August-and-sage - Books And Never Sent Messages

This is painful.

“Do you like me?”

“No.”

“Why? I give you my all”

“I didn’t accept it.”

I miss being on the road.

I miss waking up in an unfamiliar place. I miss seeing a place for the first time. I miss the motion, the laughs, uncommon frustration, the eyes scanning the sky, familiar and unfamiliar at the same time.

I miss the sight from the moving bus window and realize how similar and different life can be base on where we come from. That these places are home to people who live here their whole life, who spend their childhoods chasing every street and corner, and we are just passer by.

Some people travel to escape, and some people travel to be home. And maybe I’m stuck in between. Stuck on the road, where most of life can be found.

Maybe my home is the open sky. It’s the taste of salt water in the air, the silence of the trees, and the road in front of us waiting for new beginnings.

“As I grow older, I pay less attention to what people say. I just watch what they do.”

— Andrew Carnegie

“I was very fond of you, but now I’m so, so tired. I’m not happy to go, but one needn’t be happy to make another start.”

— Albert Camus

It’s a scary thing, this life could be.

- AA | 180602

I don't know why but whenever I get to be kind to people, I then feel so light. It feels so... rewarding. Only that—you know—it seems so wrong to feel that emotion because seriously, I show them kindness not because I am kind but because I just don't want to seem rude.

I can straight up say, "Okay."

But instead, I say, "Okieeee!"

And oh, dear, whenever they reply with the same intensity of kindness or sometimes, even more than you offered, you feel like... like... what is the word? It's something like oh-you-are-so-precious-let-me-give-you-a-hug~ or oh-my-here-is-my-love-accept-it-for-you-it-is-free~

Humans sometimes really fascinates me. (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤

It’s times like this when I think about you the most.

No texture studies by John Stone

vaguely academic things to do to keep yourself entertained

go down a wikipedia research hole by clicking the first term you don’t understand

binge a crashcourse series end to end (personal recs: world history, history of science, big history, philosophy)

find free books on project gutenberg

download some western classics for free

borrow books and audiobooks from the libby app or borrowbox

start a commonplace book

take a khan academy course

browse MIT’s free online course materials

teach yourself to code

go on a google scholar essay dive

try the open access button to avoid some paywalls for academic media, or install unpaywall that does a similar thing

research the history of the place you where you live

tempt the wrath of the duolingo owl and learn a language

search for online streams of the local tv in your target language’s country and use as background noise for immersion points

print and scrapbook favourite poetry and literature quotes

improve your handwriting by doing handwriting exercises

learn philosophy with the philosophize this! podcast. actually just check out all the educational spotify podcasts there are many good ones

start a weekly club with friends to share new and interesting things you’ve learnt that week

clean and reorganise your study space, physical or digital

check out online museums

fave educational youtube channels that I adore: vsauce, crashcourse, smarter every day, kurzgesagt, school of life, tom scott, r. c. waldun, vsauce3, primer, mark rober, veritasium, asapSCIENCE, scishow, TED-ed

hopefully you’ll find something to enjoy! happy learning x

Shielding myself from everyone.

Every-fucking-one.