I Have A Way Of Expressing My Feelings By Drawing Myself As A Child

BSD chapter 121 – SPOILER / "THEORY"

Something i haven't seen anyone else point out, is that in the last pannel of the chapter, "Dazais" clothes clearly don't fit him

For comparison, both from the same chapter

His coat is clearly too big for him. The sleeves hang too low, usually just below the elbow, now down to his wrists.

His pants don't fit him either, although the coat hides it pretty well.

Overall his clothes are significally more baggy.

His hair is also parted diffrently. Dazais hair is almost always parted down the middle. First I thought his hair was being blown by the wind – thusly messing the parting – but one look at the hem of the coat proved me wrong.

The right side of his hair is instead longer then the left side.

He also seems to not have his neck bandage. The longer then usual sleeves concealing his arm bandages (or the lack thereoff).

"Dazai" is morphing into someone else. Which brings me to:

Atsushi is shorter then Dazai, making Dazais clothes most likely too big for him.

The longer side of Atsushis hair is the right one. The parting of hair – while not exact – seems to also match our resident tiger lad.

The illusion of Dazai is being torn apart, as Atsushi realizes its true nature. His own thoughts, fleelings, and conclusions wearing a Dazai themed Halloween mask.

When Atsushi says he 'knows who you are, he's not talking about Dazai or the hallucination, but *himself.*

Atsushi has never needed someone else to tell him to live, but he has always felt like he does.

To be less extra 'bout it, i think Atsushi groked what he is and is going use that to save Akutagawa / kick Fyodors ass.

If i missed or got smt wrong feel free to tell me

"i cleaned your room up for you!!" Ok pookie did you find the corpse or

I have a disliking towards my own culture since it was literally the reason i got shitload of abuse from my teacher when i was like seven or smth, he acted racist towards me for like four years—and towards other children in the class, too—and now i can't bring myself to love where i am from, when i see people sharing about their cultures it just makes me jealous— like, i want to do that to!! I also want to share about my culture meanwhile being proud of it. However, i just can't stand it at the same time. Don't get me wrong, i have no problem people sharing about their own cultures. The problem here is me. I hate my own culture so much, but at the same time i want to share about it and be proud at the same time. I have really confusing feelings about it.

I am concerned about pinterest's recommendations lately.

Like... "Someone told me."

What are you saying?? 💔

Nobuko sasaki fanart in 2025?!!!...

it was actually drawen in 2024, but well.

"I will defeat you using the power of words!" I say as I proceed to beat them up with a dictionary.

This man was probably raised by dinosaurs but let's make an expectation for adorable scenes.

Pookie wookie skunrkly cookie :3

I need someone to read me my favorite books, i feel supported when someone i consider close to myself reads for me— i can't describe the feeling i had when my sister started reading for me during the time my vision was REALLY bad and couldn't read—also, i get overwhelmed by earphones, that's why i don't prefer listening to audiobooks—it felt like "oh, some people are accepting me and my disabilities" or maybe even understanding. I hope god let's me feel that kind of happiness once again in my life.

how fantastic you are

TW // A little bit of eye gore.

VERY, very old jouno sketches.

(you can see how old it is from the watermark and artstyle. Well, i am on tumblr too!!)

(reposting my art from pint #5)