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BPD math: they said I can come "if I want" instead of "you should come" so that means they hate me and they wish I was dead.

when i’m hurt, i shut down, i turn into a total bitch i shut off my emotions i act differently towards everything and everyone and i hate it

Youre annoying them.

Leave them alone

They don't want you

Why will you not stop?

They only talk to you out of pity

how can someone’s absence affect me so much while my presence doesn’t affect them at all

thinking you're being overdramatic and paranoid over nothing only to be proven completely right is such a sickening feeling.

therapists saying you're surprisingly self aware is like being called a pleasure to have in class for adults

asking for reassurance is so embarrassing 😭

I just want to be important, too.

feeling unwanted ruins my whole fucking day

Jiraiblr (and adjacent communities) have a very serious grooming / predator problem

Do not like making posts like this but as an adult who sees and engages with a lot of minors on here, I have witnessed very disturbing things, and recently something extremely illegal, horrific, and harmful to the child in question, who I will not name in this post. Please do not mention them or any other minors you know of that this has happened to or are that are especially vulnerable to these approaches/attacks that have been happening.

There are adults approaching young jirai bloggers inappropriately, sometimes explicitly, sometimes not. I see it on the dash and in tags, I see mentions of private interactions, there is no telling what happens in private conversations or on other platforms that has not been shared. They tend to enable the blogger's need for attention and validation or degradation, tendency to self-destruct, and hypersexuality, or desire to appear cute. They target weak points unique to each blogger based on what they post about or reveal in conversation. I've only seen them use anon. I don't know how many people are doing this but I suspect in some cases the same person is behind more than one.

This is intolerable. I have never been in this situation except with personal friends that I've been able to protect, so I don't know what to do, and I fear that plain reporting will just result in blog terminations and the young bloggers will come back and be preyed on again or contact their abusers on other platforms and the abuse will continue.

I know a lot of other jirais are kids, and don't call this behavior out clearly enough; they either envy it, comment the creepiness of it, or try to comfort and be positive to the victim. It's not their fault, they're kids too, it's not their job and they aren't expected to know how to deal with this, but this is not enough: You need to know that this is not something to envy, it hurts your friends, and if it happens to you, it will hurt you.

These are bad people, and not in a fun way that we can romanticize. They are the kinds of monsters that give you these problems to begin with. They don't love you. They don't think you're special or cute. They think you're weak. You're not, you are just innocent, and they are pathetic and have to resort to hurting innocent children that already have mental struggles.

To other adults in this community, no, it is not your job to parent random kids online, but it is your moral responsibility to tell someone in power, confront a predator if you are safe to do so, loudly condemn this behavior, tell people this isn't okay, and act as a model of how adults should treat kids — which doesn't include grooming or being a bystander to abuse.

As a whole we should discuss this more for the sake of prevention and awareness so that it does not keep happening. It has been getting worse. I do not care if it is a staple of Toyoko Kids to be involved in underage activity; It's bad when it happens to them, and it's bad when it happens online.

This community cannot become a haven for content and abuse like this. It's not about subculture, it's about decency. It's not cute, aesthetic, or a quirk of your personality to engage in this, endure this, or be silent about this. It's child abuse.

If that doesn't convince then you, only for selfish reasons; if this becomes too big of an issue, Tumblr will crack down even harder on Jiraiblr and blast it off the platform for safety and legal liability. So if you want a community, keep predators out of it, prevent children from being abused, and be vigilant about it.

switching between needing physical touch and wanting to rip my skin off at the thought of another human being touching me

I love jirais that have to work, jirais that have school, jirais that rot all day, jirais who sh, jirais who dont sh, outward explosive jirais, inward explosive jirais, younger jirais, older jirais, male jirais, female jirais, jirais who dont fit the gender binaries, jirais who wear stereotypical jirai clothes, jirais who dont wear stereotypical jirai clothes. I love all jirais

i wanna rip my hair out can somebody pls just shoot me already

Bedrotted yesterday, bedrotting today, bedrotting tomorrow.

me when my mental illness makes it harder to take care of myself and my hygiene instead of making me look like mizuki or kangel 24/7

meoww!!!!! :3 (i want to kill myself)

i was informed op is a terf so here's that photo of gisèle pelicot again, with source. merci gisèle ❤️

there are corners of this website where the year is still 2013. and sometimes, on beautiful nights when the veil is thin, you can find them . if you know where to look

In another universe, I'm kind to everyone I know and myself. In another universe I am no longer frugal with love. In another universe when I pick up the phone, I answer it with "I love you" instead of "Y'ellow!"

In another universe I don't feel bad for asking for a hug. In another universe I don't infect everything around me with how awful I am. In another universe I reach out and hold your hand and you hold mine back.

I feel awful. I get this dread that I'm behind. I feel like I won't be able to graduate on time. I have the majority of my high school credits, but I feel so behind. I don't have some other stuff I need plus I don't even have a license I feel so useless and incapable.

I've been waiting for his message for 9 hours...plus he's online..

It's so hurtful to wait desperately for someone to answer us

Ever since I was a little girl I’ve loved information

fuuuuck that is my circus. are those…? yep… those are my monkeys….. goddammit.

"How can you stand the fact that gross, disgusting fiction about (x topic) exists??"

It's simple, I know how to be polite and ignore fiction I'm not interested in, and I don't base my concept of morality on what I personally consider to be icky or distasteful.

the average jiraiblr experience is seeing cute pics of kangel then scrolling on that same post and reading a su1c1de note