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✨✨✨✨Magic Winx✨✨✨✨

I've been a winx fan since like... forever, I can't believe Rai is using AI to make the reboot.

(Thanks to Maiky Odel, they shared the proof they could find with me)

yes. yes. yes.

honestly i get so excited when i see someone switch over to the “i could never” response because so many people do the “lucky you, you get to be lazy” and that one just really hurts.

so when i see even a small step in the direction of understanding my life is not glamorous, even if its still a response i hate, i feel excited dkdhks

i really cannot understand how people see disabled life as this glamorised lazy life. i genuinely cannot wrap my head around this.

how could ANY of what i go through be seen that way i just dont get it.

getting the cancer response is particularly funny for me.

i had cancer. thats what made me chronically ill.

telling people that seems to blow their minds.

theyre like no but cancer is the worst and you dont have that now but you had it before so youve had both cancer and being chronically ill but like cancer is worse and-

they dont know what to do with that. they tried to make a smart comment and it failed miserably. its funny to me. (i have to laugh or ill cry)

Telling a chronically ill person "at least its not cancer"

Or someone who's disabled due to a tragic accident "it could've been worse it could've disabled you more"

Or anything along the lines of "you could be dead or more disabled be greatful" I hope you rot in a hole where everyone you ever loved forgets you ever existed and you have to sit with that like in coco where you disappear when you're forgotten because that is so insanely rude and even more disgusting and if you don't know how to talk about disabilities without trying to "look on the bright side" or try and cheer people up about it maybe you shouldn't talk about them because some disabilities just are and they're always going to be and there's nothing anyone can do about it

And if someone is dying from their condition but its taking years instead of being fast like tv and stuff portrays it pls for the love of God don't tell them they "aren't dying fast enough" or "weren't you dying last year"

This post is specifically in reference to all the horrible comments able bodied people leave on disabled ppls social media's where the person shares their experiences

just got a second hand babydoll dress i am WINNING.

oh fuck yes.

kind of deeply obsessed with the idea of everyone thinking helia is kind of a dick. like not riven-levels of asshole but most people find him off-putting and hard to get along with by virtue of him being such an intense person. and he’s the kind of person who does things to the beat of his own drum. he’s very one track minded in that way and it makes it hard for others to collaborate with him and find him agreeable on a surface-level capacity. even still people find him likable but in a more distant, unattainable way. but anyone who spends time with him one-on-one and has a conversation with him realizes that he’s actually super non-judgmental and easy to talk to. and he really does like connecting with people, he just doesn’t go out of his way to spend his time on things that don’t catch his attention. and he’s honestly just super sweet.

in contrast, flora is affable and beloved and on average treats people so kindly and sweetly. so everyone’s impression of flora is that she’s a gentle and sweet person who rarely has a bad thing to say about anyone. and while this is partially true, she oftentimes has her private reservations about people that she only truly feels comfortable voicing with her close friends (ie the winx) but won't ever hide from anyone if directly confronted. her natural sociability makes it so that she's very easy to get along with and collaborate with, but people often underestimate her sharp judgment of character and tend to reduce her to her gentleness when she's much more strong-willed than she comes across.

& when helia and flora get together, it's the coupling of two people who are more understated on the surface but actually quite intense to their core. they match each other's freaks <3

okay okay i think imma just transfer to this as main and @zylahbeeart will be for art only lols im so stupid

i am constantly worried that my unpredictable health will lose me all my friends. you might say thats irrational, but it has already happened to me twice.

i have been called flakey, unreliable, a downer and probably more i havent heard. and i cant help but wonder, if the world around me was accessible, would i be any of those things?

the lengths i go to for relationships never feels flaky or unreliable to me. but maybe to other people it doesnt matter why i cant show up sometimes. maybe all that matters to them is a yes or no are they here with no context.

try be accessible and lenient with your disabled friends please..

its really confusing when youve had a traumatic childhood, but your adult life has been really traumatic too.

because on the one hand i have so much nostalgia for my childhood and i long for it, but on the other hand it really wasnt that great.. i just had less responsibility for my health.

i feel like im constantly searching for when i felt safe, but im not even sure if there was really a time where i truely felt safe.

i think thats why i love engaging with media from my childhood so much, its what helped me escape as a kid and im still running after that feeling.