Confession: I Know Everyone Hates It, I Still Want To Play Starfield Whenever It Next Goes On Sale.

I turned 19 yesterday. In 1918, I would be married by now, but maybe not because the men would be busy dying in the trenches and being gay. I could also be like that one who just stayed in her house and wrote poems all day (Emily Dickinson)

Sometimes I say something stupid to people and I just want to go, "DISREGARD PREVIOUS COMMUNICATION" so we can just move on instead of me quickly trying to come up with an innocuous explanation for what I just said that doesn't make me sound insane or like I just made a massive social blunder

People are judged by physical traits and I can't get over that

Not in the blackpilled-incel-grr-women-will-never-fuck-me way, I mean, in general, you're truly limited by your physical appearance and physical traits

There is simply nothing you can do to remove those traits from people's perception of you without being in a situation in which they are entirely removed in the first place -- e.g., posting anonymously on the internet

Even on the internet, you can see how people's perception of each other shifts based on what information they have on how they are physically in real life ("oh, that person is probably white," or, "oh, that person is probably a 40 year old man," or, "oh, that person is probably trans")

I've been guilty of this too, but it's kind of insane

how much of a sin it is to simply have a certain body, to have certain genetics, to look a certain way

I even see this in LGBT spaces to an extent

People going for "masc"/"fem" looks and wondering why they don't pull it off

Because you lack the physical traits associated with the look you're going for. that's it. that's what people are judging you by.

Trans people being obsessed with "passing"

again, it's about these arbitrary physical traits associated with the gender you're transitioning to

it's endless

it's literally just how we are as a species

what was that study?

we judge people within 5 seconds of meeting them?

how do you judge a person that quickly without basing it on entirely off of their physical characteristics?

you don't

even things like how they carry themself are arguably physical characteristics and don't tell that much about personality or how they think or what they've done in life

that's all

we're obsessed with looks and aesthetics as a species and that's not changing

it kind of makes me feel a bit unironically transhumanist at times

or even thinking that something like people opting in to an ideal simulation with other people would be kind of a good idea

but until all physical characteristics are choices for people in some way we're always going to have this problem because humans have brains that specialize in pattern recognition

I started playing Mabinogi and TBH despite its faults and the fact it's owned and developed by Nexon it kind of fucks. There's tons of freedom, the combat system is interesting (albeit in a weird place right now as some classes seem to more or less break the challenge with the AI), tons of story content (that you don't seem to need to pay for?) and I like how easy it is to make an androgynous character regardless of whether you picked a male or female (and canonically your character is arguably genderfluid or genderless as they can rebirth and switch their gender every time). Also there's some accidentally gay moments in the story (like in the chainblade quest line, there's a female character who flirts with you regardless of gender, so if your character is also a girl that's gay.)

Honestly didn't expect a Korean MMO to be this accidentally woke.

Also, yeah, it's based on Welsh mythology (and some Arthurian legends and... other things?), except everyone speaks Korean, and I think that's the only language they recorded voice lines in, so...

my dumb little enclave deserter and @bastard-in-armor s dumb little legion deserter

Do you notice how most recent Sinfest comic just don't have characters anymore. With the old Sinfest it had characters with clear defined personalities like Slick, Monique and Squigley while the newest comic characters don't even have names and either incredibly bland or just antisemitic stereotypes.

It's kind of poetic, the way racism replaced his comic piece by piece, illustrating how much hate consumed him. This year, he didn't have a New Year's storyline. The year 2024 just kind of stopped being in the comic and hasn't been acknowledged, and there wasn't even a "Happy New Year" strip, I waited until the first Sunday of the year and it's just literally burning a trans flag and locking up The Jew. Even the art is bad, completely devoid of all the cartoony charm it once had.

This strip is often posted as "the finale of Good Sinfest", and it's not that he doesn't make strips like this anymore, he can't. He's no longer capable. Those skills are gone, that man is dead. Sinfest as a comic hasn't existed in years, and the comic on it's web site doesn't even superficially resemble it, and the man who makes that comic doesn't even superficially resemble the man who made Sinfest. There's just nothing left of that guy any more.

My special talent is pretending I want to contribute to society and be a normal person

Every single time someone mentions police role-playing in a sexual context I think of this tinder interaction and I instantly become absolutely stricken with laughter