some diaryposting:
-you can put a splash of lemonade in diet coke. it’s free and the government can’t stop you.
-if a thing is going to make you sad. and it’s something where getting sad about it will not change it. you are allowed to not make yourself sad about it.
-im so excited to get old and fat and ugly. i like myself. i will like myself then, too, possibly more, because i’ll be old and fat and ugly so i’ll have to be a good person on purpose, and that’ll be good for me.
-more people should write and live by personal philosophies im so serious. write three paragraphs of who you want to be and what you want to do to be who you want to be. read it before every big decision or in times of trouble. make charts and rules if you want. make mantras. shit’s gas.
-every time my life is going well i stop writing for the fated. sometimes that means i stop altogether and just. do real life stuff. sometimes that means i spend a week compulsively writing a highly detailed self-insert oc fic for a different franchise. usually after 1-2 weeks when the mania/compulsion passes i go back and re-read it and analyze exactly what the themes and morals and character motivations/objectives/significant events are.
-on an unrelated note (read: highly related lmao), i am not sure i will be writing very much anymore! sorry! maybe one day when i’m less busy…
there is such an inherent rage in being queer. not by choice but because other people’s rage is inflicted upon you. and it’s so hard. and i’m so tired. i work twice as hard to achieve half as much decency, which should not be something i can achieve it should be given freely, and no stupid sticker will ever truly encapsulate the immense rage in me, the anger. if i play by the rules and lay down and take it, i betray myself and my community. if i stand against it, i am demonized and harassed and painted as though that is the natural state of a queer person, instead of the truth: i am a response. i am a response to every injustice that has ever been delivered to me. the whole thing is going to make me scream.
haters are mad that I can find a way to jack off to Nine Inch Nails lyrics alone 
HEY RIPTIDE BITCHES
i tried to write for y’all’s campaign- here’s the riptide modern au oneshot i mentioned in the poll a few days ago. hope ya like it.
btw if you like this fic you’re legally required to either submit an ask for me to write something else or go read some of my other shit /j
constructive criticism greatly appreciated :)
the dagger holster stays on during sex
i think velrisa greyrock bit people as a kid. like not in the cutesy lilo and stitch playfighting way or in a glamorizing way- i think she lost her first tooth in a fight. and i think she lost that fight, i think she never stood a chance in it- she was a little girl branded a monster and therefore a heretic. and i think when she peeled herself out of the afterforge dirt and came home, she didn’t tell ander who did it, no matter how much he asked. i think she woke up the next morning to the sharp point of a fang growing out of the hole where her incisor once was. i think velrisa greyrock, disowned by the age of five, woke up with a black eye and scraped knees; and i think she must have known her fangs were her goddess saying get up, my champion.
Have been rewatching ouran recently and decided to doodle my favs. I love these little guys
a parcel is set outside your bedroom door while you’re asleep. you live alone. nobody could have placed it there. confused, cautious, you open it. inside, a single jagged scrap of paper reads “bra’ad/ugarth teen romance fix-it fic, accidental magic, physical hurt/comfort, thieves guild au, background kathnan.” as soon as you unfold it and read the words, it explodes like a magician’s flashpaper.
a piece of paper labeled “bra’ad/ugarth teen romance fix-it fic” slides under your door. it turns to ash in your hands.
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