Location: Kalarba, the ruins of Hosk Station
From orbit, the planet seemed scarred. Every plants’ branches had snapped, and every leaf was coated in a film of ash. Rolling pits littered the surface where life had once teemed in abundance. Grey mist hung in the air, a bitter mixture of smoke and ash from the searing flames of debris. Some fires, still lit, pulsed hungrily around them like a gundark in desperate search of its prey.
Iden had sent Sabine a brief manifesto detailing everything the Rebellion knew about the crash-- which was, unfortunately, not much. What had piqued their interest, however, was the apparent villain behind this new act of terrorism. Supposedly, those who had witnessed the damage firsthand seemed to have reason to suspect Imperials-- or, at least, their technologies. The simple thought of this was enough to make Sabine’s stomach churn in unease. If it was true, if that broken system of oppression had returned to take the lives of so many people...well, it wouldn’t help them sleep at night.
When she had read the name written on Iden’s message and quickly realized it was unfamiliar to her, the mission seemed suddenly less solemn.They liked to stay relatively connected within the social network of the Rebellion (though it was always possible to miss a few people along the way). Sabine knew next to nothing about this person-- and that’s exactly what compelled her to greet his arrival with a smile and an outstretched hand.
“Cal Kestis, I assume? Nice to meet you. The name’s Sabine Wren.”
@lcstpadawan // cal kestis
galaxywon // Hera Syndulla
“ You’re reckless now. “ Hera reminded them with an affectionate shove of their arms against her own. It was something they all shared. The twi’lek had told herself that it had been necessary. Most of the time she still thought it was. But there were some times, like looking at something brilliant that their son had done, that made her wonder if she would do it again today, leave him in this wide galaxy all on his own. They followed her over to the table, sitting opposite. They sighed. It was easy to get lost in all the things she had done wrong as a parent. Being a mom was hard. Raising a force sensitive child with an ability that they did not have was even harder.
Kanan made it easier, but that didn’t mean it didn’t scare them still. “ You’re right, as always. “ They smiled, reaching to grab Sabine’s hands. “ It’s a mother’s jobs to worry. “ They had worried about the Ghost Crew constantly. Even as they were being thrown into life threatening events in real time. “ My father respected the jedi, worked with them during The Clone Wars. But no one could warn me about how scary it is. “
At the mention of Chopper, their lips quirked up, sitting straighter in the chair. “ I’m running some diagnostics. When the Ghost was on Sernpidal he got banged up. Nothing that he can’t handle though. “ She grinned. “ Don’t let Chopper hear that though. Chaos will come in ten fold. Even as they chatted, it seemed like more was going on than they were saying. It worried her. Sabine could always come to them. They hoped that they knew that everything would be dropped in a second for any member of the crew.
“ What’s on your mind, Sabine ? “
Of course, the compliments brought a smile to her face. They knew they were reckless, and they knew they were quick enough to catch a womp rat in its tracks. Still, to hear it from someone she held so much respect for...
“Vor’e, buir. And, hey. If you worry, it’s because you’re a good parent, Hera. Because you know that this galaxy is so big and dangerous, and you just want to keep him safe from that.”
That’s what she had wanted for their little brother, too. But the choices they’d made had hurt. They’d caused scars and bloodshed, and there was no erasing that. And the question, it pulled at their chest even more, a weight that tore through her lungs and into the pit of their stomach.
Sabine valued every relationship with the Spectres, but with Hera...She had always trusted them with feelings and thoughts that the others wren’t sure how to hold. Somehow, her parent always knew how to hear their child, knew how to make her feel held. And they were grateful for that, truly. It was with that trust that Sabine sighed and leaned forward, head resting on crossed arms.
“You know I don’t want to bring the mood down, ‘specially now that we’re all together again, but...I keep thinking about my family. Well, my other family, on Mandalore.”
There it was, the guilt. The gnawing fear. Sabine knew that Hera understood about having another family (one bound by blood and not bond), but it always felt a little weird to bring them up to her. Still, they had to remind themself to trust the parent that sat before her.
“I don’t know, I keep finding other Mandalorians out there and it’s just. I can’t help but wonder if they’re out there, too. And if they are, why they haven’t tried to...”
But she knew why. Sabine knew why they wouldn’t try. And she didn’t even blame them.
“When I do, y’know, I just feel this pressing guilt, like a weight on my shoulders. Like it’s my f-”
The breath caught in their throat as eyes pricked up with moisture, too warm. Too uncomfortable.
“Anyways. I’m sorry, Hera. I’m not trying to ruin our time together. I just really missed you. I missed this.”
@cptfulcrum // Alexsandr Kallus
Kallus knew, just as much as the rest of them, how easy it was to be alone. Solitary had been his comfort. As an ISB agent they were conditioned to be on the outside. They weren’t in the same chain of command as the rest of the Imperial Navy. They were internal affairs, never trusted. His career had been based in solitude. He hadn’t realized until he joined the Rebellion that maybe he did prefer the company of others. Others like the Spectres, like Zeb and Hera and Sabine. “ You don’t need to explain yourself. “ he countered, finally relaxing his stance, hands moving into the pockets of his jacket. “ But do not feel the need to go through life without us. We are here for you. “
His eyes studied their face, watching the way their stance relaxed slowly. Alexsandr didn’t want Sabine to feel the need to assure him that everything was okay, but he understood the reasons why. It was easy to forget that they had been at the Imperial Academy. It was a lesson ingrained from the very beginning, to not let emotions cloud ones judgement. It was something he had taken to heart. As a Mandalorian, he assumed it was second nature to them. “ I am glad then. “ he didn’t believe them, but he also wouldn’t argue now. Not when he had just come back.
“ We’ve been integrating Lira San with the New Republic. Very slowly. Understandably, many are apprehensive. Some survivors from Lasan believe that another attack in imminent. “ he spoke mechanically, not allowing his own guilt from the event to break through. Sabine knew enough about his past. “ Garazeb is well, if that’s what you are wondering. Though he misses his family. “ he met their eyes again, raising his brows. “ If it can be believed, we have found as close to a retirement as possible for soldiers. “ At least they had, before Ezra and their guilt. Now his mission for Thrawn. “ I haven’t heard any updates on you as of late. What have you been doing ?? “
Sabine examined Kallus’s face while he spoke, studying how he measured his words and weighed his expressions before speaking to them. There was more he wanted to say, she was sure, but they weren’t about to pry. His words echoed in their ears. We are here for you.
Dank farrik, Sabine had been stupid. With their wandering about the galaxy with no contact, it was not surprising that Zeb had sent Kallus to check on her. The rest of the Ghost crew, they must be worried. That same feeling of shame boiled in the pit of their stomach, but they smiled to Kallus, nodding as he spoke about her old friend and his people. She knew how difficult it must be for Kallus to be on Lira San, how guilty he must feel. Still, they knew how hard he was trying-- and how much it meant to Zeb that he was there.
“I am...glad to hear you and Zeb are doing well.” She paused, wondering if they should voice their next thought. “You...deserve that, you know. A peaceful life away from the politics and danger of it all. You both do.”
When nothing was said to fill the silence between them, Sabine continued, finally answering the question she had been trying to avoid.
“I guess you haven’t heard from me because I haven’t really been in the action. I’m still with the Rebellion, just not in the heart of the fight. At least, not right now. I’ve been...” They hesitated, knowing that whatever she said would be repeated to her old friend. “I mean, you know how slow it is, trying to chase dead leads on information for the Rebellion. It’s an unreliable business. But, I’m glad you’re settled down now. Your days of action over, right?”
@spectreoflasan // Zeb Orrelios
“I am cool,” Zeb snapped. “You know what’s not cool? Karking up your guts before it’s even hit kriffing midnight because you don’t know how to hold your liquor.” Karabast, he’s going to have to set a good example, isn’t he. With once last wistful glance at the mutlicolored and very potent-looking drink in their hand, Zeb slid it down the bar to the person on their other side and grumbled, “Knock yourself out, mate. You! Barkeep! Two waters, now.” Zeb’s gruff edge lingered as he turned back to Sabine. “Now hydration, that’s cool. You want to actually enjoy your drinks? Then pace yourself.”
Oh, for the love of Alderaan. ‘Hydration, that’s cool’ ? Zeb had never felt so old in their kriffing life. But that’s what Sabine needed right now. Guilt twisted his stomach as they stumbled against him. Hadn’t Zeb’s lousy excuse for a parallel-timeline counterpart bothered to teach her to drink properly? Zeb set a steadying hand on Sabine’s shoulder, even as their last comment provoked a growl. “And for the last time, Kallus is not my boyfriend. ‘Sides, he’s in no state to be looking after anybody right now.”
“I w-would hold my liquor fine! If you would give it back to me!” They yelped as he pawed her reaching hand away. (Heh. Pawed). They shot the bartender a nasty glare and tried standing on her own. Feet felt like lead and head too thin, and the metal of the counter dug into their skin.
“Zebbbbb, don’t you think I deserve a drink after the shit year I’ve had?! W-why not! Why not get fuck-king shitfaced?” She huffed. This had to be a joke. First all of the-- the shit! The shit with Ezra and Kanan and Mandalore, and-- and it hurt! It hurt and it was scary and it made her hands shake and her chest tight and! And they just wanted it to mute, just for a moment! Moisture pooled at their eyes as Zeb spoke, as they responded. At his words, her face fell immediately, turning from anger and fear to...to something that ached deeper. Something was wrong. Something was really wrong.
“Wh-what do you mean he isn’t your boyfriend? Did. Did something happen?”
for @beskarbuir and @finitefm // din djarin and tarre vizsla
── MANDALORE, YOUR SCENERY IS LIKE FAMINE. mandalore, the most stagnated, ravaged part of it, is too lucid for him. the landscape straddles between home and desolation, thriving in that liminal space; that is to say, it welcomes him without communion. but that is alright, for his learnings were true. this is a cursed planet, far past death and onto lying in wait. feverish and weak. imperials looming over and gorging on the fruit of their lands, gloating as its acidic juice drips into the corpse’s eyes. mandalore bares it’s clenched teeth and hungers, too. for ichor, for people, for love.
din will not be the one to satiate it. the love he offers is for his people beyond this soured heart, reared in their ways in places far from here. they are a nomadic people steeped in an idea. they are more than mandalore alone. still, he stood close to his companion in these past days, keeping an eye on their surroundings but mostly on them. it almost seemed like she would choke on the prospect of coming here, of walking into the maw of their once home. since their arrival, her grief was mute; hemorrhage kept internal. he hopes they know that if they dotter, he will bear their weight.
though there, in the distance, rises a haunting: arriving in beskar adorned in gilded fractures, as if shattered and rebuilt. his steps nearly stop there, hand so willing to pull sabine back for her safety. to din, they are an unknown beauty and terror looming forth ─ and though the feeling is transient, he dallies the tiniest bit slower than sabine when she perseveres in the face of a phantom. then, she drops to her knee as if the very sight of them is sacrosanct, bowing their head in reverence. ‘ tarre vizsla ’ , they had said, and all besides the clan name and shriek hawk garners no recognition.
his next move is less calculated. there is a bow of his head, hand to the heart while the other still grips his spear like a walking stick. a commingled greeting less pronounced as sabine’s, but respectful to a title that eludes him. ❝ su cuy’gar. ❞ a fraction of an accent lilts his words, obvious in comparison between him and them, but there is no shame in it. he lifts his head and glances to his companion, then back, ❝ as had we. ❞ concern edges his voice, ❝ how long have you been here ? ❞ this is a dead land. there will be no survival here.
the reactions tarre has faced from their people have been many, in this time. they cannot say that the awe is their least favorite, for they have felt the brunt outraged violence at assumed deception. the PAIN that lay beneath those interactions bests the creeping discomfort of respect for a mythos larger than their life. they were mand’alor in their time, after all – they know the INTENSITY of mandalorian devotion. but they have only made martyrs. to BE one ? it is something entirely different.
when she kneels, they are surprised by the instinct to kneel as well, to find the level of her eyes beneath her colorful helmet and assure her that deference is largely unnecessary. but this is not a force call, only human LONGING, and they have spent years attempting to calm their gut punches of emotion. they mirror her companion instead, a hand raised to their heart. these two are sharply different in more than their armor. their knowledge of HISTORY, they can assume, yet the importance lies in the force. she is fireworks. he is something more unobtrusive. they find both intriguing on a level that may speak only to their own desire for new connection with their people.
there are more pressing matters than any slowly sharpening edge of desperation, however. their voice is smooth as mandalore’s hot winds as they reply, ❛ i am them. please, RISE – i am no mand’alor in this time. ❜ they would insist that ALL mandalorians are clan enough to do away with such formalities, if they had not begun to grasp that these descendants of theirs are not nearly so united. ❛ i am glad to find others. what is left of history is something worth revisiting, i believe. ❜
the bittersweetness of it all is beginning to burn. they tuck the feeling underneath their tongue and let it rest there, tangled up in the core of them. ❛ only briefly. there is better accommodation not too far from here. i wanted to see what this became. ❜ their words come freely, yet remain careful with that bittersweet, that knot of feeling. their head tilts slightly as they look back to the ruins. ❛ this is a place of BLOOD. it is good that it is no home. ❜ it had been theirs, once, and they suppose that that is the tragedy of it. this loss will not leave them.
So, it was them, Mand’alor be’ruyot. How or why the leader had returned during their peoples’ most desolate hour was far beyond her understanding. Despite years spent in the company of Jedi, this was perhaps the most impossible thing she’d ever witnessed. Tongue heavy, Sabine found that they had no words-- no amount of training could have ever prepared her for this. Still, at their ancestor’s command, she rose, glancing over at their brother-in-arms.
The younger Mandalorian knew that their companion was not as versed in the history of their people-- which was not something she faulted them for. It just was, a product of circumstance. They examined him-- a shared language of silence only the two knew, unreliant on the visages hidden beneath beskar. This was the nature of their friendship: an understanding that silence had its own place in the conversations they held. So much was shared with so little sound. Despite the unease and confusion that now plagued them both, Sabine understood.
Attention turned, shifting back to the words spoken by one who held so many stories from an age lifetimes before her own. Guilt seized their breath once again. This place was no home, not for anyone. Nor had it been for years, and there were few more to blame than she. Sabine felt their voice waver and crack in response to the bitterness of the haastal.
“No. It is not.” So many skeletons haunted this wasteland once called prosperous, once called beloved. “It belongs now only to the mercy of the Ka’ra above.”
Noticing how uncomfortable the formalities had made their ancestor, Sabine extended an unsteady arm, anticipation of the traditional salute for Mando’ade.
“I am Sabine of Clan Wren and House Vizsla.” There was a moment of pause, consideration. Her companion could share their name if he wanted. It was optional, as most words between the two were. “It is an honor to share your name. Gedet’ye, what may I call you if not ner Mand’alor?”
They couldn’t help but hope her friend wasn’t too lost right now. She gave them a glance as if to reassure him that she’d explain later.
@beskarbuir // din djarin
── UNEASE ABIDES IN THE AIR, so gently thawing but not dispelled, and there is hesitation toward the outstretched palm. however, when the first word is shared between a common ( yet scarce to many ) tongue, he finds himself already gripping theirs in a firm greeting. he couldn’t help but echo their words, ❝ su cuy’gar, vod … as do i. ❞ there is solace in their native salutation, like water trickling a parched throat. a beat passes as he stands and observes, still puzzled by the other’s presence and speculating their origins. decoration and individualization is frequent within their numbers, though he hadn’t seen this particular motif. nor do they follow the markings of bo-katan’s faction, intricate in their cobalt hues. the only solid conclusion that arrives is that they are not of the tribe, not of nevarro ─ and now only the unexpected is awaited.
gaze keeps steady on the other’s visor. ❝ you’re after the bounty, right ? ❞ an obvious question, one intending to draw both a ‘yes’ and an elaboration, if willing. he wants to ask, how long have you been here ? though it borders on too personal. do you follow the creed ? the stories taught to me ? i know you don’t, but i had hoped ─ even if i knew better, i hoped. lips purse, and none of this is spoken. it never is.
instead, he treads forwards with a truth. ❝ i hadn’t heard of any other within the guild. not for a very long time. ❞ he would of known, or heard of remnants at the very least ─ so why does one stand before him ?
The handshake is firm, and words returned in earnest. Sabine is...attuned to this person’s pain, can feel what hurt lingers in unspoken words. This is an ache she knows all too well. The ghosts of their people haunt every last Mandalorian that lives. While there is a flicker of hope, it sits heavy in the loss.
There are questions, so many of them, pooling on their tongue, waiting to break the conversation. What clan do you belong to? Who were your people? How did you survive? Do you know anyone else in the faith? They push the inquiries aside, sure the person in front of them wants to ask, too. There is a time and place for that. Those things can be learned later. For now, there are introductions to be made and a bounty secured.
“The bounty, yes. One of the only reasons I’d visit this sandhole, I think,” they joke, and hope it is received well. Of all the weapons in her arsenal, perhaps the most used is humor. “I guess the reason you haven’t heard from the Guild is because I don’t really do my dealings with them.” Sabine weighs what they want to say, careful of where the other Mandalorian’s allegiances lie. “I mean, I follow the code, when I do decide to take a job. But I’m not strictly a hunter by profession. Just something to keep the ship flying and stomach full, you know?”
They pause, watching their acquaintance's body language for any signs of aggression. They notice that this warrior’s armor is pure, practically untarnished by paint and wear. She allows herself to wonder where they got it, and how recently. Was it new, or did they just take meticulous care of it?
“But, I gather this is your profession. Look, I don’t mean to step on any toes-- I can go if you’d like-- but perhaps we could work the job together?”
Words started to stick together and bottles seemed more empty than before. Something in the room had shifted, and everything seemed a few degrees too thin. The world was stretched, but at least it was still funny...right?
“’scuse me--” The less-than-noble warrior asked of the blurred figure on their left. “but d’ya know--”
--where the closest fresher is? Or, that’s what she meant to ask. But, when the stranger turned to face her, what came out instead was a faint squeak and...
“kriff, you’re beautiful!”
Ah, fuck. Did she really just say that out loud?
@hopejedi
l closed starter l @naboospage
Part of the healing was re-acquainting themself with the people they used to know. Sabine knew that she couldn’t spend forever on the outskirts of the galaxy, hunting down dead-ended information and criminal bounties alike. Grief had pushed her to seek space, but they knew now that the time for being alone was over. The last few weeks, she’d been gradually talking to more people from their past (Iden, Ahsoka, Kallus). Though some of the conversations were painful, she knew that being vulnerable is what her family would want her to do. Ezra and Tristan would want this for her.
“Sache, my friend! This is Sabine.”
They spoke with more enthusiasm then they actually felt, hoping their facade wouldn’t be read through the blur of the holo-message. The two had been good friends, once upon a time, when the Rebellion had been in its most desperate need for agents of all kinds (and Sache had proved more capable than most).
“It’s been a while, but I just wanted to check in and see how you were doing. I was hoping we could catch up sometime soon. When you have time, of course.”
They fiddled with the hem of their flight suit a moment before wrapping the message up with a pointed smile and a wink.
“Hope to hear from you soon, Sache. Safe travels.”
sacreficied // Kanan Jarrus
balancing his life as a jedi and what he owed, what he wanted to owe, to ghost crew was not an easy task. there had been years where no attempt had been made –– something that had shifted when they had stumbled across ezra, that realization of what, exactly, he was missing in his life. kanan wanted better for himself now. he wanted better for all of them. he wanted to be a better man that he had been in the past.
“what isn’t?” kanan replied back with a slight chuckle, shoulders lifting in a slight shrug to reduce the weight of his own words. corners of his mouth lifted in a slight smile. “i’m grateful for the chance that we all have with this,” he begun, being mindful to choose his own words carefully. “still, i wonder what we’re all looking at with the bigger picture.”
If they hadn’t known better, Sabine would almost say she was concerned for Kanan. Something was obviously eating at him-- but it had always been harder to have these kind of talks with him than with Hera. Still, she nodded at his admission of thankfulness-- with the kind of life they lead, it was no small miracle they had even a handful of people left to care about.
“Bigger picture? What do you mean by that?” They asked, hoping that there was no hint of judgement evident in her voice. Was this about the Jedi, about Ezra? Or Hera and Jacen? In a galaxy that seemed to always require so much sacrifice, some days it took all of her energy just to survive. To see their family again. What could be bigger than that?
@naboospage // Sache
Saché was home on Naboo when her commlink chimed. She had a few days off, and every time it happened she’d leave the base to go back on her homeworld. It felt good, to be able to go outside again. It was dark and the holoprojector was on. She was watching a Senate session, just like when the Old Republic was still going strong. A Senate session in which a dead Queen was giving a speech. Eyes frowned, Saché focused on the holo - trying to know whether this was the Padme she knew or not. She’d been doing it for three years. And still didn’t believe in the eventuality of her being back. When her comm chimed though, another friend reappeared in her life, chasing her thoughts away. The voice in the comm made her smile, filling her with relief - Sabine. If the Mandalorian contacted her, it meant they were feeling better. Saché knew it, having been in the same position twenty-six years ago when Padme died and the Republic fell. “Come home on Naboo,” Saché sent back with coordinates just in case. A day later Sabine was at her door, and she welcomed them with open arms, pulling them in a hug. “Sabine,” she greeted. “It’s good to see you, kid”
“Sache!” They accepted the hug, only a little startled about the contact. They had forgotten that her old friend was the hugging type, but it wasn’t a bad surprise by any means. When they broke away, Sabine surveyed her, checking for signs of worry and stress. The New Republic was still in its infancy, and they could only imagine the kind of anxiety that rebuilding government from the ashes of the Empire could evoke. It had to be a difficult job, but one she knew Sache well prepared for. Her main concern was that their friend would work too much, take too much upon her shoulders.
“It’s good to see you too! And Naboo.” Kriff, this planet was gorgeous. The rolling plains that delved into lakes, the green pastures filled with living, growing things. Flowers so small and delicate, yet towers and castles so grand. “I had almost forgotten how beautiful your home was. Tell me, do you ever find a break from work to just...admire it all?” They hoped not to sound judgmental or inquisitive, but just curious.
bly-5052 // Bly
Bly flushed a little in pride, glancing down at their armor “Ah, thank you. I’ve had the designs since I left Kamino.” They told her, patting a hand over the design that matched the tattoos on their cheeks.
“Honestly? Not really. I just haven’t seen a Mandalorian outside the ones Prime had train us. Word was that no Mando’ade considered us one of them so I’ve kept my distance.” They admitted with a shrug, holding out their hand. “Commander Bly,” they introduced themselves before frowning and chuckling “I don’t know if I still hold my rank, but I don’t have a last name so I’ve just kept it.”
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Their response to the compliment was endearing, and immediately Sabine smiled, eyes still tracing over their use of color and line on the worn armor. It was a familiar hue, one native to their forgotten family back on Krownest...
“Well, it’s nice to meet you, Bly. I’m Sabine.”
As she shook their hand, the Mandalorian thought on Bly’s words about belonging and identity. Though they hadn’t personally known any clones who’d held the title Mandalorian, she saw no reason why they couldn’t claim the heritage. After all, the children of Mandalore weren’t race, but creed.
“Tell you what, Bly. I could actually use some help fixing my ship, if you’ve got the time. I can’t offer you much in the way of credits, but I can cover a meal at the local cantina. It’s not the best in the parsec, but it’s hot. Plus, I’d enjoy the company, if you’re up for it.”
Artist. Madalorian. Weapons Master. Rebel. "My friends make the impossible possible." // RP account for galacticshq
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