He Has No Idea That I’m Literally On My Knees Praying And Crying For Him Every Day It’s Actually

I'm so fucking tired of splitting on people. I just fucking said a bunch of shit I didn't want to say cause I'm overwhelmed and stressed and I just...I'm so fucking alone and didn't know what else to do. Fucking hell I want to be rid of this stupid brain.

"I love you more I'd go to hell and back-" I'd tear my lungs out. I'd rip my spine out for you, I would murder someone in cold blood so you could walk on their body to protect your feet. I would rip out my own vocal cords, tear out my eyeballs if that's what you wanted. I would starve myself until I'm dead if you asked, I would run away with you, I'd go to jail, I'd kill your family, I'd steal, murder, hurt, do anything the second you asked.

how does one get over a summer love?

Fuck everything fuck everyone fuck the central line fuck uni fuck the government fuck inflation fuck the economy everyone should just fucking die and I am going to go live in a post-apocalyptic country side

i dont think i am meant to have love in my life

it’s hard to hate someone when you can remember what it was like to love them. I wish I could erase all memories of you from my mind.

It’s gonna be FUN!!!!! IT’S GONNA BE FUN! FUN!

(Me trying to convince myself to not throw up when I have to do things I volunteered to do)

don’t feel very emotionally stable right now I feel beat down and too mentally tired to even speak or move and my mood keeps fluctuating between intense anger and violence and being upset and nostalgic and it’s giving me a headache and I want it to stop and it’s not working

thought of you a lot today… idk why. I miss you. You have a soft voice and warm skin.