Latest Posts by chaoticnightmarekitty - Page 7

me checking this dumb stupid idiot app everyday like there's a daily login bonus

"Can mutuals DM you?" moots can kick me, punch me in the throat, spit on my face, saw me in half, kiss me, obsess over me, stalk me idgaf

imagining a day i don't imagine a different life so hard i hurt my own feelings

People seriously underestimate the long term effects of constant loneliness

"why are you so weird?" Idk, maybe because being completely isolated while growing up has destroyed my brain and now I'm nothing more than a human-mimicking creature that bases all of my actions on what I think is normal human behavior rather than just doing things naturally

*no rights to the image*

the vibe I bring to the function

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About to reinstall discord!!

To check if i missed any important messages!1!!

To check if my favorite person messaged me!!!

To only see an empty inbox

To 0 messages

To an empty dm list.

Another reminder that I have no one to talk to.

Tips for when you're trying to get people to change their minds, calling your representatives, etc:

Don't act like a street preacher, almost nobody likes those guys. (More information.)

Code switching is your friend. Don't use leftist buzzwords or jargon, use the kind of language they're familiar with. (More information. And here are examples.)

Do not argue or debate with people who actually piss you off or pose a serious risk to your mental health. If you want to refute their points, make a post, zine, video, etc. about it.

Do not argue or debate with bad faith actors - anyone who posts mindless contrarianism (such as the kind of pro-Republican replies posted by porn blogs) is to be ignored and blocked on sight.

i fucking hate emotions

y'know, *lights cigarette* back in my day, subcultures used to be about the culture, and not just the appearance of it to people outside of it. *puts cigarette in my mouth the wrong way* ow ouch owee ow oww

i love tumblr because you see someone losing their mind and you’re just like “omg me tooooo!” *reblog*

Me when i feel like i am going to die.

Goes to the fucking doctor.

*Symptoms magically disappear.*

Well great guess I was just overreacting.

*Leaves doctor*

*Symptoms back in full force.*

I swear the bitch ass Symptoms know that they're about to be caught.

*showing visible symptoms* oh my god i need help desperately

*symptoms go away for one day* what if im just faking it

Fucking hate trumpass

I cant have a moment of peace with his ass doin shi.

I can't have a moment of being depressed without having to guilt myself that time is running out.

FRIENDLY REMINDER THAT TRUMP DID NOT SAVE TIKTOK!! THIS WAS ALL A STUNT TO MAKE HIM LOOK GOOD!!

PAY ATTENTION TO WHATEVER HAPPENS NEXT!!

me when I soooo don't have anxiety :P

I always love it when someone starts off their trauma dump like this. It's so fucking funny.

✨️Wooo humor as a coping mechanism ✨️

Well, actually funny story!

(Proceeds to tell you the most wild, traumatizing, sad and tragic story you ever heard)

born to be eternally devoted, forced to be anxiously attached

A lot of folks in the notes are saying how this is social anxiety. Lol whatever op was describing is not social anxiety.

They don't like being perceived. Idk how hard that is to understand.

For me, social anxiety is about freaking out over social interactions. Of course, being perceived and judged is a part of it but it isn't the main thing ykwim?

But its different for everyone let's all remember that.

Omg omg omg. It all makes so much more sense when you realise it's not social anxiety but a fear of being perceived.

Why do you feel more comfortable with a long coat and a mask as opposed to summer clothes?

Why do you DESPISE taking pictures? Especially if it's someone else and not you taking them.

Why do you feel like you have to stop doing whatever it was you were doing when someone passes by?

Why don't you want to tell anyone how leisurely you go about your day, taking a nap, going for a snack, sitting on your phone playing games etc. because you know they will comment on it and even though it's not negative or mockery it's still feels like you've been perceived?

Why can't you make eye contact? Why can you do it only if the other person is looking away but the second when they look at you you stop listening and when you're the one speaking you can't bear to look at them because you know their eyes are on you and they are perceiving you?

Why don't you want to dress excessively or wear nicer clothes? Because you will stand out

People mistake you for shy because you don't speak often, but it's really the fear of drawing attention to yourself more than it is the things you actually say, isn't it?

Why do you hate overpopulated areas even when no one is speaking? BUT you still feel more comfortable when more than one person is in the room (but not too many!) so that the burden of being perceived is directed on someone else and you can safely lay back just observing the scene.

It's all a defence mechanism

How I used to feel. Maybe what I wanted was not romantic love. Maybe I just wanted to not feel lonely anymore.

I want love but I don't want to have to beg for it. Please love me too. Please acknowledge me. It's like you don't want me here anymore...are you better off without me? Is everyone better off without me?...

Real shi. Sure is a pain to dismantle it

Guess i am triple A battery

Guys, it happened. I’m an

AAAAAA (aromantic, asexual, agender, with autism, adhd, & anxiety)

born to infodump forced to constantly worry if the other person actually cares or if im making sense or if i said something wrong or if im embarrassing myself or if they want me to stop talking or

I just saw an ad about "want to kiss your crush? Join the ai trend!"

Thats fucking gross.

Gross as hell

Imagine someone having your photo and making you kiss them.

Lowkey teetering towards deepfake pørn.

For many years of longing, I craved attention from my favorite people. To be loved, to be looked at, to be the only thing in their mind.

I would obsess over them day and night. Where my life was bleak and boring without any interaction with them. I'd get depressed and hopeless without their attention, imagining hurtful scenarios of them leaving, and remembering that these feelings of mine will forever be within me. They will never know. I will not let them know. No matter how much I like them this feeling.

At the same time, I hate it with a passion. I do not like feeling like I have no control. So I do what's best. I ghost everything just because of one person. I leave. But I always come back pathetically yearning for their attention again. Because I can't stand being alone.

You know what's funny though? I met someone... who for the first time reciprocated my feelings without me having to say anything.

I was scared. I was so scared.

I've always been an obsessive person to those I liked. So why... did I hate it the moment they liked me back?

Did i even like them? If not, then does that mean i didn't actually like the previous people before?

Did i simply make up an image of them?

Or is it that I just don't like him? And maybe that's why I didn't like his confession.

I feel gross. I hate that I rejected him and I went back to using him as fuel for my sick fantasies. I hate that I still want his attention.

I hate looking at blogs that have romantic shit that says cheesy things like "what I crave for him to do."

I hate it

I no longer look at men with such rose-tinted glasses anymore. I feel empty. I feel repulsed.

I feel nothing at all.

headphones aren't enough. i need the song to stab me in the chest