a master at evasion.

Hashida has a mask on, 90% of the time - as nonchalant as he may seem, he is acutely aware of it. One of the few times when he opens up about his insecurities is when he talks to his student - Sae-chan.

"Sae-chan, the truth is I'm bad at painting. I like paintings and I like people who paint. I even paint myself. But the more I learn about other people who do it, I end up thinking of how I can't be like them."

He sees the difference between his art, and the art of others.

Take Yotasuke - someone with incredible skill who seemingly is always steps ahead of everyone else. Someone who is a different league altogether.

And Yatora, who is motivated, passionate and hard working, who made dessins in cram school as if it were nobody's business.

And when he looks into himself... how can he compare? He has incredible knowledge about art, and he enjoys seeing others' art very much. But what about his own? Why does his art have such little worth in his eyes?

That's why, when Sae-chan begins beating up her own work, he reacts so strongly.

This kid, whose works he has observed and appreciated, is beating herself up, yet continues holding her brush. She is jealous of the other kids' art, and finds herself disliking her own art.

Hashida is surrounded by people who he has deemed to be better than him, in some way or another. He doesn't seem averse to others knowing him, but he brushes off others' attempts to understand him. We've seen him invite others out to eat several times but never seen him being invited out.

He confuses yet intrigues me. He seems so lonely and yet we have hardly seen him alone (with him having three sisters and hanging out with Yatora and Yotasuke). It might be a lot to ask for but I hope Hashida gets a backstory as well. I wonder where his journey with art will take him to.

“When you go, would you even turn to say ‘I don’t love you like I did yesterday.’”

— I Don’t Love You, My Chemical Romance

sometimes i wonder if im being cringey with my interests and then i remember there's people that ship minecraft streamers together and i realize im doing fine actually

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we can live forever if you got the time.

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