Transharmful Please Interact - Blog Posts

i wish i had the balls to shave my head but i'm too much of a pussy T_T wish someone just fucking did it to me

I took half my morning dose of hrt this morning, I guess with the intention of getting myself back on it? I haven’t taken my hrt for months. After taking it I quickly thought “How silly of me to think I could seriously commit to going back to being a girl.”

Fact is I can’t commit to either right now. I shaved my head 7 months ago and at this point my hair is kinda long… for a guy.

If I could commit to being a guy I’d go get a haircut and throw out my hrt, if I could commit to being a girl I’d take better care of myself and take my hrt everyday.

I’m doing neither. Genuinely could use someone throwing out my hrt and just shaving my head whether I like it or not.

id love to cut your stomach open and watch your guts slosh around while i fuck you -🪚

uwu,, that would be so cute!! the blood dripping out of me. i wanna moan so loud and wrap my guts around me while u rail me,,, choke me with them, let me wear them like a fancy dress accessory 🥺

pls someone do this to me??? really,,

I am not doing this because you did something wrong I am doing this because I can.

yes yes yes yes yes!!!!! I hate food. feed me through a tube and only rarely. I need someone to own my eating or else I'll never be pretty and thinn

i can't stop thinking about feeding tubes. scheduled feeding times, the intimacy of administering the formula. making them beg to be fed. not allowing them to ever taste their favorite food ever again...or any solid food, for that matter.

they can only eat through the tube, no more...and made to ⭐ve and wither in between feedings whenever you finally decide they deserve it,,

no chewing, no solids, no control.

when you derive deep and almost spiritual pleasure from serving someone, to be their emotional support pet, to see them at their worst but support them then you'll happily have the shut beaten out of you just to once in a while see them smile at you

Maybe I like the thrill of consensually abusing someone whilst also being a pathetic depressed dad in the process.

"No, mon cher, I would never lay a hand on your perfect skin." I say seconds before getting drunk and beating the shit out of them for my own enjoyment.

And I'll cry about my problems while neglecting theirs because I need the pity more.

In the end, though, they'll never get anything out of being with me.

If I make this blog a manual for how to stalk, manipulate and kidnap me maybe I'll finally meet the love of my life

∆ ««« System Overview

We're the L-System ("Leo" or "Lilly"), pychotic incel faggot-tranny loser (he/him, any).

We have relationships between system members (4-8, on&off for at least 4 years). feel free to ask us about it

We tried dating externally many times but it never worked. We're too much of a freak for normies and we never felt properly bonding with anyone else. i really just want to obsessively fall in love with a cutely controlling/manipulative boyfriend-girlfriend, is that too much to ask?!

»»» ∆ TransIDs and MUDs

Our body is an adult and our system and subsystems consists of 12 main alters, . : we're transitioning to psychotic and delusional with weed and adderall. : it feels nice when ppl online encourage us 🥺

cisids: autism, adhd, cptsd, ptsd, bpd, npd

Our transid list is always changing so some of these might change, altho others definitely won't.

radqueer, gay, genderfuck, aro/ace, transage, permahigh, permastoned, permadrugged, permateen, sex doll, prey, victim,

transharmed, transpsychotic, transdelusional, transamputee (?), transdentures, transabusevictim, transforcedsh, transsuibait, transed, transanorexia, transana, (corpse) )

We also experience "some" MUDs:

• Mirror Infatuation Identity Disorder

« ∆ » Other labels

Some of us identify with the labels retard, faggot, cripple and probably some other ableist slurs that I forgot rn.

DMs and asks open if u really wanna know. pls be nice 🥺

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(fuck nazis transphobes sexists racists etc etc)

please!!!!

I need to be encouraged to get worse, encourage me to get higher, take stronger substances, take more, get drunk, cvt more, make me destroy myself more then I already am, encourage me to just be the destructive little fuckhead I am