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My uninteresting life

Ok so. No one seems to take my SOS seriously, and I'm sending them not because I want attention, but because I know. I know that some people care about me. And I don't want to bother them with my problems, but at the same time, I feel like if I don't try to reach them for help, I might just do something I might regret. Or not if I do it correctly haha but knowing how clumsy I am, I might just fail at dying too.

Anywaaay. So. Story Time. I got lost in Vietnam, Gone Wrong.

Sorry

I started to battle against depression 10 years ago. I had never been a happy child, my parents were strict and my classmates liked to bully me because I had awesome grades back then. But the real reason is... that there was no reason. I always felt like nobody could love me, as in seriously, and still do. When someone shows affection to me, I cannot not think that they just pretend to like me, and when someone seems to have deeper feelings for me, I can't believe it. When someone says that they find me "beautiful", I can't say thank you. Because I don't think I am. And instead, I reply by playfully asking them if they are blind. Say ut with a bright smile and no one will question it.

That's how I do for everything. Smile and people will be fooled. Say you're ok and smile and people won't try to look further. It works great.

Back to the story, I would say that this lack of confidence + the bullies pretending to like me just to then say that I am too ugly for them + My first love story (ouaahaa ouaahaa yeaaah) being the most chaotic thing e v e r triggered what was always here with me, in a sense.

And now, today. It is getting worse. Since I started university actually. It had had reach some kind of sleepy mode when in high school, but then, I started to live alone, In uni. Don't get me wrong, I like living alone. And the first year everything was alright, I could go to every and each of my classes and clean my studio, run errands and everything. But then, second year. I started to feel more and more tired for nothing. and by the end of the year, I couldn't clean my studio as often as I used to or run errands as often as I used to.

It got even worse in third year, during which I started to get panic crises. I learned to manage them pretty quickly, but still got one during one of my classes one day. Thank you, brain haha

And then. Master year. I had had suicidal thoughts before, but just brushed it off, as I knew it was not a solution.

Or at least that's what I thought.

Today, I am finishing my master, or at least hopefully. And I want to die. I think about it seriously and this time my brain doesn't have any warning signs for me. It ran out of ideas on how to cope with it. Today I am really far from home and from my family and friends. I befriended some people here, but I'm just another one in their long list of acquaintances. I just want to die.

So if you read this and you have a solution, or tips on how to end my life correctly for a clumsy lady, then please, feel free to share it with me.

Thanks in advance,

That fake smiling girl who just wants to die.

I am so glad to see that I am not the only one seeing what Bang Sihyuk's HYBE is currently doing to the K-Pop music industry.

every word of this article about hybe that crossed my internet scrolling today

put in the tags where youre from and how many times you kiss ppl on the cheek to greet them…. its for my Research

YES!!!!! 😍

Manner of Death novel translation

Manner of Death was confirmed as an upcoming BL series yesterday by the author. Sammon_Scene (author of Triage) confirmed via twitter that the novel will be made into a series - it is a crime BL novel, which is a nice change from the usual Uni trope. Cha_arty on twitter has gotten permission from Sammon_Scene to translate the novel into English as well!

Pinned information tweet from Cha_arty: https://twitter.com/cha_arty/status/1245662756214210560?s=21

Cha_arty’s translation website: https://sites.google.com/view/artchatranslations/

I’m personally super stoked that we are getting a BL that strays away from the Uni trope and that it is a crime novel! I’m a complete true crime junkie, so this is right up my alley because it mixes my two favourite things!

we all wanna be hongjoong

Tbh, the first time I played Inquisition and romanced Solas (because, of course, I had to), the big reveal about his actual identity floored me. I was expecting something, but not... THAT (Also, I first started and finished the game when the dlcs where not out yet, sooo Solas' disappearance had been pretty traumatic). and THEN the dialogues throughout the games + the codex entries started to make all kind of sense.

That's why, regardless of everything wrong with Inquisition (and let me tell you, as I am replaying the DA games right now, there are way TOO MANY issues in this game), this game is one that will have a long lasting effect on you. The characters have persona and interesting backstories (all of them, yes, even Blackwall, trust me), the plot is good good and well written, the fact that your choices in the 2 first games matter is SOOOO satysfying, etc etc Technical issues and a very bad level up and skill system (for a RPG game at least and compared with what we had in the first two games) will not make not like this game.

Will not play Veilguard though. From what I have seen and heard, I will NOT participate in the destruction of a beautiful licence by buying this lazy as f*** mobile quality game (and yet again, there are mobile games that look better). Which IS hurtful because I would have loved playing it only for the purpose of closure (and because Solas is def one of my favorite characters from the DA universe and deserves to be loved. Always remember how his tomb reads "dying alone" in the fade).

I went back on someone’s blog like 600 pages to see what was being said pre-inquisition release (bc I wasn’t in the fandom yet) and saw this conversation about Solas fghjklsfbk “average elven apostate” my ass Trick 😭

Gay Stays - reblog with your gender, sexuality and bias!

In regards to my last “gay stay” post, turns out everyone in this fandom is Bi/Pan haha. I’d love to work out the stats of it though so please reblog and tag your sexuality and bias!!

If you're scared of being falsely accused of rape, just don't go outside. Don't go out at night, that might give a woman a chance to accuse you, especially at parties and clubs. Just be responsible. Watch out for yourself. Don't be stupid. Don't get a woman angry to the point where she'll consider doing that, don't tempt her. and if she did falsely accuse you, I mean, what were you doing? Are you saying she falsely accused you so you can get sympathy points? How do we know you aren't the monster here? Why are you being so cruel? Do you want attention? You shouldn't ruin her life like this, saying that she faked being raped by you. Do you have any proof it didn't happen? If you're just careful, it won't happen. Stop being dramatic. It's not that much of a problem. Why do men have such a victim complex?