I Must Say, I Have Never Felt So Involved In A Fandom Before; I Used To Write For Other Fandoms On Other

I must say, I have never felt so involved in a fandom before; I used to write for other fandoms on other platforms and while I did always have some type of communities there, it all was kinda isolated. Hence why I know shit about fandom discourse or why it's useless asking me about my "unpopular opinions" because fuck if I know what's popular.

But I still do feel like I miss out a lot, but now it's for the sole reason that half of the fandom spaces are banned/blocked in my country :D

Twitter? Banned. Tiktok? Banned. Discord? Banned. AO3? Banned. YouTube? "Slowed down" which essentially means it's not working as if it was banned.

And yeah, obviously I know how to use VPN or mirror links or boosters for YouTube. But it's just. Kinda exhausting, because they sometimes don't work due to my weak internet connection. Or aren't compatible with my university wifi. Or have time/traffic limit.

Also I have personal reasons to be cut off from offline fandom like conventions or cosplay fests, but you can add some actual bans/government pressure on there too, because they have been raided not once, some of them just stopped existing because of that.

So yeah. The world just doesn't want me to have a proper community (says Juju as they actively procrastinate creating art to be a part of said community).

I swear I am trying to write for requests and asks. I just feel my hands literally fill with lead after I write a proper non-rambling sentence. Have no fucking idea what's wrong. Although I have one suspicion and if it actually is connected to my periods... I'm gonna rage.

Don't remember what was the point or reason of this rant actually, maybe I got jealous of people mentioning having fun on discord when I literally can't access it cuz VPN is too weak to handle that. Eh. Doesn't matter in the end of the day.