Is my writing that shitty that nobody asks me to write things? Damn
Au where Lo'ak after finding what shaving is, decides to shave off his eyebrows. He thinks this will solve half of his problems and he goes for it.
But after he's done he hates it, his forehead looks weird without them.
Neteyam, Tuk, and Kiri burst out laughing as soon as they see him without his eyebrows.
Neytiri sighs as she walks away, while Jake looks like a kicked puppy since the brows came from him.
Spider at least tries to be nice about it, since he understands Lo'ak's struggle with them. Kiri doesn't have the heart to tell Lo'ak, Spider laughed so hard as soon as Lo'ak was away that he was choking.
Neteyam makes fun of him until Jake tells the kids that when Neteyam was younger, he drew eyebrows on himself with mud. This causes Lo'ak to make fun of his older brother.
i'm actually so fucking sick of zionists using phrases such as "Was it worth it, Hamas?" cause literally what the fuck are y'all yapping about??? Israel has been indiscriminately bombing gaza in front of our eyes since last October, Israel has murdered more than 30 thousands Palestinians within 5 months, Israel is forcefully starving gaza, Israel is the one committing war crimes everyday, Israel is continuing genocide and ethnic cleansing. Israel. is. illegally. occupying. Palestine.
we all know who are the perpetrators here. and zionists can't gaslight people into "hamas started it" bullshit anymore. everyone is actually sick of Israel's dumb colonialism propaganda where they just repeat same old tactics âhow dare you palestinians resist us, after we have your stolen land, freedom, human rights and subjugated your people under fascist colonial regime.â
Israel carry out atrocities in broad daylight and then go ahead blame Palestinian resistance for the said act of savagery they've performed, "O their audacity!" indeed!
paul dano isnât just some white boy of the month to me heâs my friend
Ship: Eddie Munson/Reader Rating: Mature Warning: Vomitting & very brief non-graphic nudity Tags: Hurt/comfort, sickfic, touch-starved Eddie, pre-canon Summary:
You take care of Eddie when he's sick.
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You wait until heâs slept for a good three hours (roughly the length of Lord of the Rings) before you get up. Taking extreme measures to slip out from under him and replace your body with a pillow, you pause, watching him make sure he keeps sleeping. When he doesnât stir, you breathe a sigh of relief. Rewinding the tape to roughly where he fell asleep, you put it back on for him before swiftly exiting his room.Â
Itâs late, you know that. So you head to the phone and dial-up your home number. It takes two rings before your motherâs voice is coming through the phone:
â(Y/N)!? Where have you been!â
âSorry, mom, I know, I shouldâve been home butâŠâ you take a really deep breath, facing away from Eddieâs room so you donât wake him. âEddie got really sick at school. Throwing up sick. I was the one to get him home, and I thought since Iâd been in close contact with him it was best not to bring whatever bug heâs got home. Iâm gonna stay here a while until heâs recovered, just to be safe so I donât get you contagious.â
âOh thank God, I thought something awful happened to you. What with the disappearances not too long ago. Yes, hon, I understand if you want to stay there - I can stop by with something to eat for the both of you if youâd like.â
âThat would actually be amazing,â you say with a soft laugh. âI know it might be too much to ask but could you grab the movies from my room? Just pick out whatever so I donât go insane with my own thoughts. Heâs not that big of a talker when heâs like this.â
âWill do. Iâll see you in about⊠how does an hour or so sound? Iâll defrost that chicken broth in the freezer and get you something proper to eat. Donât want to overwhelm his stomach now.â
âYou are seriously the greatest. Say hi to dad for me, I probably wonât be back for a few days just to be safe weâre not contagious.â
âI understand, sweetie. Iâll see you in a jiff.â
âBye, mom,â you say, hanging up the phone.Â
Taking a deep breath, you lean against the counter and stare at Wayneâs hat collection. You were lucky to have a mom who could see past Eddieâs whole⊠Eddie. Especially since she could bring you food as you didnât have three days worth of takeout money. Eddie might, judging by the wrappers everywhere, but you werenât about to make him put out while heâs sick. He can just pay you back later with some weed and jam sessions.Â
You check on him every so often, leaving the door open just a smidge so that you can make sure heâs still in fact, breathing. Heâs out cold (thankfully).Â
So, you grab a bit of weed from his stash and your bong from his room. You left it here as it was easier than having it in your own house. Your parents were tolerant, but not that tolerant.Â
With one final glance back at Eddie, you open the door to the trailer and take a seat on the steps. Itâs still early evening as you pack the bowl and click on your lighter. It's not quite the same as smoking with Eddie. It lacks his signature conversation and excessive hand gestures. To be honest, it feels a tad too alone for your tastes, dragging down your mood and impacting your high. Heâs barely a few feet away and yet he feels so out of reach.
You persevere anyway. You need something to take the edge off the flutter in your chest when he looked at you with those puppy dog eyes. Now was absolutely not the time to go about suffering over a crush.
Leaning back, your head hits the trailer door, a smoke ring drifting through the air.Â
You sit on the steps until you see your motherâs car out of the corner of your eye. Forcing yourself to stand you set the bong on the counter inside the trailer and step back outside. Sheâs grabbing something from the passenger seat as you walk up to her.
âHey, that didnât take long,â you say, holding out your hands to take the containers.Â
âIt took an hour and a half,â she points out, passing you a thermometer. âHere, because I doubt he has one.â
âThanks, thanks. Times kinda weird when youâre taking care of someone sick so forgive me -â she nods her head - âAnyway, should probably get this into the trailer. I donât really want to get you sick so uhâŠâ
â(Y/N) Iâve taken care of you while sick countless times. A brief moment in the contamination zone wonât affect me,â she chides. You swear if she didnât have a box of VHS tapes in her arms her hands would be on her hips. Spiritually theyâre definitely there.Â
âRight, right,â you mumble to yourself, letting her into the trailer.Â
Youâre immediately reminded why you hate trailers when the sound of Eddie taking a leak provides âambienceâ for the two of you. You set the leftovers down on the counter, shaking your head. To you, itâs normal. Not that you particularly want it to be, but thereâve been plenty of times where heâs paused a movie and gotten up to piss, gracing you with the sound as you try and ignore it until heâs back.Â
âForgive him, he was supposed to be asleep,â you dismiss, baffled that he even had anything left in his system to be turned into urine.Â
âIâm a grown woman. Iâve changed your diapers. Iâm sure I can handle hearing your boyfriend pee,â she says, setting the VHS tapes down on the coffee table.Â
âHeâs not my -â
âHey, (Y/N), I know this is going to sound pathetic but could you make me some soup? I kinda⊠I donât feel like vomiting anymore. Starvinâ actually,â Eddie says, cutting you off as he wanders out of the bathroom, using the wall as leverage. âMrs.(Y/L/N)?! What are you doing here?â
Your mother simply smiles and nods her head.
âSure he isnât,â she chirps to you before heading for the door. âEddie, dear, I hope you get better soon. If you kids need anything else Iâm a phone call away. Oh, and remember to wait at least three hours after the last time you puke before eating.â
âThanks for everything, mom!â you call as she shuts the door. âYouâre welcome, dear,â she chirps.
With that, the trailer door shuts and sheâs gone. Leaving you alone with a very confused Eddie.Â
You sigh, shaking your head before turning your attention to Eddie. Heâs deflated against the wall, scratching his stomach with his shirt pooling around his wrist. He can barely keep his eyes open and you're fairly certain if the wall wasnât there heâd have fallen over.Â
âCome here, letâs check your temperature,â you hum, taking out the tiny thermometer. âThen we can get some food in your system. My mom brought chicken soup.â
He grins at this, wobbly and lopsided:
âI always liked your momâs cooking. Makes me feel like home.â
âYouâre delirious,â you say as you shake the thermometer down. âOpen wide for me.â
He grins and sticks his tongue out in a sluggish version of the Devilâs naked tongue. You sigh and shake your head, still shaking the thermometer down.Â
âNo this goes under your tongue you goof, come on, work with me and you get to pick out the next movie,â you insist.
âThought next one was Indiana Jones,â he slurs, putting his tongue away.
âYou have to corporate first. My mom brought a bunch of my old ones,â you inform him, setting the thermometer under his tongue. âThere, now, stay here for two minutes. Think you can handle that?â
He nods diligently and you accept it, turning your attention to reheating the soup. You watch the clock to make sure that heâs not just standing there, though you hadnât anticipated him to be watching it as well. Itâs barely been two minutes when he rests his head on your shoulder, arms wrapped around your waist.Â
âSomeoneâs impatient,â you laugh, praying he canât hear your heartbeat as you take the thermometer out of his mouth.Â
âHungry,â he mumbles, watching you read it.
âYikes,â you mumble. âOne-hundred and two degrees Fahrenheit. One more and weâd need to call you a doctor.â
âCan I still get soup?â
âYes, you still get soup,â you assure him, patting his hand. âCome on, letâs get you to the couch and so youâre not overexerting yourself.â
He allows you to lead him to the couch, settling him down with a blanket wrapped around his shoulders so he won't get cold. You leave him in a bundle to return to the stove, reheating the soup for him. You can feel his eyes on you as you work, unsure of what to say and knowing he wonât be much for conversation. So you let silence permeate the trailer until you settle down next to him, the bowl in your lap. Heâs turned his whole body to face you, still snuggled in his blanket.
âOpen,â you request, filling the spoon with broth.
He looks from the spoon to you, nervously.Â
âEverything alright?â
âYeah⊠I just⊠is it weird that youâre feeding me? Shouldnât I do that?â
âThink you can do this or do you want me to? I promise I wonât tell anyone if you donât,â you ask, offering him the spoon.Â
He considers it for a quiet moment, curling in on himself in the blankets. You can see heâs still shivering despite the fuzzy fabric.Â
â... you. Too cold.â
âAlright,â you say, keeping your tone neutral and level.
Youâre actually hoping that heâs going to keep it down. Heâs gotten three spoonfuls in, going back for his fourth. Even if he takes really long pauses in between, heâs showing promise.Â
You know the instant he puffs his cheeks out a little that this isnât going to end well. Quickly setting the bowl on the coffee table, Eddie groans.Â
âNeed help to the bathroom?â you ask tentatively, reaching to take his blanket.Â
âMmm,â he says while shaking his head.Â
You arch an eyebrow, taking a seat back on the couch. Youâve barely sat down when heâs bolting for the bathroom. Without a second thought, you go after him, making sure his braid isnât near his face while he rejects the soup. It feels like forever before he finally stops, and youâre not even the one throwing up. You rub his back, letting him rest his head on his arm currently wrapped around the toilet.Â
âPlease⊠make it stop,â he whimpers, his eyes squeezed shut.Â
âI wish I could, Eds. Letâs get you a cold shower, see if we can bring the fever down and get some of ick off,â you say, standing up to turn on the shower.
âAgain? I just had one though,â he mumbles without moving.Â
âEddie, you are super clingy right now and I am not letting you cling to me while covered in toilet germs and sweat,â you point out, reaching to help him stand.Â
âFair point,â he mutters, stripping out of his shirt. You pull the elastic out of his hair to let him wash it.Â
âMhm. Letâs get you nice and cool, then we can watch Indiana Jones,â you remind him, helping him to step out of his pants and into the shower.Â
âYouâre too good for me. Donât deserve this,â he mumbles as you shut the curtain.Â
âI wouldnât be doing this if I didnât whole-heartedly disagree,â you point out. âNow get clean. Iâm going to go eat something and then Iâll come help you out.â
âGo eat, âcan wash myself,â he dismisses you, waving his hand behind the curtain.
âJust call if you need me,â you say as you step out of the bathroom, leaving the door open.Â
You opt to wash your hands in the sink before getting your own dinner ready. Thankfully you can just pop it into his microwave, wait two minutes, then have a hot meal. Your mother's cooking was always the best, even if you ate it quickly so as to not leave the smell lingering through the trailer when you got Eddie out of the shower.Â
The sound of vomiting interrupts you twice, and you plug your ears until itâs over. Not once does he call for you, and you feel bad, knowing that he wants to let you eat. Or perhaps he just doesnât want you to see him naked more than you have to. Which is entirely fair.Â
Either way, you finish your food, knocking on the open door:
âReady to get out yet?â
âYeah,â he slurs as the water shuts off.Â
âThink you can dry yourself while I get you some clean clothes?âÂ
âI got it,â he confirms.
You dip into his room, grabbing more comfy clothes and bringing them back with you. Heâs slow to dry off, still trying to get his hair when you return.Â
âIâll do your hair after, just dry the rest of your body,â you encourage him, holding his clothes.Â
He does as heâs told without a fight (which is so very rare for him itâs uncanny). Once heâs dry and dressed youâve gotten him back to bed, Indiana Jones in the VHS player as you sit on the edge of his bed. Thereâs a bowl next to the bed just in case he vomits again.
âCan you braid my hair again?â he asks quietly, barely able to keep his eyes open.Â
âAre you just trying to fall asleep on me again?â you question, fidgeting with his hair tie.Â
â... please?âÂ
You really need to learn how to say no to his puppy-dog eyes because they have you sitting behind him once more, running your fingers through his hair.Â
âYour hair is an utter mess. Do you own a comb?â you ask incredulously, knowing he does, just not where.Â
âDesk,â he grunts.
You grab it from where itâs pressed between a DnD module and a music notebook. You pick up the notebook, setting it down on the bed.Â
âOh, no, donât look in that. Itâs just shitty lyrics Iâm working on,â he immediately says, piquing your curiosity.Â
âOh? Any new songs I should be aware of?â you question as you sit down behind him, taking a comb to his messy hair.Â
âNo,â he says quietly, tucking his knees to his chest.Â
âNothing?â
âNothinâ.â
âIf you say soâŠâ
You know heâs definitely hiding something from you, but, his hair takes top priority. So you comb out every knot you come across, letting him stay quiet and watch the movie. You know talking isnât the greatest when youâre nauseous.Â
He falls asleep before you can even finish braiding his hair, drooling on your shirt with his arms around your waist. You have a feeling this is going to become a regular occurrence, which you donât exactly mind. Heâs always cuddly when heâs high, no matter who heâs with. Youâre not surprised heâs the same way when sick; even with a fever that high, heâs still shivering.Â
So you let him sleep through Indiana Jones and Fantastic Planet, and the Outsiders, waking up part way through the Empire Strikes Back. He blinks a few times, squinting at the television as he watches the movie. You only notice heâs awake when he snuggles closer to you.
âWoke up for the good part,â he mumbles, watching the battle rage on.Â
âHey you, sleep well?â you hum, your attention immediately on him; brushing his bangs from his face. He still feels like heâs on fire, which isnât surprising as itâs not even ten yet.
âAsk me tomorrow. Do⊠do you think we can try more soup?â
âYouâre going to have to let me get up for that,â you point out, watching as he lazily redirects his gaze to you.Â
âYou gonna come back?â
âJust need to get the soup reheated.â
âOkay,â he huffs, shuffling off of you to let you off the bed. He pushes himself to sit up, resting his head on his knees with droopy eyes and a frown.
âIâll be right back,â you assure him, patting his head.
You try to be as quick as you can. You know that heâll be distracted by the movie, yet, you hate to leave him like that. Standing in the kitchen you press your lips together with a frown. You shouldnât reheat soup if youâre not sure if heâll waste it again. So, instead, you get some of the ice from the freezer and add it to a glass. Then you head back to the room.
âI know itâs not soup, but let's see if you can stomach this first,â you propose, sitting down next to him.Â
âOkay,â he nods, opening his mouth.
You laugh, rolling your eyes as you set an ice cube on his tongue.Â
The whole glass is gone quickly. You wait fifteen minutes, letting him rest against your side as you watch the movie with him. When he doesnât puke it back up, you get up and return with soup.
This time you only give him three spoonfuls, and you wait again. Five minutes. Ten minutes. Fifteen. The soup stays down.
âProgress,â you hum, filling another spoon. âThink you can eat another?â
âAbsolutely,â he grins, as proud of himself as you are.
Imagine Yandere!Dano!Riddler, forcefully breaking into your home with a deganged love confession breaking past his lips in the form of sobs and screams. For minutes, you were forced to listen to the ramblings of a deranged man, your legs wobbling as they threaten to give out. Fearful, of course, you're frantically looking for places to leave. Edward noticed this and looked down at you, asking you if you love him back with a tilted head. Frantically, and mustering up the best show of acting you could manage, you tell him exactly what you think he wants to hear. You love him, you adore him, and you open your arms to invite him to hug you. Still, you couldn't hold back the physical expressions of fear you were showing.
Still, in a moment he was practically crying into your chest in apparent happiness, expressing how happy he was to hear those three pretty words come from your mouth. But, sniffling against your neck, he told you he just needed to ask you one more thing. Stepping back a bit, a disturbing contrast from the joy he was just expressing meets you. His eyes were blank, dark even. Smile wiped clean off his face, he stared you down intently. Finally speaking, your stomach dropped at the question.
"Why are you lying to me?"
đšđȘđąđąđđ§đź || for the most part, you've managed to let go of the life you lived so long ago, fighting to survive in an orphanage with your best friend at your side; you thought it was the only way to cope with the trauma and move on so you could start living in better means. but the cost of selling out is higher than you thought, and lying to yourself is harder than lying to everyone else. good thing there's a new vigilante in town who really, really hates lies.
đŹđ€đ§đ đđ€đȘđŁđ© || 15k (yeah.... strap in y'all)
đŹđđ§đŁđđŁđđš || SMUT (penetrative sex, loss of virginity, emotional sex, slightly dom!edward), best friends to strangers to lovers, some reader x male oc stuff, explicit violence/murder, minor character death, mentions of previous childhood abuse, bullying, stalking (implied), voyeurism, ANGST!!, hurt/comfort, young reader and young edward doing kid stuff (and sometimes adult stuff but it's not explicit), somewhat non-linear timeline, possessiveness, overall just a lot of emotions
Everything is so oppressively cold and damp; your fingers are pruned just from the moisture in the air, but your lips are somehow still chapped from dehydration.
You would think that stripping naked would go against all instinct in a cold like this, but the rags you call clothes donât do anything for you anyways. They canât keep in warmth you donât have, all they do is shield you from the wintery draft blowing through the crack in the wall.
But something else can do that, and so you strip to nothing but your barest of undergarments, and join him under the blanketâ itâs thin, but itâs wool, so it does the trick. There arenât enough of them for everyone, and you try to forget what you did to get yours. Youâre both so freezing that at first it doesnât do much, but over the course of the hour your combined body heat is just enough to fight off the chill. He holds you tighter the first time you relax from the growing warmth; your teeth finally stop chattering.
Itâs too cold to sleep, but neither of you are really awake, eitherâ embracing each other and living in that in-between state where there are no dreams but real life isnât too close, either. Tears run down the bridge of your nose, into the crook of his neck where youâve buried your face, and itâs by far the warmest thing either of you have felt in days.
âWhy are you crying?â he whispers. Even just his voice can soothe you.
âDonât leave me, Eddie,â you whisper back. âDonât ever leave me⊠we need to always be together. Promise me.â
âWe will always be together,â he assures, hand tightening on your shoulder. âAlways, always, always.â
You startled awake from the dream, already crying. Ironically, you were sweatingâ you threw off the blanket and felt the blast of air from the ceiling fan above on your sticky skin. It made you shiver.
You never thought youâd miss the cold.
The man beside you stirred awake with a groan. âAre you okay?â he asked groggily.
âY-yeah, Iâm fine, baby,â you assured, giving his arm a squeeze with your hand before you sat up on the edge of the bed, âI just need a shower. Go back to sleep.â
âI should go, actually,â he decided, sitting up and rubbing his eyes. âDenise is probably wondering where I am.â
You looked back over your shoulder and noticed the way the ring on his finger catches the light, even when thereâs so little in your bedroom at midnight.
The door shut across your apartment while you were in the shower; you just barely heard it past the sound of hot water streaming past your ears. You tried not to think about what you did to afford a living space so large; you tried not to think about why you were so desperate for a taste of luxury.
But some nights, you canât keep the memories down. Some nights, itâs like heâs right around the corner of your mindâ and you just want to reach around and touch his fingers with yours. Some nights, love is almost enough to make you wish for the past, because even though things got so, so, so much better and youâre never hungry or cold⊠they got so much harder, too.
Always always always.
Some nights, you let yourself wish heâd kept that promise.
~
Youâd been sipping on your champagne pretty much non-stop all night, social lubricant to help you tolerate the bustle of cocktail party guests crowding your home, but you stopped as your loitering took you by the window and you caught a glimpse down into the streetâ children, playing in the snow. They reached right into it with their little hands wrapped in mittens, pressing it into globes in their palms and chucking them at each other, chasing and running around.
Chetâs hand on your lower back didnât even get your attention, you were so used to it by now. âWhatâs got you thinking so hard, beautiful?â he wondered with a jovial, tilted smile.
âWhat are they doing?â you asked, looking at him quicklyâ his hair was getting longer, and grayer at his temples, but it looked good slicked backâ before returning your gaze to the scene below.
âWhat, the kids?â he clarified as he followed your line of sight. âSweetheart, theyâre having a snowball fight.â
He laughed a little, softly, but he stopped and wrinkled his brows when he realized you werenât joking.
âYouâve really never had a snowball fight before?â he tilted his head. You understood, then, that if you talked anymore about this that youâd make him confused and concerned and that wasnât what you wanted to do. Over time, you gained a talent for sensing that you were about to make people uncomfortable with the reality of your childhoodâ Chet knew you were adopted out of the Wayne House for Orphaned Children, at least, but very few others did.
âI guess itâs just been too long,â you dismissed with a nervous laugh.
"Yeah, it's been a few years since it snowed," he recalled. "Do you remember that one winter, record lows in Gotham for the past hundred years or something? Oh, it mustâve been almost ten years backâ I canât remember what year it was exactly, but the whole city got a foot of snow, and almost half of downtown lost power.â
You threw back the rest of your champagne in one go, but it tasted more sour at the back of your throat than you remembered.
âEverybody was having fun the first day, my kids made a snowman,â he remembered with a laugh. I wasnât having fun the first day, you wished you could snarl at him. âBut then it got old fast, thankfully our side of the city never lost powerâ and we had a back-up generator, just in case.â
A friend of Chetâs appeared beside the two of you, the cigar in his hand emanating a noxious odor; you hated the smell of cigars because it reminded you of your âfatherâ as he was legally consideredâ the man who took you out of the orphanage for his own twisted benefit. Turns out a rich man isnât likely to adopt a sixteen-year-old girl with nowhere else to go out of the goodness of his heart.
âSurprised to see you standing by a window,â the man addressed Chet with a hearty laugh, âwith that Riddler going after politiciansâ arenât you afraid of getting sniped?â
âDonât make me laugh, Hugh,â Chet replied. âIâd love to see him tryâ Iâve never had a good excuse to use that fingerprint-activated gun safe under my bed. I wish that punk would give me a chance.â
âYou should be more worried about standing at an open window with me,â you joked, and both of them laughed.
âAw, baby, you know I canât help but show you off,â Chet cooed as he wrapped his heavy arm around your shoulders left bare by your dress. âEspecially when youâre wearing what I bought youâ doesnât she look gorgeous?â he addressed Hugh. âDonât I have great taste?â
âIn dresses, or mistresses?â Hugh wondered. âOh, doesnât matterâ the answerâs yes either way. Itâs just a shame you donât share.â
âThatâs sweet of you to say, Mr. Haverford,â you returned bashfully, âbut I donât think the dress would fit you.â
Hugh and Chet laughed; you were good at this part, the âcharming girlfriend of the respected senatorâ thing. It was an open secret in this corner of society that Chet played the role of a family man for the cameras but kept you on the side as his plaything. Sometimes he said he loved you, but you figured he just loved how owning you made him feel about himself. And he wasnât cruel, not sadistic or excessively controlling, and he gave you a great life in exchange for your companionship and silence. Your apartment, for example.
Well⊠it wasnât really your apartment, it was his apartment, that you lived in. The apartment he bought specifically for you to wait for him in, specifically as a place where he could meet you in private and use your body and vent about the stress of his facade.
You didnât know if Denise, his wife, knew. Chet seemed to imply that she didnât since he always told you about coming up with ridiculous alibis for time heâd spent with you; but you wondered how she couldnât have figured it out by now, when youâd met so many of his friends, so many of her friendsâŠ
If she really didnât know, that was almost sadder than if she did and just pretended not to. But you tried not to think about her⊠and Chet certainly spent most of his time with you not thinking about her. I just need to get my mind off things, heâd tell you often, and that was his way of saying he wanted to lay back on the couch with his arms and legs spread wide while you got on your knees and sucked him off. Thatâs also what he meant when he said Iâve got a headache or is that new lipstick youâre wearing? or remember when I bought you that bracelet?
Now that you thought about it, about half of what Chet said to you really was just code for âI want a blowjob.â
âMaybe itâs about time to kick all these people out,â he mumbled to you, squeezing your waist for a moment, âend this re-election campaign afterparty a little early, hm?â
That was code for âI want to fuck you.â
~
Chet said goodnight to the last of the guests shuffling out the door as you finished rinsing out glasses in the sink. âThanks for coming out,â he nodded at them, shutting the door behind them and letting out a long sigh when the apartment plunged to silence again.
You heard him coming up behind you, but pretended to be surprised when he started to rub your arms, kissing your neck playfully.
âYou look so beautiful tonight, sweetheart,â he mumbled, starting to move one of the rhinestone-coated straps of your dress down your shoulder. âYou always look nice in the things I pick out for you.â
âMm, I do,â you hummed in agreement, drying the champagne flute and setting it aside so you could focus your attention on melting into his strong embrace.
âYou need some diamond earrings,â he decided as he kissed the shell of your ear for emphasis. âThese rubies are nice, but a girl like you needs diamonds all over.â
âStoooop,â you whined playfully, purring as his hands moved to your hips, pulling you back into him.
âA girl like you needs a diamond on her finger,â he added, his voice even lower, squeezing your left hand. You gasped and turned around, looking up at him with wide eyes.
âChet, youâre not serious,â you assumed.
âOh, I am,â he insisted. âI wish I could give it all to you nowâ but re-election is the worst time for things like this, even though all I really want is to be with you. Believe me, Iâm gonna divorce her and Iâm gonna marry you, after I win and after that moralist vigilante is thrown into Arkham.â
âBatman?â you furrowed your brows.
âNo, that Riddler guy,â he corrected.
You rolled your eyes. âAre you really worried about him?â
âObviously not,â he scoffed, âbut still, a psycho who posts crazy videos online and doesnât like politicians⊠I donât know anything past what I read in the papers, but I bet heâs not a fan of guys like me getting girls like youâ cause he could never get a girl like you.â
No, you figured someone hellbent on exposing corruption and manipulation was not likely to be sympathetic to a man nearing his sixties with a much-younger mistress running on the platform of family values. It was too bad the man who adopted you had died peacefully in his sleep three years ago, or maybe a man like the Riddler wouldâve given him a little suffering for doing what he did to youâ for making the money he made selling the pictures he took, for barely managing to wait until you were eighteen to essentially trade you to Chet in exchange for his support on a tax break bill.
You wondered if he would target someone like you, though, for being complicit in so much. You hid so much more than yourself in this apartment⊠you kept a lot more secrets than just an affair.
âIs that really why you think he does it?â you wondered aloud. âJealousy?â
âBaby, let me tell you something,â he began, raising an eyebrow and wearing a somewhat condescending smirk. âEverything is about sex.â
You snorted out a nervous laugh.
âIâm serious,â he insisted, âeverything men doâ it always has something to do with women. And guys like that, who need to hide behind a mask⊠well, if they didnât have to do it to get women, they wouldnât do it, that simple.â
âYou think Batman puts on a mask to get women?â you giggled.
âI think whoever he is, he must not have what it takes to attract attention with the mask off,â he asserted confidently. âHeâs probably not ugly, but I bet heâs broke.â
âYou think women can be bought?â you said, only letting an acceptable amount of your irritation seep into your toneâ you were trying to be the amount of offended that a guy like Chet saw as a sexy challenge, rather than an actual threat.
âI think women like power,â he offered instead, pulling you closer. âWho doesnât?â
You smiled, looking up into his eyes and then down at his lips. âI think Iâd like you even if you werenât such a big, important politician.â
He let out a proud little groan and kissed you; you were amazed that he fell for that. He was so logical, cynical even, and yet he believed any lie you told that was flattering.
He carefully pulled you along with him, both of you stumbling out of the kitchen and across the apartmentâ straight to the bedroom, of course. You were laughing together, somewhat mischievously, as you navigated by memory through the dark and toppled onto the mattress.
His weight on top of you would be crushing if you werenât used to it; he wasnât quite fat, per se, though he was medically at risk of being overweight. He was just sort of massive, towering and thick everywhere with a stubbiness to his form everywhere you looked⊠cock included, the one rubbing up against your inner thigh as he writhed on top of you.
Acting like you had sexual desire for him was one of the easiest parts of all of this, just because it was the most feignable emotion. What you couldnât fake was physical desireâ you had to close your eyes and retreat into your mind to find something stimulating enough to get your body prepared for this.
There wasnât any one person or idea that you turned to in search of arousal, no handsome actor or erotica sampling or kinky pornography youâd committed to memory; it was more just⊠ideas.
Warm, safe. Loved. Whole.
You felt your panties sliding down your thighs, you heard a groan from above you. âYou want me that bad, beautiful?â he purred. âYouâre so wetâŠâ
âYeah, baby, all for you,â you cooed.
He pushed the skirt of your dress up higher and flopped back down on top of you; you winced when he slipped inside you, not reaching very deep but thick enough to give you a little sting when you werenât expecting it.
Chubby fingers slid your loose strap down lower, exposing half of your chest, and he sighed as he groped your breast with a clammy palm.
âSo fucking gorgeous,â he praised. You had trouble taking comments like that personally. Beauty felt so passive for you.
The room was dark, the only light coming in from the living room through the open bedroom door; it cast a big orange rectangle on the wall just past where you could see over Chetâs padded shoulder. You wrapped your arms around him and held onto his suit jacket as he grunted into your ear.
Your eyes fell shut, and the concepts in your mind started to narrow in and gain specificity, culminating towards something you couldnât describe.
Shared secrets. Ink smudges on your fingers. Scraped knees wrapped in bandages, tears wiped away.
Clutching tighter at his clothes, you whimpered aloudâ and he seemed fine believing it was because of how he was making you feel and not because of your runaway memories.
Soft hands gripping at your back, pulling you closer and holding you steady. A language only the two of you speak. The plastic rim of eyeglasses bumping into the side of your face. Always always always.
âOh god,â you moaned aloud.
âYeah, you like that?â Chet chuckled proudly.
You hadnât been expecting to hear his voice, even though he was the only man youâd been with for years; the realization made you shoot your eyes open.
The shape on the wall was now a big orange rectangle⊠with the shadow of a man inside it.
You were so paralyzed you couldnât even gasp, you couldnât breathe at all. Chetâs head was in the way, you couldnât look at the door and see who was standing there, watching you; for some reason, your instincts didnât tell you to alert Chet to the ominous presence⊠you just laid there and let him keep going, because that was basically your whole fucking purpose.
âKiss me,â you breathed, and Chet sat up slightly to hover above you with a self-congratulatory smile.
âOh, sweetheart,â he pouted, mocking you, before he leaned down and gave you a hungry, sloppy kiss. When it ended naturally a few moments later, you guided his head to rest on the other side of yoursâ which gave you the freedom you needed to turn your head and look at the man standing at your door, while you felt Chetâs thrust gain speed and lose accuracy (not that they had a lot of that to begin withâŠ).
Youâd guessed it based on the jagged edges of his shadow, and at his presence in a time like this, but you were still shocked to see the Riddler standing thereâ cast in a golden glow from behind, his face impossible to make out while he was backlit like this. Obviously, his face wouldnât do you much good when it was masked, but for some reason you wished you could see his eyes⊠you thought maybe it would make his visage less viscerally haunting, give him some humanity; right now, he looked preternatural, otherworldly, when all you could see of him was a vaguely human shape in tones of muddy brown and deep black. Two things stood out in his appearance when he was lit like this: one, the roll of silver duct tape in his hand, which reflected the light rather obviously; and two, the clear plastic frames around his unseeable eyes, which seemed to almost glow with the light shining behind them, though they too disappeared into blackness in the middle with everything else.
There were a few logical responses for you to choose from: scream for Chet to get his gun, scream at him to leave, scream with no particular goal besides expression of terror.
Instead the terror just stayed inside, and you couldnât look away, and you felt it all building and swirling and making pins and needles wash over your body in waves. You choked on your breath; and the two of you just stared at each other. Shame hit you just as much as sick pleasure at the knowledge that this man was watching you be ravaged by someone elseâs husband, by a father and elected official and the man who swore to crack down on prostitution and get âwhoresâ off the streets.
But he had one in his bed. A tear rolled down your temple; you hated yourself, then, as much as the Riddler must have hated you seeing the living hypocrisy you were. Seeing the way youâd debased yourself for a scrap of luxury. But if he knewâ if he knew what youâd been through and where you came from and why you spread your legs just to stay off the streetsâ heâd understand.
Too bad the only person who could ever understand probably still hated you⊠if he was still alive.
The invisible, overwhelming stare of a terroristâ and the crushing self-awareness you spent most of your waking moments running from like a track starâ was having an⊠unexpected effect on you.
âOh, fuck, are you close, sweetheart?â Chet groaned loudly. âI can feel your little pussy squeezing meâŠâ
Well, any chance you had of not giving away to this terrifying stranger that you were about to come from being watched by him was out the window.
âIâm close, too,â he continued, âIâm gonna come so deep inside you.â
Not that deep, but, sure. Live your dream, pal. âIâ I want you to,â you gasped.
âI want you to come first,â he insisted. Wow, what a gentleman⊠it was almost like you didnât fake your orgasms nearly every other time.
You honestly tried not to give in, you already felt horrifically vulnerable with this man watching you, and now he was about to watch you come. He was about to make you come, without even touching you. Or saying a word.
âCome on and come for me,â Chet encouragedâ but as you and the man in the doorway contemplated each other, you were sure that he knew you were really coming for him. For some fucking reason.
Your moans got sharper, louder, needier; after being frozen for so long that you wouldâve worried he were a statue if not for his heavy breathing, the Riddler stepped forward into the room. You heard every step of his boots as he circled the room and came to stand by the side of your bed, staring down at you much more closely, but Chet didnât seem to notice⊠apparently he was distracted at the moment.
âOh, fuck,â you whimpered, tears welling in your eyes as you looked up at the faceless man above you; he tilted his head and you felt your channel clench even tighter. âIâ!â
You didnât get a chance to finish your warning as the heat hit you like a paradoxically-pleasant suckerpunch right to the gut. You choked out a loud, pathetic whimper and went limp beneath Chetâs broad form.
His own grunts got louder and louder, erratic thrusts culminating in one rough slam of his hips against yours as he came inside you. âFuck, sweetheart,â he sighed, sinking his weight down into you, âyouâre amazingâŠâ
The Riddler raised his arm and you realized he was brandishing a massive metal pipe in his hand, preparing to bring it down on the back of Chetâs head. You tried to reach up to stop him, but the man on top of you was too wide and heavy to give you that much mobility, and you winced as the weapon came down with a clang.
âDamn it,â you hissed, shoving on Chetâs shoulders, but the dead weight of an unconscious two-hundred-pound man was well past your strength ability. âWill you help get this guy off me?â
The intruder reached down and grabbed Chet by his jacket, both of you heaving to turn him over on the bed.
âHe was about to fall asleep,â you explained with a groan as you rushed to cover yourself, pushing your dress back down over your legs and sitting up on the side of the bed. âYou couldâve waited and saved yourself the trouble of knocking him outâ youâre gonna have to wait a while for him to wake up if you want the combination to the safe, I donât know it.â
You stood up and noticed his head was tilted downâ the light finally gave you enough of a look at his eyes and they were pointed down at your chest. You glanced down with him and realized your dress was still pulled down.
âShit,â you grumbled as you corrected your strap and covered yourself. âThanks for letting me know my tits were out, Jesus,â you snapped sarcastically. âYou already got a free show, get a grip.â
You brushed past him and he was still just standing there, so you turned around and crossed your arms.
âWell, arenât you gonna use that tape for something?â you shrugged. âBy the wayâ lead pipe, really? Is this fucking Clue? The Riddler in the bedroom with the lead pipe?â
âYouâre in no place to question my methods,â he spoke, finally, and unrolled a long stretch of tape with a sticky, tearing noise.
~
You tapped the eraser end of your pencil rapidly on your open notebook, desperately hoping for the energy to focus on Mrs. Gilliamâs lecture on Wuthering Heights. You jumped slightly in your seat when you felt something brush against your back through your shirtâ you waited until the teacher turned her back to write on the chalkboard to reach behind and grab the piece of paper.
When you unfolded it, the letters were randomized and made no sense⊠to anyone except you. You smiled as you turned your pencil around and began to work to solve the cipher. It only took you probably less than a minute, and you grinned when you read the decoded message:
IF I DIE OF BOREDOM IN FRESHMAN ENGLISH, BURY ME UNDER THE BLEACHERS
Just as you started to snort a laugh, you covered it with a cough and no one seemed to notice.
âNow, two of the most important themes of Wuthering Heights are childhood, and love,â the teacher continued. âYou should all have a pretty good understanding of the first one, but, whether you believe it or not, youâre a little too young for the second.â
You flipped the page over and started working on your code for the other side; it came to you like second nature now, it was how you and Eddie kept your secrets in a place like the Wayne Orphanage where there was never really privacy.
I WANT TO FIND ONE OF THESE WUTHERING HEIGHTS AND JUMP OFF, your message offered in reply, if he could find the keyâ which he would, quickly, you imagined.
You folded the paper up and turned to pass it behind you, but you jumped in shock when Mrs. Gilliam was suddenly standing right in front of you, having appeared out of nowhere.
âO-oh, we were justââ you began to make up an excuse on the fly.
âPrincipalâs office, both of you,â she ordered with crossed arms.
âWait, it was my fault,â Eddie insisted, âshe didnât do anything.â
âExcept write a note to you? I have eyes, Mr. Nashton.â She rolled them for emphasis.
She snatched the paper from your hands and unfolded it; you instinctively reached to try to stop her, but sat back down when you realized it was useless.
âWow, riveting stuff,â she spoke sarcastically as she displayed the paper for the class. âRandom letters? No wonder youâre not interested in English class, you apparently canât actually write in English.â
The classroom erupted into laughter, and you shot a sympathetic glance at Eddie who was looking down at his knees, cheeks starting to turn a little pink. Getting picked on by upperclassmen and even other freshmen wasnât really new to either of you, being orphanage kids and all, but you wished the teachers wouldnât do this kind of thing as well.
âI-itâs a cipher,â Eddie attempted to sheepishly explain.
âI donât care,â she insisted, âyou can explain it all to Mr. Waters and see if he cares enough to keep you out of detention for disrupting my class.â
âActually,â you interrupted, âwe were just passing notes. You were the one that disrupted the class.â
A few astonished laughs and âoooohâs echoed around the room, and Mrs. Gilliam gave you a glare of pure fury. âBe sure to explain that attitude to the principal, too, missy,â she snapped.
And, to be fair, you tried⊠but it didnât go over well. You cringed as Mr. Waters glared at you over the thick tortoise-shell rim of his glasses.
âIâm surprised to see you here,â he said, âespecially for an issue in class. Youâre such a good student.â
âIâ well, I try to be,â you offered meekly. âIâm sort of distracted today. So is Eddieâ we didnât sleep much last night, thereâs no power at the orphanage and itâs so coldââ
âWhile Iâm sympathetic to your extenuating circumstances,â the principal offered, âI canât allow you to disrespect teachers on account of a poor nightâs sleep. Many of our students lost power in this winter stormââ
âYes, but our walls arenât insulatedââ
âI wasnât finished speaking,â he informed you sternly.
âRight, sorry,â you mumbled.
âMy point is, there are always excuses,â he continued, âbut they never mean much. Youâre responsible for your behavior at school, and I would encourage you to consider the company you keep and how that affects your performance.â
You wrinkled your eyebrows together. âYou donât mean EddieâŠâ you hoped.
âEdward is a bright student,â Mr. Waters mitigated, âbut his attitude is⊠concerning, at times. I think you might be better off with a wider social circleâ maybe not latching on entirely to someone so isolated.â
âHeâs not isolated,â you defended, âhe has me.â
âYes, well, clearly the two of you have a strong connection.â
âNo, weâ itâs so much more than that. We donât just have a connection, we are connected,â you explained defensively. âThatâs not a choice, thatâs just⊠how it is. You just wouldnât understand because youâve never needed anybody the way we need each other.â
He laughed a little, looking down at where he rested his elbows on his desk, shaking his head. It was so fucking condescending you wanted to scream. âListen,â he began, âitâs normal, at this age, to feel like youâre the first person to discover feelings this powerful. And itâs normal to think someone you have a crush on now will always be the most important thingââ
âWait, wait,â you shook your head, leaning back as if you couldnât physically process his words as fast as they were traveling through the air. âA crush?â
âIâm sorryâ love,â he corrected, semi-sarcastically.
âItâs notâ um, we arenâtââ you stammered, looking down and feeling your face get a little warm. âItâs not romantic, really. Weâre more like siblings, I think.â
I think being the operative phrase there. Siblings sometimes still didnât feel like enough to capture it, but more than that, things had happened last night that you werenât sure how to explain. You knew enough to know that it wasnât technically sex, but⊠it wasnât something best friends normally doâ definitely not siblings. Even though youâd been thinking about it every moment since, you still hadnât figured out what it meant. Was it just respite from the cold, survival instinct? Was it a moment of weakness as the winter seemed to seep right into your mind and make you a little delirious?
Regardless, it was perfect. It was a moment of perfect in a life of so much suffering. Three days of blistering coldâ the weekend, plus the Monday when the school called a snow day and other children must have celebrated while you cried for hours knowing youâd be separated from your chance at warmth and a decent lunch that much longerâ and one night in each otherâs arms feeling like you might just be okay.
âIâm sorry,â Mr. Waters coughed, âI didnât mean to assume. But that is the prevailing assumption, when a boy and girl spend this much time together.â
âWell, the prevailing assumption is generally wrong,â you informed him, âbecause people are generally very stupid.â
He snorted. âI guess I canât argue with that.â
âIâm sorry for being rude to Mrs. Gilliam by passing notes in her class,â you concluded. âIâll write her an apology letter.â
âConsidering the circumstances, it may be more fitting to apologize verbally,â Mr. Waters noticed.
âNo,â you shook your head, âIâd like to prove to her that I do know how to write in English. Will I be receiving detention?â
âYes, after school today, until 6,â he nodded, and you nodded back in acceptance. A few more hours in the heated building, with ample time to do homework without the distractions of screaming babies and kids getting into fistfights, was anything but a punishment in your mind. You stood up to leave, slinging your backpack over your shoulder. âWould you send in your, uh, brother on your way out?â
âSure,â you agreed, and you slipped out of his office, past the receptionistâ where you caught a glimpse through the glass wall of Eddie surrounded by four juniors shoving him around, forcibly roughing up his hair and laughing at him as he anxiously shoved his glasses up higher on the bridge of his nose. One was already midway into dumping the contents of his backpack onto the ground as Ed weakly begged them not to.
You glanced back at the receptionist behind you in exasperation, finding her caught up on a clearly-personal conversation on her phone instead of either noticing, or caring, that this was happening just a few feet away. Sighing, you stormed out of the waiting area and into the hall.
âWhere do you get off?â you snapped at the leader: Darren Blanchard, you knew him much better than you wanted to.
âHey,â he grinned at youâ and though it did intimidate you to see him and his gang step closer to you, you were just relieved that it took their attention away from Eddie. âWhatâs a goody two-shoes like you doing in the principalâs office?â
âWhatâs an illiterate dumbass like you doing in a school?â you returned, and his buddies sarcastically laughed at your comment.
âYou know, itâs a shame you waste all your time with your Loser of the Year over here,â Darren continued. âAll us junior guys agreed youâre the hottest freshman girl. You could be popular if you let one of us take you out.â
âOh, really, you all agreed?â you chirped. âDid you take a vote in between jerking each other off?â
âListen, bitch,â one of the othersâ you thought maybe his name was Craig but you werenât sureâ snarled as he grabbed you by your shirt and shoved you back against the glass wall.
âStop,â Eddie demanded, and they all turned to look at him.
âEd, donât,â you breathed.
âDonât touch her,â he continued anyways, and you sighed in frustration.
âOr what?â another thug challenged. âWhat are you gonna do?â
âIâ I donâtââ
âCâmon,â Darren grinned predatorily. âTell me what youâre gonna do if I touch her.â
âIâŠâ Edward began again. âIâll kill you!â
They all laughed, and you hung your head in shame. âOh my god,â Darren croaked out between cackles, âoh, thatâs sad. Thatâs really sad.â
Probably-Craig grabbed your wrist and Edward made good on his promiseâ uh, sort of. He threw a punch and hit one of the other boys in the jaw, but it landed like a fly on a dinner plate; the punch he got back, meanwhile, knocked him straight to the ground.
You broke free from the grasp of the boy holding you and knocked him back long enough to get one kick between the legs in, and he crumpled to the groundâ but Darren grabbed you and held you back as the other two still standing dragged Eddie up off the ground.
âLet me go!â you whimpered, struggling against Darrenâs grasp but finding it totally useless.
âItâs cute when you put up a fight,â he grinned. âGet up, Craigâ this little bitch needs to be taught a lesson.â
Obviously resisting the urge to hold his injured groin, Craig clamored up and walked up to where Darren was holding you back⊠and suckerpunched you right in the stomach, so hard you worried for a second you might wretch. âStop!â Eddie shrieked, but his own cry was cut short as he got a similar treatmentâ except much more unrelenting.
You had to blink the tears out of your eyes to catch a glimpse of Eddie getting absolutely pummeled, and it only made you sob harder. A punch to his cheek knocked his glasses off onto the floor, where they were promptly stomped on. âLeave him alone,â you croaked out, âpleaseâ!â
Darren dropped you to go get in on the action, and you fell to your hands and knees atop the scattered contents of Eddieâs backpack all over the tile floor; you scrambled up and dashed to the receptionistâs desk, all but slapping the phone out of her hands.
âLook!â you demanded, pointing to the glass wall, and she frowned as she stood up.
âHey!â she shouted at them, and they all stopped and turned to look at her. âBreak it up!â
Principal Waters, apparently overhearing the commotion, stormed out into the waiting room and that definitely got their attentionâ the boys holding Edward dropped him to the floor unceremoniously and straightened themselves. âYou four!â he bellowed. âIn my office, now!â
They awkwardly shuffled past you. Darren shot you a glare and Craig waited until the receptionist returned to her phone call to whisper, âsnitches get stitches.â
âJust worry about the stitches youâre gonna need,â you returned, glancing at his crotchâ which yes, he was clutching still, though he was probably overexaggerating the injury for a sympathy appeal to Mr. Waters.
As the principal shut the door behind them, you ran back into the hall to find Eddie trying to lift himself up off the floor.
âOh god, Ed, itâs all my fault,â you whimpered as you reached under his shoulders to help him up. âYour lip is bleeding,â you sighed as you reached up and dotted the blood away.
âI-Iâm fine,â he assured, unconvincingly, as he blinked down at you.
âYour glasses,â you remembered. âIâve got tape in my backpack, hold on.â
You picked up the two halves off the floor, and sat down on the bench in the hall (where he sat down next to you as well) to open your backpack and take out the roll of Scotch tape you kept at the bottom. With a decently-sized strip stuck to one of your fingers, you held the snapped bridge of his frames together and carefully wrapped the tape around.
âThere,â you smiled as you turned to the side and gently slipped them onto his face. âIt wonât fix the cracked lens, but, itâs a start.â
You noticed the way he was looking at you through the spider-web splinters in the glass, and it made you feel all warm inside. He looked away nervously. âI wish I could protect you,â he mumbled.
âYou do, Ed,â you assured as you reached forward to squeeze his handâ but he pulled it away.
âNo,â he denied, âyouâd be better off without me. Iâm the reason they treat you like that. If it werenât for me youâd be the pretty popular girl.â
âThat doesnât matter,â you scoffed. âPopular is for normal people, and I hate normal people. Pretty is for shallow peopleâ the only ones worse than normal people.â
âWell, youâre still pretty,â he explained, and damn it, there was that feeling againâ you didnât know what to say, but the subject changed itself when the tape on his glasses gave way and the two halves fell limply at the sides of his neck, still hooked onto his ears. You couldnât help but laugh, covering your mouth with your hand instinctively.
âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry,â you giggled, âIâm not laughing at youâ it just looks funny.â
âNo, itâs fine,â he promised, âitâs worth making you laugh.â
âIâm sorry my tape didnât workâŠâ
âOh, thatâs okay! Iâve got my ownââ he looked at the assortment of his belongings all over the floor, pointing to the duct tape roll that had rolled its way across the hallwayâ âright there.â
He got up to get it and you sighed a little as you got down on your hands and knees to start gathering the papers and notebooks strewn about, while Eddie was busy using his teeth to snap off a small piece of tape and carefully repair his glasses.
âCan you see those well enough to fix them yourself?â you asked, still working on stacking things neatly enough to fit back into his backpack; you glanced up at him and saw him holding the glasses about an inch from his face as he repaired them, making you chuckle to yourself. You looked back down at the papers around you, mostly homework and notes with a few doodles here and there (Eddie liked to draw little things while teachers explained things he already knew everything about), and you tilted your head as you caught a glimpse of one page specifically. It was a cipherâ a symbol cipher, not key, and most interestingly it was one you didnât recognize. There was a legend on the side, and a message in the middle; you could see so much erased and scratched out, clearly he was still working on this specific code. Distracted, you sat back on your feet for a second to try to solve it. You glanced back and forth between the message and the key, decoding it one letter at a time.
I SHOULD HAVE KISSED YOU
You tilted your head when you realized what it said, and just then Eddie snatched the paper out of your hand. âD-donât look at that,â he mumbled awkwardly, gathering more papers of his own and haphazardly shoving them into his backpack. Before you could ask more, Mr. Waters stepped into the hallway, and you and Edward stood up nervously to await your sentencing.
âIs it true, Mr. Nashton, that you punched Kyle Mitchell in the face?â he asked.
âI⊠I donât know, sir,â he admitted, making the principal raise an incredulous brow. âI just swungâ I wasnât sure who I hit⊠I kinda canât tell them apart.â
You tried not to laugh at that. âBut you did hit someone,â Mr. Waters presumed.
âYes, sir,â he sighed.
Mr. Watersâ attention turned to you next. âAnd you⊠did you kick Craig Johnson in the, uhâŠâ
âJohnson?â you repeated.
âWatch your language,â he frowned.
âN-no, I really didnât know his last name,â you insisted.
âOh,â he cleared his throat, âwell⊠you admit to kicking him, then?â
âYes,â you agreed, âin self-defenseââ
âRegardless,â Mr. Waters interrupted, âschool policy dictates that any involvement in a physical altercation merits an out-of-school suspension of at least one dayââ
âOut of school?â you repeated, choking up instantly. âPrincipal Waters, pleaseââ
âItâs not up to me,â he assured.
âItâs so cold,â you whimpered, âthereâs no food, please, you canât keep us out of school!â
âI can, and I have to,â he repeated, firmer.
âPlease, just an in-school suspension, detention for a month, anything!â you offered.
âSuspend me for the whole week,â Edward bargained, âand let her come back tomorrow. Please.â
âEddie, no,â you whined, but Mr. Waters stopped you both.
âStudent discipline is individual,â he explained, âand not something that can be traded or transferred to someone else. Youâll be sent home with a letter to the head of the House explaining your suspension, and you may return to campus on Thursday. Iâm sorry.â
He turned and left, leaving you to fall into Eddieâs arms with shaky sobs. âItâs my fault,â you choked out, âitâs all my fault, if I just hadnât kicked himââ
âShh,â he soothed as he stroked your back. âHey, itâs gonna be okayâŠâ
âHow?â you whined.
âWhen we get back from school,â he began, speaking quietly against your ear, âweâre not going to give them the letters. You know they arenât going to notice anyways⊠and tomorrow, weâll wait for the bus, but weâll get off at the next stopâ and weâre going to go spend some money.â
You leaned back to look up at him through your tears. âWhat are you talking about? What money?â
âCraig Johnsonâs money,â he explained, holding up a walletâ which you quickly snatched out of his hand to hide in your backpack, glancing to make sure no one had seen. The receptionist certainly hadnât, she was laughing hysterically at something said by whoever she was on the phone with.
âWhere did you get that?!â you whispered.
âOff the floorâ mustâve fallen out of his pocket after you kicked him,â Ed smirked proudly. âWe can stop at a diner and get a hot breakfast first, then buy coats at the mall and snacks to hoard when we get back to the Homeââ
âOh my god,â you squealed excitedly as you hugged him tightly. âEddie, weâre not gonna be hungry tomorrow, or coldââ
âNo, weâre not,â he agreed, holding you even tighter in response. âWeâre gonna be safe⊠and weâre gonna be together. Always.â
~
You sniffled and discreetly wiped a tear off your cheek, forcing yourself out of the memory and back into composure as you stood up straight in front of the bathroom mirror.
Stepping out into the living room, you found that the Riddler had arranged a little scene mid-progress; he sat your unconscious boyfriend up in a chair, walking around it to encircle him with the tape. He only had it wrapped around once when he stopped to stare at you.
"Am I next?" you asked. "Are you gonna tape me to another chair and⊠torture me, kill me?â
You considered saying the other thing he might be likely to do to you after restraining you, but you didnât want to give him any ideas. Even though if that was what he wanted to do to you, he couldâve done it by now.
âI thought about it,â he admitted. âThe thought upset me. So as long as you donât interfere and let me carry on, Iâll leave you be.â
You let him go on for about a half second longer, before you had to interrupt him: âWait,â you mumbled, and he sighed and set down the roll of tape, barely leaving Chetâs limp form stuck to the chair. "Don't kill him," you pleaded. "I know he's not perfect, but he doesn't deserve to die. Wouldn't it be better to keep him alive and use himâ like a man on the inside?"
"I have no interest in the usefulness of a bribed senator," the Riddler insisted firmly, "or in the advice of his whore."
You scoffed at the term even though it wasnât exactly wrong, and made your cheeks sting with heat. "Listen, you don't know meâ"
"I know everything about you," he interrupted in a growl, stepping closer to you. "I like to do my research."
âIf you know me, then you know why this is what I had to do,â you replied. âDid your âresearchâ show you how awful that orphanage was, that not a cent of Dr. Wayneâs grant ever made its way to us after he died? That we fucking starved? And just when I thought I was free, adopted by an important wealthy man and sent to the best private school in Gotham⊠well, you must have seen the pictures my dear old dad took of meââ
âYouââ he choked, sighing and looking down. âYou donât have to worry about those anymore.â
You knitted your eyebrows together. âIâ what?â
âThere werenât a lot of copies left,â he explained, âmost of them were never digital but, either way, I destroyed them all.â
âWhââ you choked, looking down at the ground because suddenly looking at his masked face was a little overwhelming. âWhy would you do that for me?â you whispered.
âI⊠you were a kid,â he answered, apparently struggling with an explanation of why he would go out of his way to save your dignity. âI donât like pictures of kids being out there, I donât think that makes me particularly special.â
âOf course it does,â you breathed, holding your own arms tightly. âIt makes you special to meâŠâ
âWellââ he coughed, âI just wish I could kill everyone who ever bought them, or saw them. I wish I could kill everyone that exploited youâ Iâm about to kill that senator, because of what he did to you.â
You blinked up at him, thin tears gathering at the corners of your eyes. âBecause of me?â you whispered. âWhat⊠what does this all have to do with me?â
âYouâll see,â he promised.
Just then, you only got a split-second warning as you heard Chet yell, and he dashed in out of nowhere to tackle the intruder to the ground. He landed with a powerful thud and you yelped in shock.
âSon of a bitch,â Chet sputtered as he wrapped his fat hands around the Riddlerâs neck. Gloved hands reached up and tried to fight him off, but Chet was strongerâ and most of all just heavier, leaning in with all his weight.
Itâs impossible to describe what came over you then, an instinct so natural you didnât even realize what you were doing, until you came to and that damned pipe was in your hand, and Chet was collapsed on the floor beside the masked man. The whore in the living room with the lead pipe⊠but you still needed one more clue to solve the mystery.
âOh, oh god,â you sighed, falling to your knees; the Riddler was looking up at you, apparently surprised that you saved himâ of course he would be, so were you after all. You caught his stare from behind his glasses, which had cracked when he hit the floor, and you leaned in a little closer. Reaching up, your fingers brushed over the leather covering his face, and your lip started to quiverâ green eyes looked right through you from behind the shattered glass, and you pulled the frames away gently so you could lift the hood and see his face.
Well, it was a little distorted covered in plastic wrap, but it was still obviously him. He still looked so young and boyish, he looked just like he did in your memories, even though he mustâve aged just as much as you.
You smiled just in time for a tear to slip past your lip. The taste of tears brought back memories too. âEddie?â you whispered.
âHey,â he said, and his voice was muffled but familiar, casting a cloud of condensation around his mouth on the clear material. You laughed and started to pull at the plastic so you could hold his face unfettered but he reached up to hold your wrist and stop you. âI need to keep that onâ so I donât leave any hair behindâŠâ
Before you could stop yourself, you leaned down and pressed a long kiss right on his lips: obviously there was plastic in the way, but you just needed to kiss him at that exact moment and a little Saran wasnât gonna stop you.
You felt his gloved hands reach up and brush gently over your back, delicately pulling you closer, and you smiled. It had to end sometime, though, and the taste of whatever chemical gives this stuff its self-stickiness wasnât entirely pleasant. You broke the kiss to laugh again, you couldnât help it with the joy so pure running through your veins that it made you all shaky and tingly like you skipped lunch or something.
At the same time, you both said the same thing to each other: âI thought you forgot about me.â
âYou thought Iâ what?â Edward responded to you. âI could neverââ
âOf course I couldnât forget you,â you breathed. âI know you didnât want that man to adopt meâ you were right, in the end, but I thought you wanted me to stay more than you wanted me to be happy⊠and you promised to write letters, and you didnâtâ I thought you hated me for leaving you behind, but I wanted us to be adopted together, but he just wanted meââ
âHey,â he interrupted your neurotic ramble with a hand on your shoulder, âI never hated youâ I couldnât hate you, I just knew you wouldnât be safe with him. And I did send letters, every day. I thought you ignored them allâ did you never get them?â
âNo, he mustâve thrown them away,â you sighed, âof course he would.â
âI figured you just wanted to forget about everything from beforeâŠâ
âI didâ I tried to, after I moved in here, but I could never stop thinking about you for very long,â you admitted, looking away and feeling your cheeks warm. âWhat did you end up going intoâ like, what do you do now?â
âUh, I do this,â he answered, motioning to his khaki-green get-up and the unconscious man beside him.
âI mean other than this,â you giggled, rolling your eyes.
âIâm a forensic accountant,â he explained, and you beamed.
âOh, Edâ that makes so much sense for you!â
âDid you ever get a chance to be popular at the private high school?â he asked. âSince you didnât have me dragging you down.â
âWell, not really,â you hummed, âhe only sent me there because he was a big donor and he knew theyâd ignore me when I tried to tell them what he was doing⊠the other kids werenât as violent as they were at South Gotham High, but they didnât like a charity case in class with them very much. I hope it wasnât so bad for you after I transferredâŠâ
âUh, yeah, it was fine,â he muttered.
âEddie, donât lie to me,â you sighed.
âI-I got beat up, a lot,â he shrugged, âbut it wasnât that badâ I mean, I never had to go to the hospital or anything.â
You whimpered and wrapped your arms around his neck, resting your head on his chest as he sat up and held you tightly. âI didnât even know if you survived that place⊠Iâm just happy youâre alive.â
âI wasnât really alive,â he whispered, âuntil just now, having you in my arms again.â
A groan made you both turn your heads to the side, finding Chet staring dazed at you both. His eyes trailed over his arms around you, your hands on his chest. âWhâŠwhat?â he mumbled groggily.
Edward sighed and reached for the hood youâd left on the floor, tugging it on. âYouâre a tough old bastard, huh?â he grumbled. It mustâve been the mask that changed his voice, he sounded pretty different with it on.
âN-no, please,â Chet began to sleepily beg for his life. Edward grabbed the pipe one more time (even though it had proven to be less of a permanent fix insofar), but turned to you before he did anything with it.
âI would, um, kinda prefer that you didnât see this,â he told you nervously.
âRightâ sure,â you agreed, standing up, even though heâd already seen plenty you wouldâve rather him not see tonight. âIâm gonna take a bath, just⊠come get me when youâre done?â
âOkay,â he hummed happily, turning back to Chet who looked bewildered to say the least. âWhere were we?â
You were walking to the bathroom to draw your bath, but you heard a bit more of their conversation on your way.
âWhatâs going on?â Chet asked, almost accusatory. As if his girlfriend having some bizarre connection with the serial killer in his apartment was more important to him than, you know, the serial killer in his apartment.
âYou love her, donât you?â Ed asked him, and apparently Chet must have nodded before he continued. âI canât blame you. But I loved her first.â
You shut the bathroom door behind you, in time with the loud sound of the weapon coming down on Chetâs head; you winced, trying not to notice the icky, wet crunching sort of noise a lethal blow like that made.
Turning on the faucetâ hot water first, then a bit of the cold side just to keep it from getting scaldingâ the loud rush of water mostly covered the sounds of Ed unrolling more tape, hopefully enough this time to keep Chet down for good (although you didnât think he was coming back from that last hit, but you werenât an expert on these things).
You stripped down out of your dress, letting it fall to the floor in a pile of black silk before you stepped into the rising water.
A sigh of relief fell from your lips as you relaxed into the warmth. Realizing you still had all your jewelry on, you slipped off the bracelets and rings, setting them on the edge of the porcelain tub; you took out your earrings and centered them inside the bracelets delicately.
On accident, you nearly fell asleep right there in the bath just because you were so⊠at peace. You never felt as safe as you did with Edward nearby, even if he had always seemed worried that he couldnât protect you. Every good memory from the orphanage came rushing back, every moment of joy born from the suffering: sharing a warm bread roll, hiding under your bed and whispering to each other, carving your secret language with its scrawled shapes and symbols into the wall. On the day before your birthday one year, heâd taken a snack cake home from school and stayed up until midnight with you just to unwrap it and strike a match to stick in it, telling you to blow it out and make a wish. Chet had gotten you a three-tier custom red velvet cake last year, with sparklers and golden lettering sticking out of it, and thrown you a lavish party to serve it at⊠but when you closed your eyes and tasted the first bite on your fork, you found yourself longing for that empty room and pre-packaged plastic-wrapped cake with the artificial cream and the waxy legally-not-considered-chocolate coating with a wooden match in it. Really, of course, you were longing for him, for your soulmate, your best friendâ your always.
As is to be expected with almost falling asleep, you didnât realize how close you were to it until you were brought back to full consciousness by Eddie opening the door. You blinked your eyes open and smiled up at him, noticing the way his eyes trailed over your body left exposed by the clear, still water. âHi,â you greeted.
âAre you ready to go?â he asked. âYou might want to pack a bag⊠some stuff to bring to my apartment. Unless you wanna wear my clothes.â
He was obviously being sarcastic, but you were obviously tempted by the idea with the way you bit your lip and glanced away. âIâll get a few things,â you decided. âI donât know what kind of money youâre making doing accounting, but if I pawned some of my jewelry we could live large for a while.â
He knelt down, resting one of his elbows on his knee, and gently pulled off a glove. Reaching out with a bare hand, he brushed his fingers over your cheek, and you smiled and took a deep breath. You leaned into his palm and felt him cradle your jaw gently; âWe shouldnât waste any more time,â he breathed, âthe police will be here in a few hours, when they see my video.â
âAre they going to be looking for me?â you asked.
âI warned them not to,â he sighed, âbut they probably will. Youâll be safe with me, though⊠no one will ever find you.â
You smiled contentedly, reaching up out of the water to rest your hand on top of his where it held your face, before turning to give his palm a small kiss. âLetâs hope not. I want it to always just be us.â
~
You leaned down over the edge of the crib, smiling at the sweet, chubby face looking back up at you; she smiled when she saw you, and you reached down to let her grab onto your finger. âHi!â you greeted excitedly, cooing at her as she kicked her feet up and wiggled around. âI wish I could come visit you every day, but Iâm not gonna be able to from now on⊠you gotta stay tough, okay? My little trooper. You made it through that winter, you can make it through anything.â
He didnât make a sound or move into your line of sight, and yet you somehow sensed Edwardâs presence in the doorway; you turned your head up and back to look at him as he watched you. âWhat are you doing all the way in the nursery?â he asked.
âSaying goodbye to baby Hannah,â you explained, looking down at her again. âIâm gonna miss you, little dumpling!â
She giggled even though she obviously had no idea what you were saying, and you continued babbling at her meaninglessly. Eddie stepped up behind you, and you jumped straight up when you felt his hand on your back. âStop hiding from me,â he demandedâ not angry, not sad, just⊠flat.
âEddie, Iâm notââ
âAnd donât lie, either,â he requested.
You sighed, pulling your hand out of Hannahâs crib and facing him properly.
âYouâre leaving tomorrow, and youâre not coming back,â he reminded you.
âI said I would visitâ!â you denied.
âYouâre not coming back,â he insisted. âYou shouldnât. Thereâs no reason to be in this place a second longer than you need to. But youâve been spending all week preparing to go without even saying goodbye to me.â
âEd, Iââ you began, starting to tear up already. âI donât even know where to start⊠if I try to imagine not seeing you every day, not living with you and going to school with you, it just makes my brain go blank. I donât know what life is without you.â
âWell, youâre gonna find out,â he smiled. âYouâre gonna do what we always promised we would do⊠escape.â
You glanced away so he wouldnât see how hard you were fighting not to cry, as if you could ever hide something like that from him. âBut we were supposed to do that together,â you whimpered. âEddie, I begged them to take you, too, but they saidââ
âIt doesnât matter,â he assured, âIâm not going.â
âBut youâll write to me?â you interrogated. âYouâll visit me? Arkham College Prep is kind of a long bus ride, but I think my new parents are gonna give me an allowance so I can send you the fareââ
âOf course,â he interrupted. âWeâre gonna see each other as much as we can, and in a few years weâll be really free andâŠâ
As he trailed off, you swallowed thickly. Youâd spent years planning your lives as adults, but the older you got, the less fantastical your dreams became. You could still remember when he wanted to be an astronaut and you wanted to be a ballerina. Then it was secret agent and rockstar. Then it was engineer and teacher.
By now, it was just the hope that youâd make it that far. Even in a place like the Wayne House where life was near-constant torment, certain things were guaranteed. In adulthood, thereâs no promise of shelter from the rain or one meal a day. Worst of all, thereâs no one by your side through it all; you were both forced to wonder if it was ever feasible to dream that life wouldnât keep you two apart one way or another.
You reached up and slipped your arms around his neck, pulling him into a hug. He hugged you back, but it felt differentâ distant. It felt like he was trying to let you go already, and accept that you were leaving for another life without him; you hated that. You couldnât let this be the end, and you couldnât let him pretend this didnât matter so it wouldnât hurt as badly because it was killing you inside.
Just as you started to hold each other tighter, one of the adult staff happened to walk by the door. âHey,â she snapped at you both, and you pulled away from each other. âLights out in ten minutes. You shouldnât even be in the nurseryâ go back to the adolescent wing, and stay on your side of the hall.â
Her last warning was especially aggressive as both of you had been disciplined excessively for being in the opposite-gender rooms after hours. It was never anything inappropriateâ well, there was that one night that toed the line pretty hard, but the point is your intentions were never as nefarious as they assumed. Thankfully, you only got caught about one-third of the time.
âYes, maâam,â you and Eddie nodded at her simultaneously, and she continued walking along.
âAfter lights out,â you whispered to him, âwait a half hour and then meet me in the courtyardâŠâ
You reached up to rest your hand on his chest and felt his heart racing; your was, too.
âAnd weâll say goodbye,â you finished, âproperly. The way we need to.â
The time you spent staring up at the ceiling that night, counting the ticks of the clock in the hall outside, was excruciating. Minutes had never been longer in the history of time, probably.
Honestly, you never had a chance at sleeping anyways: a few of the girls most jealous that you had been adopted and were leaving tomorrow had threatened to jump you as soon as you fell asleep. You knew one of them had already been caught with a shiv she made out of an old soda can⊠so, beyond just excitement to have your secret rendezvous with Ed, you were never exactly in a position to get any rest.
When the time came, you slipped out of bed as quietly as you could (which took an intimate knowledge of the creaky springs in your half-rotted mattress) and crossed the floor delicately (which took an intimate knowledge of the creaky floorboards in the half-rotted floor), dragging your blanket behind you.
Peeking out into the hall, you knew none of the adults would be back to check on anyone for a while⊠they were supposed to stay overnight to make sure no one got hurt, but even they couldnât stomach sleeping in a place like this and had a tendency to go back to their homes and return in the morning as if the children wouldnât notice. Still, you needed to be careful in case one or two stayed behind and would catch you and force you back to your roomâ or in case you woke up another ward, especially one of the more unsavory boys who might take advantage of finding you alone.
Blanket draped over your shoulders like a cape, you navigated the circuitous path around the House that would take you into the courtyard while passing the fewest dormitoriesâ this place was a maze, but thankfully, you were good at solving puzzles.
When you emerged barefoot into the stone courtyard, shivering when the soles of your feet collided with gravelly rock and the grass that grew in the cracks between, you found Eddie already there, his own blanket under his back as he leaned against the big tree and looked up at the sky. You smiled just seeing him, and scampered over to shorten the time you had to spend away from him (and walking on the cold and mildly-damp ground, if you were being honest).
He looked at you when he heard you coming and smiled back, opening his arms for you to jump into. You draped your blanket over the both of you and nuzzled into his chest, looking up at the sky with him. âI hate that we can never see stars here,â he sighed. âItâs just fog and planes.â
âI think the fog is sort of beautiful,â you admitted, âin its own way.â
âOf course you do,â he laughed softly. âYou see the beauty in everything.â
You turned your attention away from the sky and to his face above yoursâ he was still looking away, so you took a moment to appreciate the shape of his jaw and the way you could just see his eyelashes past his cheek. His glasses reflected the moonlight, so much so that when he looked down at you, you couldnât see his eyes past the glare on the lenses.
But you still felt his stare, and it made you feel exposed in a way that was unexpectedly pleasant.
âI came up with a riddle,â he announced suddenly.
âHit me,â you challenged.
âIâm blind, but with me, you see everything a bit more clearly,â he described. âWhat am I?â
You cycled through a few ideas in your mind, but cracked into a grin when you figured it out. âLove,â you answered.
âYeah,â he agreed, âyou got itâŠâ He reached up and brushed his thumb over your cheek as he slipped his hand around the back of your neckâ but then he just⊠didnât do anything. He just looked at you and you looked up at him and waited but nothing happened.
âWhy havenât you kissed me yet?â you asked, whispering.
âIâ I donât know,â he whispered back, âI guess Iâm just afraid.â
âKiss me, Eddie⊠please,â you begged, and finally, he did.
It was everything you hoped it would be: sweet and soft and patient. He pulled you closer and, without breaking the kiss, you sat up a bit so you could climb into his lap and straddle him.
You gasped when he pulled you into him and kissed you harder, tasting your tongue with his own, even starting to let out the quietest moans against you. As you shifted in his lap, an instinctive motion to address the growing warmth in your core, you felt his erection and it made your head spin.
When you broke away, the two of you held your foreheads together and just caught your breath; you carded your fingertips through his hair while his hands held your back. âWe never talked about that night, when it was so cold we didnât know if weâd survive,â you panted.
âI didnât know what to say,â he explained. âI didnât know if it was just because of the coldâŠâ
âItâs a beautiful night,â you breathed. âIâm not hungry or scared or lonely. Iâm happy, Edward, because Iâm with youâ and I⊠I wanna feel you againâŠâ you swallowed and barely managed to find the courage to finish your thought, though you still had to speak under your breath: âinside me.â
He just nodded and kissed you again, and you both rushed to get your bedclothes out of the way just as much as you needed to do this. A kiss on your lips helped keep you quiet when you whined at the initial sting of being penetrated; and more breathless kisses trailing down your neck and over your shoulder soothed you as he promised it wouldnât hurt anymoreâ but you didnât even care. Youâd braved so much worse pain for him, and you never regretted a moment of it.
You breathed with each other and moved with each other and it was the most natural thing in the world. Everything good youâd ever had, you shared with him. And now you were sharing pleasure together and you couldnât think of anything more perfect.
âTell me weâll always be together,â you pleaded one last time.
âAlways,â he promised.
The physical element of it was over rather quickly, from an objective standpoint, when he needed you to stop so he wouldnât risk getting you pregnant even more than he already was. But that finite moment felt like its own forever, and even though he apologized that he couldnât hold out longer, you were anything but disappointed. The night itself was just beginning, and the two of you held each other and talked and kissed and dreamed until the sun started to rise and melt the fog away.
You needed to be back in your beds soon for the morning, but you stayed together until the absolute last second. You made promisesâ maybe he knew already how hard they would be to keep, but you believed them completely. And you never imagined how long it would take you to really make good on them.
~
You set your duffel bag down as he locked all seven deadbolts behind you. âCute place,â you mumbled, looking around at the shabbyâ yet homeyâ interiors. It looked so much more comfortable than Chetâs apartment, which was populated with geometrical, sterile, white furniture. You saw polaroids heâd taken of himself, in and out of his Riddler garb, taped up to one of the cabinets atop the peeling paint; there were a few empty takeout cartons with chopsticks sticking out of them, which he dashed past you to awkwardly scoop up into his arms. He looked so adorably⊠puffy, in that massive bomber jacket, and you stifled a giggle.
âUh, sorryâ I wouldâve cleaned up, if I knew you were coming back with me,â he defended as he dumped them in the trash. âObviously.â
âItâs okay,â you grinned.
âAre you, uh, hungry?â he asked. âThereâs probably something in the fridge I could make for youââ
âEd, I was just at a campaign dinner a few hours ago,â you reminded him.
âWell, maybe you worked up an appetite,â he smirked nervously, âwith everything thatâs happenedâŠâ
âI just wanna get settled in,â you explained. âIs there somewhere I should put my stuff?â
âAnywhere,â he shrugged. âThe bedroomâs this way, if you wanna hang your clothes up in the closetâŠâ
As you followed him down the hall, you caught more glimpses of his workâ contraptions heâd designed, schematics and puzzles and information on his targets. You saw a blurry picture of yourself under Chetâs arm, taken from across the street; a big red âXâ in marker covered your dearly-departed ex-boyfriendâs face, and you smiled to yourself.
âIn here,â he pointed as he opened the door for you. The bedroom was⊠efficient. A double mattress on an old steel frame, and just enough room on each side to get around it. There were some books scattered around, cryptography books just as one would expect, and a lamp on a nondescript bedside table, but that was about it. "I need to hang up my jacket anywaysâŠ"
He slipped past you when you opened the closet door, stepping inside to unzip his jacket and drape it on a hanger. He was wearing just an undershirt beneath, and the short sleeves gave you a good look at his arms which were⊠much more toned than you remembered. He was still lean like he'd always been, but not as scrawny as his teenage self, like he'd really grown into his frame.
Apparently, he noticed you ogling him, because he cleared his throat and pushed up his glasses slightly on the bridge of his nose. "Is everything okay?" he asked.
"You look good, Ed," you answered with a smirk.
"Oh, thanks," he hummed. "You've always been beautifulâŠ"
A little flustered, you looked down at the floor where you saw his boots take a step towards you.
"I⊠I still think about the night before you left," he admitted, "when we made love to each other."
Finding the strength to make eye contact again, you found the most beautiful storm brewing in his stare⊠behind those damn cracked glasses. "I do, too," you replied. "I thought about it a lot, actuallyâ it was the only way I could get through, um⊠through nights with other people. I only ever wanted it to be you, Eddieâ"
"Shh," he interrupted, soothing you with warm hands gripping your shoulders, "it's alrightâ that's over now. We're together and nothing else that happened in between matters anymore."
You sniffled and slipped your arms around his back to hug him tightly. "You don't hate me for what I did, right? And who I did it with?"
âI could never hate you,â he promised gently. âI⊠I hate that anybody else ever got to have you, though⊠that you belonged to someone like him.â
"I was always yours," you sighed, "all I've ever been is yours."
He grabbed your face and kissed you; you didnât remember Eddie being this forward, but you couldnât blame him for growing upâ and you certainly werenât complaining, in fact you were immediately melting into it and kissing him back and letting quiet moans slip out when you couldnât help it. You yelped as he pushed you back onto the bed and climbed on top of you, but initial surprise melted into a needy, happy groan. "Mine," he growled as he started to roughly push your clothes out of the way. "Say it again."
"Yours! Fuck, Eddie, I'm yoursâ you know I am. Everything, all of me, I belong to you," you whimpered.
"My beautiful girl," he cooed proudly, "my angel. I was so lost without you⊠I'm yours, too, I need you so badâŠ"
"Take me," you offered. "Whatever you need, just take it. How long has it been since somebody made you feel good?"
"I⊠I can't even remember," he mumbled into your neck.
"Please, Eddie, I need to feel you inside me again," you begged, "I'm yours, I'm yoursâ!"
He groaned loudly and reached down to hastily open and push down his pants. He was already hard and he began to rock his hips so he could rub himself against you.
Shouldn't have been too much of a shock that all of him had grown since he was sixteenâ and he wasn't lacking back then to start with. You felt a little intimidated, but even more excited. Grabbing him by the hair and pulling him into another kiss, you giggled when his glasses bumped against your face. You moaned and arched your back into his touch as his palms groped at your chest; you could feel his smug smirk against your lips growing as your legs instinctively spread wider.
His fingertips gently pinched your nipples and, lacking any desire to suppress your arousalâ you had nothing to hide from him, anywayâ you whimpered desperately and started begging. âP-please,â you choked, âdonât make me wait anymore⊠Iâve waited so long, I just need to feel you, pleaseââ
âShh,â he soothed softly, moving his hands down from your chest to the waistband of your sweatpants which he pulled down just a little too slowly; you mewled impatiently. âMâgonna give you everything, donât worryâŠ
You whined and wrapped your arms around his shoulders, hiding your face in his neck, but he didnât tolerate that for long.
âNo, baby, I wanna see you,â he explained as he sat up slightly and guided your head back to lay on the bed again. âThatâs better⊠look up at me?â
You bit your lip and blinked away the tears suddenly gathering in your eyes; afraid heâd think you were strange for crying, you began to explain. âI-itâs just so much, Edââ
âI know,â he cooed, âitâs a lotâ itâs everything. Itâs the only thing that matters.â
A little shaky gasp filled your lungs as you felt the head of his cock press up to your opening, and your insides clenched around nothing in anticipation.
âKeep your eyes on me,â he instructed quietly, staring down at you intensely; his green eyes were so dark when he hovered over you like this, the light on the ceiling above him making the edges of his light brown hair glow golden like a halo. You reached up and brushed your fingers over his cheek, then moved down to hold onto his shoulder. He thrust his hips forward somewhat abruptly and you cried, but worked very hard not to disobey him by closing your eyes or looking away. You hadnât even realized he wasnât all the way in yet until he gave you the second half, burying himself to the base of you, and you let out a high-pitched whine.
"Oh god," you hissed, "Eddie, you're so deep⊠fuck, I can feel you all the way up hereâŠ"
You guided his hand to your lower belly, pressing it down so he could feel, too, how well he was filling you. His expression changed as he felt it, and you caught the way his gaze emanated so much power as he started to move inside you and feel the way your stomach shifted under his hand.
You were completely at his mercy, and both of you were becoming addicted to it.
He took his hand off of your belly and lowered down to rest his elbows on either side of your face, hovering above you. Watching you closely, his eyes darted all over your face while he set an unhurriedâ though not specifically slow, eitherâ pace with his hips.
Being watched by him was already having a similar effect on you now as it did earlier this evening, even when you didnât know it was him: your walls were pulsing with need and you heard your moans getting so loud they started to echo around the small room.
The pleasure made you tilt your head back and shut your eyes, but he gently grabbed your chin and pulled your face back down. âI told you to keep looking at me,â he reminded you, just a bit more stern than you expected him to be. âI wanna see the look in your eyes when you come apart for me.â
You whimpered but nodded in agreement, a silent promise to follow his instructions and let him see every moment of your orgasmâ which was building so much more quickly than it had any right to, making your walls pulse and your toes curl as your legs wrapped around his hips.
âWeâre never gonna be apart ever again,â he promised quietly, his voice a little deeper and rougher as his breathing got heavier from the exertion.
âThatâs all I ever wanted,â you breathed. An extra rough thrust slammed his head right into your spot and you yelped, feeling your channel bear down on his cock so forcefully it was almost painfulâ but in the most pleasurable way. âFuck, E-Eddie, I love you, I love youâŠâ
That phrase was rarely spoken between the two of you, it always seemed sort of obvious. But it felt good to just say it point-blank, and even though you figured he mustâve already known it, he smiled down at you proudly. âI know, baby,â he soothed, âI love you, too.â
âI-Iâve never loved anyone else,â you continued.
âI know,â he responded again.
âIâ oh god, Ed, mâgonna comeâŠâ
âI know,â he replied finally, lowering his voice this time.
You did your best to focus your attention up at him as you held the back of his neck to keep yourself steady, but the energy coursing through your body seemed to make your vision go a little blurry. You longed to let your eyes fall shut and give in to the dark calling for you, but you needed to stay right here with Eddieâ he was going to take you there if you just kept your promise not to look away. The last thing you wanted to do was forget who was making you feel this good, who you belonged to.
âYou can let go, angel,â he encouraged you softly. âIâm right here, okay? Just do it, for me, come for me right now.â
You didnât mind giving away that he had that control over youâ heâd already proven it before, exhibiting the power he had over your body just from standing in a doorway. So, it was no wonder that when he was actually inside you, you would do whatever he asked. And he asked you to come, so you came; your eyes stayed open and trained on his, miraculously, as a heavy wave of ecstasy crashed down on you. Just past the deafening sound of your own moans you heard him pant and grunt a little.
âThere you go, just like that,â he praised darkly, âsuch a good girl for me. I can feel you, coming on my cock.â
You could feel him throbbing inside you, too, and it was oddly soothing as you started to come down from your high; going limp beneath him made each thrust rock your body on the mattress, and he kept moving faster and faster.
âI canât last much longer,â he admitted in a rough whisper. âYouâre too perfect, itâs been too long without youââ
âI want you to come,â you assured, tangling your fingers into his hair and tugging slightly though you didnât really mean to. âI want it so bad, I need you!â
"I'm not pulling out this time," he warned, fucking you so fast and hard now that you had no chance to recoverâ it felt like you were going to come forever. "I need to come inside you."
"Yes," you moaned, "oh fuck Eddie, please! Please please pleaseâŠ"
âKeep looking at me,â he ordered, even though your gaze hadnât faltered since his last demand. âLook at me while I fill you upâ fuck, I-Iâm comingââ
His verbal warning was sort of moot considering you could feel it, every pump of his cock filling you deeper than you thought possible; he gasped and held your hips so he could slam all the way in, deep enough that your eyes wouldâve rolled back if you werenât so damn obedient.
Finally, the minutes-long eye contact was broken as he grabbed your face and kissed you hard, both of you shutting your eyes tightly and pulling each other into an embrace. He rolled you onto your side but stayed inside you, and even just that slight friction on your overstimulated walls made you shiver and whine. Thankfully, his hand stroking your back gently soothed you a bit in that regard.
Cuddling up in bed together, you were so relaxed that you didnât really remember falling asleepâ it was just that you woke up what mustâve been hours later, blinking your eyes open to find him contemplating a sudoku puzzle with a pencil in between his teeth. You smiled and started to shift around, but he quickly grabbed your hips to keep you still.
âN-no, baby, donât move,â he cooed, âyouâre keeping me warm while I work on this.â
Yes, he was still inside you; your body was so accustomed to him that you didnât notice the stretch that much, except when you moved, and then there was a delicious sting that made chills run up your spine. You wouldâve already been sore after he fucked you like that, but keeping him inside you for so long afterwards made you sure that soreness wouldnât leave you for another week or so. Not that you wanted it to. âHow much have you solved?â you asked sleepily.
âMost of it, but itâs a tricky one,â he explained. âAny ideas for me?â
He moved the booklet in front of your face and you blinked the blurriness out of your eyes to examine it. Of course, your attention wasnât on the puzzle anymore when you noticed his little doodles around the free space on the page. Some of them had to do with trying to solve the square, but most were just miniature sketchesâ most notably: your face as you slept; a greeting card, like one you remembered seeing on the news addressed to âthe Batmanâ; and a diamond ring.
âIâm glad you still draw,â you announced, reaching up to run a finger over the silvery etchings in the page. âYouâve gotten even better.â
âOh, well, it comes with practice,â he dismissed. He turned the page around and looked at the puzzle again. âWould you wear a ring like this if I gave it to you?â he asked, pointing at the doodle with his eraser.
âIâd wear anything you gave me, Ed,â you informed him.
âI know itâs kind of silly for you to have a ring when you wonât be able to leave the apartment for a long timeâ but I wanna see it on your finger anyways,â he explained, smiling slightly. âIâd wear one, too. Even under my gloves when no one can see it. And that way just you and I know theyâre always there.â
You smiled back at him, reaching up to gently touch his face; he hummed and set the puzzle book aside, closing his eyes as you pet his cheek. âYou know we donât need anything to show how we feel,â you reminded him. âIt doesnât make it more important or more real. We love each other more than most people who wear rings like that could even imagine.â
âOf course not,â he breathed, âbut it might be nice, I thinkâŠâ
âI think so too,â you agreed, nestling your face back into his chest and drifting into sleep again.
And so, even though it was a bit superfluous at this point, he got you both ringsâ and although they looked quite typical to someone passing by on the street, they were anything but usual. Edward carefully designed the mechanism that made them interlock; he described it as just another way that you âsolveâ him. His ring had a sort of keyhole, little notches arranged in a circle that he kept turned inside his palm, and they fit perfectly with the setting of the stone on your ring. When you used yours to unlock his, a panel in the gold pulled out of the way and showed the engraved message inside, written in symbols only the two of you knew how to read: Always.
God damn I just unlocked a new kink
Ever thought of those very creepy creep stalker yanderes? The kind that are usually have greasy unwashed hair, thick glasses, wears the same dirty hoodie with stains on them. The pathetic, bottom of the barrel cuties! Gosh I love a good looking (popular) yandere that everyone is jealous of but also give me those degenerates that everyone looks at with disgust. The pathetic wet stray types. They are used to degrading words from others, more than should be acceptable, until they meet the light in their life and suddenly they are even more disgusting. Following you in broad daylight because they are too dumb to realize how OBVIOUS they are being. They havenât done this before with anyone so they donât know. The kind that shows up to your work odd hours of the day, but donât even interact with you, they just stare or nervously look around when you make eye contact with them. They follow you home only for you to confront them and tell them to leave you alone, how they are a creep and you will call the police. They canât do anything but sob and wail begging you to not hate them (they donât really care about the police- they arenât enough to stop them) and if you just leave them there as the shake and cry. Theyâll pick themselves up and go home. But they always come back, nothing you can do to keep them away.
PATHETIC
yandere! stalker x gn! reader
warnings: i made them a male but lemme know if you want a gender neutral or female stalker version, yandere, stalking, nsfw, masochism??, male masturbation, panty/boxer thief, kinda a Valentineâs Day special (briefly mentioned lmao),
âO-oh myâ Y/Nâ I donâtâ please, holy shit, pleaseââ He whined, jerking your underwear up and down his dripping cock.
His head cocked back, loud, high-pitched, pornographic moans flooding from his throat. He panted, hips twitching as he bit down as hard as he could on his lip.
He gasped for air, panting as he caught the mess heâd made in your underwear, scrunching up the fabric and sighing.
This was ritualistic for him at this point.
He couldnât help it, you just looked so cute when you glared at him in disgust upon noticing him following you into work, as you did every morning.
His heart was pounding too hard for him to keep up. He grunted, taking his glasses off and wiping away the fog heâd created with his erratic breaths.
His pathetic, rundown apartment was nothing to ogle at. With the wallpaper peeling in every corner, the water damage on the ceiling, and the mysterious stains in the carpet, it was definitely nothing to be proud of.
The little money he did make, be it from online gaming competitions or from the occasional pickpocket, all went towards you. Leaving sweet (horrifying) letters on your doorstep, cute teddies and plushies on the counter of the convenience store you worked out (what? oh, no, ignore the camera that is obviously in itâs armsâ no, please donât throw it outâ damn itâŠ), or the occasional rose left on your bed.
âOh my god.â You muttered, picking up the box of Valentineâs chocolates that had been left on the counter of your workplace.
You didnât bother reading who they were fromâ you already knew they would be from that freak.
You dumped the box into the trash and sat down, rubbing your eyes and pulling out a magazine to scan while waiting for a customer.
Unfortunately, youâd recently been moved to the night shift, which was probably your bossâs worst decision ever.
Not only did it mean business was slow when you were working, but it meant the store was almost entirely empty except for that creep that always found himself staring through the window.
Youâd had just about enough. It was just an inconvenience at first, but seeing him waiting at the window and averting his gaze every time you looked at him was pissing you off.
Why stalk someone if you canât even look them in the eyes?
You probably shouldâve been more scared, but youâd learned after the first few times you tried that the police werenât much help. This⊠freak of nature⊠was far better at avoiding the police than he was at stalking.
He always had an excuse, an alibi, or heâd just casually knock out the officers that came to investigate.
You wouldnât have expected that sort of strength from such skinny arms, but then again, they say that rage makes the body stronger.
âHey! You!â You shouted, pointing at him.
He grunted, hands shaking as he pointed at himself. He gasped when you nodded.
Slowly, eagerly, he made his way inside.
âWhat are you playing at?â You demanded, crossing your arms. âYou just watch and watch and then you donât do shit. If youâre gonna kill me, or kidnap me, or whatever, please just get it over with. Not knowing your intentions is killing me, you know that!?â
His stomach fluttered, watching your lips as you spoke. You cringed upon realizing his lips had parted, his tongue slipped between the chapped flesh.
âI-IâŠâ
âYou- you- you what?â You spat, mocking his nervous stutter.
He shuddered, grabbing the counter to steady his shaking knees. âI-I just love you, Iââ
âBullshit! Tell me the truth!â
He gulped, face flushing bright red. âP-please listen to me, I love you, I love you, Iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouââ
You backed away, hand resting on the phone.
âNo! Please donât call themâ please, please donât. I donât wanna deal with them!â He pleaded, dropping to his knees. âPlease, Y/N, I love you, Iâll be whatever you want me to be, Iââ
His heart jumped at the sound of the phone ringing. Tears began to stream down his cheeks.
âNo, please donât, Y/N, please, I just want to be with you, I swear to god Iâll be nothing but your stupid slave, please, please!â
It didnât matter, anyway.
Heâd just be back again tomorrow.
Like he always fucking was.
And you knew it, too, because when you woke up the next morning, there was a strongly worded apology note taped to your open window.
percolator
warnings: 16+ smokin weed, mentions / talking about sex (no actual sex)
a/n: i attempted to unlock every bit of stoner knowledge i had from my high school days, but the weed fucked with my memory so donât mind the weird writing. i am not dumb my brain is just the fried egg from the DARE commercial!!!! also my parents (born:1972) claim that everyone called weed pot back then so im rolling with that. u call it dated i call it historical accuracy.
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you knocked on your boyfriendâs front door, giddily bouncing from foot to foot. the plastic bag held in your opposite hand brushed against your thigh as you were waiting for him to answer the door.
seconds later, you were met with the face of your mulleted boyfriend. cheeks flushed and eyes a shade redder than the usual look of acute sleep deprivation. he was probably high.
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Hi, I saw that you write for avatar, does it include all the characters? Spider for example?
Yes! Every avatar character including the ones from the first movie and the second!