Can we talk about how Richard thinks of Judy Poovey as a weirdo, when she is less chaotic and insane than all of the Greek gang members.
Judy Poovey didn't do rituals in the forest that involved a bacchanal, searching for Dionysus.
Judy Poovey didn't push her best friend off a cliff.
Judy Poovey didn't cover up two murders for aesthetically pleasing reasons.
She is the most sane person out of all of them.
On the other hand, everyone that is not in the Greek class, thinks of them as the weirdos, which just shows how something that is cool and sane for one person can't be for another.
Slytherin and Ravenclaw on a date:
*Gryffindor spying on them with Hufflepuff*
Hufflepuff: this is so creepy, why are we here?
Gryffindor: why did you come then?
Hufflepuff: you told me we are getting ice cream and feed ducks in the pond!
Slytherin: they are spying on us aren't they?
Ravenclaw: ofc, hiding behind the lamp post won't help Gryffindor
Slytherin: do you know how we can scare them?
Ravenclaw: *nods* I am ready
*both pull out knives at the same time*
Ravenclaw: honey, are you ready for our next murder spree?
Slytherin: You bet I am. I heard someone following us.
Ravenclaw: the last victims are not even found yet....
Gryffindor looks at Hufflepuff: this is the moment.
Hufflepuff: what? I can't hear anything and why are they pulling out knives are they going to......
Gryffindor: RUN!!!!!!RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN!!!!
Hufflepuff: Ahhhhhh....all I wanted was to eat free ice cream!
Slytherin: they are not coming back
Ravenclaw: No.
Slytherin: why do you have a knife anyways? As a surgeon I have knives all over me.
Ravenclaw raises eyebrow: you never know when they come in handy...let's go I want cotton candy......NOW
Slytherin: *nervous laughter* you are so cute.
*Kunikida calls Atsushi*
Atsushi: hello? Kunikida-san....what's up?
Kunikida: do you know where Dazai is? He left before doing any paperwork
Atsushi, *staring at Dazai and Kyouka eating shaved ice on the dining table*: no? Do I?
Kunikida *sighs*: are you asking me or answering the question?
Atsushi: I am sure.. he'll show up....one day
Kunikida: eh...fine. If you see him tell him to get his ass back to the office
*phone cuts*
Atsushi: Dazai-san! Look! I had to lie to Kunikida-san because of YOU
Dazai: awww you are such a nice person Atsushi!
Atsushi *rolling his eyes*: how did you even get my keys? The door was locked? Did you give him, Kyouka-chan?
Kyouka: *shakes her head*
Dazai: oh, I have a copy of your keys 😄
Atsushi: what.😨
Dazai: what?
Atsushi: HOW DID YOU GET MY KEYS?
Dazai: I made a copy of them before you got this apartment 😄
Atsushi: 😐😐😐😐
Dazai: ah don't worry, I have the keys of all the people I care about. Here's Chuuya's, I kept them with me all these years....
Atsushi: HOW WILL I NOT WORRY AFTER KNOWING THAT----
Me: Have care how to speak about them, Akutagawa, Chuuya and Dazai are my children
Someone: They killed 80 people in two days
Me: they're adopted
Finally started my TSH re-read after a lot of procrastination!
I read until page 90, I was also taking running notes and making small annotations so it took more time than usual
I didn't want to forget any details I wanted to highlight for when I start the essay
Here are some notes I made while reading (only about Henry)
I find Henry hilarious for some reason while the entire time I was making observations on him
He's so dumb in a smart way! 😭
Out of all the characters in TSH, Camilla to me seemed the most enigmatic, more than even Henry Winter. There's something about her that I cannot understand. I couldn't trust her when I was reading TSH for the first time, I thought she was going to be the mastermind behind it all.
Why? Isn't Camilla the nicest of all of them? So was Charles, and look at what happened to him. The twins gave me the ick a lot of the times, especially during re-reads where I could see the early hints of the incest reveal and the abuse. It could have been completely believable, if Camilla, behind the scenes was the one causing the drama all along.
1. Richard's rose coloured lens: since the story is told from his point of view, it's understandable if he decided to leave some details, changed the story or was oblivious to some things he didn't want to remember or think about. He had the most bias for Camilla, she was his crush. And we often look at our crushes with rose tinted glasses and often hide their flaws and mistakes. Richard shows bias towards the Greek class even before he was in it and his infatuation with Camilla could be the reason why we don't get any bad details about her throughout the story.
2. Motives: while Bunny did get murdered for blackmailing and trying to betray the Greek class. Only Camilla had other motives to cause distress among the others. Particularly, Charles. We know he was extremely possessive with her and has caused her emotional and physical abuse (there's background info we get at times about the twins having broken objects in the house and other times where Charles is possessive of Camilla). I don't think she truly loves Henry, it's more that being with him gives her the protection and safety she needs. She has shown some kind of liking to Francis, they seem good friends and have kissed two times (I call it gay solidarity). She plays with Richard's heart a lot, kissing him when no one is looking and making him think he has a chance when he clearly doesn't. Camilla is overshadowed by the guys in her friend group; getting the "only girl treatment". Bunny is always trying to get under her nerves and is misogynistic towards her. Charles is controlling and abusive (her own brother). Henry is cold and sociopathic, as well as someone you can't trust ("I call it redistribution of matter"). Richard is a simp. Francis is there.
3. What could have happened: Camilla, tired of the way her life is tied to Charles, Henry and Richard and their feelings towards her forcing her into a corner with no choice of her own. As well as, mentally scared from the murder of the farmer, decides to end all of the misfortunes in her life. Instead of Henry making the plans, it's Camilla in this version of the story that decides to kill Bunny both to get rid of him from her life as well as to hide the first murder. But she does this from the shadows. And the person that discovers her plan is Francis, since they have a relatively good relationship, it's possible he wouldn't spill her plans and stay quiet. She gaslights Henry into believing he ended up killing Bunny (let's say he went through with the poisonous mushrooms but instead Camilla gave Bunny actual posion)
When Charles goes into his villain arc, Camilla uses Henry as a shield to keep him away. And in the final scene, instead of Henry shooting himself, Charles ends up shooting him and Camilla shoots Charles as an act of revenge. She then threatens Richard that if he says a word about this (both Bunny and Charles's murder) then he would die too, she does that to seal her secret; she knows Richard has a big mouth and might betray her and spares Francis, since he already knew and is trustable. Camilla cleans her fingerprints from the gun and puts it in Charles's hand in order to frame it as a murder-suicide. Camilla attends their funerals and gives an alibi in front of the police that her, Richard and Francis were in the country house during the murder-suicide and then testified that Charles and Henry were the ones who were involved in the two murders and were holding them hostage with that information, clearing the three of them from the murders. Then she finally leaves for a better life. (Maybe the epilogue would be about Francis telling Richard about Camilla's behind-the-scenes story, showcasing the aftermath and what they are doing in the present)
4. Character arc: making Camilla crucial to the plot and a twist villain would give so much to her character. Her mysterious nature, absence from the main plot and lack of impact at the start of the story could be explained by her secretly planning their downfalls and her escape. Instead of her being the object of affection for the three guys and being the typical "girl that ruins the friendships between guy friends", she is the hidden mastermind with her own motives, personality and story. She was the only one who didn't change in the second part. But in this version of the story, she is the one who drives it's entire narrative.
Let her be manipulative, a liar, a gaslighter. Let her show the wrath of female rage.
When the twins were introduced in white clothing, looking like angels. Maybe they were wolves in sheep's clothing. Both of the twins. Not just Charles but Camilla too. They were creepy, eerie, and strange. They hid their true personalities behind southern hospitality and beautiful features.
"Whatever we call beautiful, we quiver before it"
After all, the best characters are the grey ones.
Dazai: This anime is obviously a romantic comedy. Chuuya and I are the main characters so that means we are love interests.
Kunikida, rolling his eyes: yeah and what are we?
Dazai: You guys are the homosexual supporting cast. So make sure not to get too much screen time
Yosano: isn't Atsushi the main character?
Junichiro: and Nakahara-san only gets like 20 minutes of screen time how is a mc??
Ranpo: I am sorry, but I don't think I am supporting cast material, homosexual or otherwise.
What would you do in a trolley problem? Hit the 5 people in your way or save them and hit a spectator?
Hufflepuff: I would not like to hit anyone but if I had to.....the spectator. Because killing one person is better than 5.
Gryffindor: I would hit the 5 people, it would be wrong to kill an innocent bystander.
Ravenclaw: try to stop the trolley somehow or else jump off the trolley, I can't handle responsibility.
Slytherin: hit the 5 people, then reverse the trolley and hit the spectator. No witness, no crime.
What is your ideal life?
ESTP: do every illegal thing there is without going to jail.....
ESFP: living the dream in Las Vegas...for free
ENTP: being a philosophy professor so I can debate all my life with my students and get paid for it
ENFP: do everything I ever want and not being called "weird" and "unrealistic"
ENFJ: have lots of friends with problems, so I can solve their problems.
ESFJ: live a happy life with my family,friends, significant other and kids
ESTJ: being able to shout at my incompetent subordinates without being called a menace
ENTJ: world domination
ISTP: live in an island with good internet connection
ISFP: being an appreciated artist
INTP: staying at home and not have responsibility for anything
INFP: being able to live out my life without thinking about all my embarrassing moments that replay in my head every night when I try to sleep....
INFJ: being able to turn down people when they ask for help all the time without feeling guilty
ISFJ: having lots of cats and world peace
ISTJ: a stable job and a stable family
INTJ: There is no ideal life here. My plan is to leave earth for a better planet.
16 personalities on Valentine's day:
ENFJ: outside the house of S.O/Crush and telling them they love them with a bunch of gifts
INFJ: shyly giving their S.O a poem they wrote about them
ISFJ: making home made goodies to give to their S.O and spending time with them
ESFJ: gives "I love you" cookies to random lonely looking strangers
ISFP: confessing to their crush with a backup plan to move to another country if they got rejected
INFP: celebrating the day by reading fan fiction on their favourite characters
ISTP: does not care, unless they do, then making their S.O's day by showing affection
ESTP: is celebrating Valentine's day everyday
ESTJ: finds out it's Valentine's day at late night when their S.O is mad at them
ENTJ: takes S.O on an elegant dinner and tries to be as nice as possible
ISTJ: sends a "happy Valentine's day" message to S.O hoping that's all they got to do
INTJ: "look at them. They're holding hands. I want them dead"
ESFP: a Valentine's day themed party that's open to everyone
ENFP: goes out on a roadtrip with S.O and does all the things they want
ENTP: refuses to take or give gifts to S.O by saying "Valentine's day is a capitalistic holiday that's celebrated so that multinational companies can make a ton of money out of people's love for eachother"
INTP: what do you mean by "Happy Valentine's day" are you saying today is St. Valentine's birthday? I told you I am not interested in theology----
Things I have said or done as an INTP:
~ "It's not like I hate talking, you are just so boring. I don't even remember what you said two seconds ago. That's how unremarkable you are. So, it's not a ME problem, it's a YOU problem"
~ "I forgot to eat breakfast and lunch"
~ "Do I really need to wish someone their birthday? Do y'all like getting old?"
~ "Whenever I feel awkward, I imagine brutal ways to kill people"
~ "What do you mean I can't order from the kids menu? I eat like five things in my life"
~ "Sometimes I put on earphones just to avoid people"
~ "The T.V remote was too far away so I stared at the wall for five hours"
~ "I don't have enough energy to correct you right now, call me later"
~ *person says* "Hey, how are you?"
*ME* "Nice to meet you my name is just fine....wait"
~ "I am willing to die proving a point"
~ "I am not gonna study. What's the worst thing that happens? I fail. It's not like I am dying. I won't mind that either"
~ "I gave up on life when I was 11. The best decision I ever made"
~ "I am not sorry for coming late. I feel sorry that I came"
~ "I will touch grass when I am in the coffin"
~ "Well actually, everything you said was opinions, not facts. I don't care about how you feel, if you don't care about what I think"
~ "I pity how dumb you are"
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