Shit I Felt And Did Before I Got Myself A Label:

shit i felt and did before i got myself a label:

- being weirdly annoyed by my boobs and looking for ways to make them invisible since they barely started to grow. i learned what binder was at the old age of nine. i didn't have enough money of course and i didn't know where i could buy it. so i used simple bandages before they started to annoy me.

- trying to justify the feeling of queerness by telling myself that my parents just raised me that way. they literally did not. i have a very traditional family.

- not taking photos of myself before i started presenting myself in a gender neutral way. if i had choice i would hide on group photos. i rarely took selfies. the only ones I have from that period are of me in a cosplay.

- using male pronouns and masculine grammatical gender on the internet 'for fun'. or phrasing my sentences in a way which would not require using gendered words at all.

- awkwardly laughing when i passed as a boy in front of people who knew me as a girl. not correcting people when i was alone. i loved being ambiguous about my gender when I could.

- being a feminist and fully supporting the use of gendered words for occupations... while not using them to describe myself.

- feeling like i am totally one hundred percent cis because 'i do not feel like i am a man, that' s not me'. gender binary is a bitch.

it took some self-reflection to realize what the 'symptoms' pointed at. yet i did not believe myself at first. i guess it really was fear that kept me from living through my younger years comfortably.

and my government.

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5 days ago

i feel like the most obnoxious person on the planet when i reblog someone's posts

i have a feeling that everyone hates me when i do and whenever someone comes across my posts they hate me too

i don't tumblr right anymore. i wish it was as fun as it was when i was younger


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3 months ago

@lee-is-trans found the english translation of that spanish doujinshi i saw on youtube however it's only available on this browser link and i wanna make sure it lasts forever so here's me spamming all the pictures

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1 week ago

That post about death note being "everyone's first anime" (untrue statement) made me curious and now I want to gather data for science

Can you reblog this and tell me where are you from and what was your starter anime?


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3 months ago

no but it's true. i have two (2) comments on ao3 in total. one of them is 'I like this, and _____ was a funny line'. the other is 'I thought about this too, I am glad I found your fic, I am waiting for the next part to come out'.

i was giggling and kicking my feet when i opened the inbox and saw both of them.

use your fucking words to describe your emotions, that hits hard and gives motivation. i'm writing that next part rn

"Ao3 should allow multiple kudos" "I want to be able to leave more than one kudos"

COMMENT ON THE FUCKING FIC

I SWEAR TO GOD NO ONE COMMENTS MUCH NOW WHEN THE ONLY WAY TO SHOW APPRECIATION FOR A SINGLE CHAPTER IS COMMENTING AND I AM NOT HAVING THIS BULLSHIT BE LIKE TIKTOK WHERE NO ONE EVER COMMENTS POSITIVITY

FOR FUCKS SAKE JUST COMMENT ON THE FUCKING FIC YOU DON'T NEED A MULTIPLE KUDOS BUTTON YOU NEED ACTUAL WORDS

TRUST ME ON ANY WEBSITE OR APP I POST COMMENTS AND WORDS ARE 10X BETTER THAN ANY PLAIN LIKE AND WORDLESS REBLOG IF YOU LIKE SOMETHING LEAVE WORDS

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3 weeks ago

I feel horrible doing this, but I'm struggling hard. I'm bedridden trans man who's been disabled since I was eleven, With no source of income as I'm working to get SSI disability, I need money to help myself get by as I can't work in my conditions. Any help would be much appreciated, and I can offer writing or art to anyone who donates. If you can't donate, please share this post.

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1 month ago

Since there's been another "Tumblr is gonna die!" scare, let's do a poll...

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3 months ago

So you know when you're writing a scene where the hero is carrying an injured person and you realize you've never been in this situation and have no idea how accurate the method of transportation actually is?

Oh boy, do I have a valuable resource for you!

Here is a PDF of the best ways to carry people depending on the situation and how conscious the injured person needs to be for the carrying position.

Literally a life saver.

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5 days ago

After letting it sink, I finally decided to write my little, not-so-professional review about the Sherlock & Co. Milverton adaptation. (Yes, this is one of my non-Moriarty the Patriot focused posts - but a Milverton fan gotta do what a Milverton fan's gotta do. Anyway.) SPOILERS!

Milverton here has a news agency and now he blackmails an activist, Evan Brackwell with the photos that his daughter made who took pictures about herself lying naked on a conservative politician's grave in the cemetery. Evan Brackwell ends at Sherlock and asks him to solve the case.

Milverton's character. He was decently played here, I've seen better Milvertons but he did the job here, too. He was slimy enough, but maybe he should have bathed in his own sliminess more. (Tho, when he joked on his "devilishly handsome face" - that's something Moriarty the Patriot Milverton should have said, and I am hella sure I used this in fanfics before) Still, I am only nitpicking here. Milverton was fine. And I really love that he got connected to the media world again, hacking and storing information, even using deepfakes sometimes to create blackmail material. A modern era Milverton is really terrifying.

The negotiation scene. It happens in a bar and ends with a punch in Milverton's face. (Well, John wanted to use the chair in the canon as well, sooo...) I've seen the negotiation scene better too, but my main problem was that it should have been longer. Sherlock already broke in to Milverton's house and Milverton knows about that, he even mentions it. (Idk why, it must be my cursed shippy brain what is rotten since I first thought of a Milverton/Sherlock when I was a child, but talking about that break-in felt like a drunken lovers' quarrel) I love that Milverton is totally fine with the role of the "slithering serpent", he even ends up calling himself like that. And it's also good that Sherlock didn't miss saying the "Do you feel the creeping, shrinking sensation when you stand before the serpents in the zoo..." speech. A Milverton adaptation without it always feel like they miss out something important.

And now we get to the best part - the other break-in. Usually, the negotiation scene is my favourite, but here, it is the break-in. It was mindblowing and hilarious. Everyone wants to rob Milverton on that night. Sherlock and John is disturbed by Milverton and Irene Adler who comes back from the opera. Milverton seems to be actually into Irene Adler (okay, who wouldn't be into Irene Adler?). Milverton has a drive full of information on Moriarty, Irene wants that. She stabs Milverton in the stomach, takes the drive and calls the ambulance out to him while John and Sherlock listens from the wardrobe. I still don't know how to feel about the stabbing, honestly. I don't like when Irene ends up being a criminal (hi, BBC Sherlock), I would have felt better if she just knocks Milverton out. (By the way, this is not the first time Irene and Milverton are somehow connected, see Kabukichou Sherlock.) But thanks to that stab, I got the most hilarious scene I've ever seen in a Milverton adaptation - John insists that he will go and give Milverton medical help and even makes Sherlock help. Here, John really feels like a doctor, not letting anyone to just bleed out, even if that one is Milverton, someone he hates. (And John calling Milverton Charles to somehow calm him down - that made me wanting to ship Milverton/Watson. If a fanfic happens from it, humanity, please, forgive me.) John and Sherlock leaves, Milverton is on his own, waiting for the ambulance and there comes Moriarty to kill him. (I said that everyone wants to break in on that night, they didn't want to throw a Milverton is dead afterparty?) Milverton calls Moriarty James before he dies. So they are on first person terms. That's the second thing I don't know how to feel about. I don't like Milverton and Moriarty getting connected, Milverton is threatening on his own, he doesn't need Moriarty's back up. (And I am that one Sherlock Holmes fan who was never a fan of Professor Moriarty's character in the canon. At least, the one thing I absolutely LOATHE in a Milverton adaptation didn't happen - Sherlock killing Milverton. That is always so lame.)

With all the nitpicking I have, I really loved this adaptation. I think the Sherlock & Co. one is my favourite from the Adventure of Charles Augustus Milverton re-tellings (the less faithful adaptations, like BBC Sherlock, Elementary, Moriarty the Patriot, Kabukichou Sherlock etc). I will definitely listen it again in the future.


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2 months ago

spanish: cocaina english: cocaine the most intelligent american you have ever seen: with my limitless linguistics knowledge, i determine that this joke transcends language


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