I Probably Shouldn't Be Allowed Near Alcohol But Whatever

Calling antipsychotics the silly meds cause i don't want to think about it too deeply

I love love love nicotine

Leaving this here for... no reason

Pretending to be tougher than you really are won't shield you from the lack of love and affection you experience pretending you don't need it btw.

All of this thinking about the past is making me want to relapse out of fear, i'm working so hard on practicing healthier coping mechanisms but god i really can't stand all this pressure

Day 6 in front. GET ME OUT

Is this what guilt feels like. Why. Why does it hurt so bad. Why does it feel like drowning

Not sure how much longer i can keep on going

You know what makes me more enraged about this? He kept acting like i was talking about it as if having alters is some funny shit when i hate these fuckers. I want them dead. I'm being so serious when i say if there was a way to detach them from my brain i'll just instantly kill them. I'm suffering here i'm not here for the shits and giggles. Fuck you

Can't die yet. Need to spend easter with our wife