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scott smajor with number 7 for your spotify asks?

omg anon sorry it took me so long to get to this, but here: Scott smajor with number 7, Ghost of You by My Chemical Romance!

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I hope this is alright! If nothing else, I’m so so proud of drawing hair braiding, that took. So. Long. lol, anyway yeah I also really like how Scott’s hair came out, and I’ve never made a third life Jimmy design before so I came up with this on the fly and I really like how it looks. But yeah, I saw which song it was and thought of them immediately, Scott was so distraught at Jimmy’s death in third life, (prepare for ramble that is mildly unintelligible if you are not really geeky about MCR lore lol. The main stuff you need to understand is that mcr has four albums, I Brought You My Bullets You Brought Me Your Love, Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge, The Black Parade, and Danger Days: The True Lives of The Fabulous Killjoys, and all of them have a lot of lore) like they are so demolition lovers coded, especially because of the whole back from the dead thing where Jimmy is alive and well in later seasons but Scott is still grieving him and the memory thing with winners remembering which means Scott remembers third life and Jimmy doesn’t, reminds me of like (from my understanding of the story, which is different from other peoples because MCR lore is very vague) the inner turmoil of the lover from the three cheers lore who went to hell, and his lover is in heaven and on one hand he wants to reunite but on the other he knows his lover doesn’t even know he’s alive (-ish. Not sure how much his situation qualifies as “living”) and feels guilty, thinking that she probably won’t even want to see him again, because he’s killed so many people and he doesn’t want to ruin her paradise (I mean she misses him too and wants to see him again but he doesn’t know that, and also he rightly recognizes that he is an actual sociopath. I’m not saying c!Scott is crazy (well, as not-crazy as you can be in life series death games. Everyone is at least a little bit off their rocker. Woah, parentheses within parentheses, what is this!?), but I am saying the guy demolition lover absolutely is. I am also saying that c!Scott has self worth issues. At least in my headcannons. I also have a similar headcannon for Joel. Maybe that’s why they hate each other, their mad that they can’t sacrifice themselves for each other and then decided a murderous rivalry was the only option/j ) but yeah so the torturing themselves over a lover who is both dead for them and also at the same time alive and well but unreachable and in a better place than them and wanting to be with them but holding back for fear of hurting them which ends up hurting them anyway (which is also a theme in the black parade, so ig you could also kinda compare Scott to The Patient, but patient always felt more Joel or Pearl coded to me. Also yes I know I already made a post about smalletho demo lovers au, but idk I can have both smalletho and flower husbands demo lovers I just like projecting my interests onto,,,,also my interests ig lol) is something Scott and the sinner demolition lover have in common. Also this song makes me cry. So much. Could barely even draw this through the tears lol/silly, and I’m exaggerating but less than you’d think. Unfortunately I am a crier. I also cry at Summertime from danger days, pretty much all of three cheers but especially I never told you what I do for a living, demolition lovers from bullets (btw for non MCR fans these are album and song names. Also the demo lover’s story starts in bullets with the song titled for them, and then is continued in three cheers for sweet revenge) as well as I don’t love you, wttbp, the end, mama, and famous last words from black parade. And those are just the MCR songs, not counting all the other sad songs from other bands. I am a CRIER lol. But yeah, thank you sm for the ask anon I really enjoyed drawing this!

Travelling through the woods was a bad idea during the day, but in the middle of the night, alone, it was downright idiotic.

Now Joel's cold (should've brought a sweater like Grian told him to, but, in his defence, that would have ruined his outfit) and wet (fell in a creek) and dirty (fell in a blummin' creek) and he wants to kill himself (no elaboration necessary).

As he's walking, his foot suddenly catches on a branch, pulling him forward and, oh, shoot, he goes falling backwards into the mud and bugs and god-knows-what. And is that a rip in his favourite shirt? Because if it is he's going to burn this entire forest down to the ground and–

"Who are you?"

Joel startles so hard he thinks he may have just had a mini heart attack. Hand on his chest, he catches his breath, craning his head to look up at who just spoke to him. 

Oh. 

Oh. 

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I am losing MY MIND from this interaction.

The fact that Joel still tries. He still tries to mend things. The fact that Tango kills him twice and all he has to say is the words of respect and encouragement. That he patches holes in his car, his HOME. That he welcomes Etho, that he will be with Gem until the end. The way he tries to survive his series on green, to be peaceful. HE TRIES SO HARD TO MEND IT. HE WAS IN EVERY SEASON. WORSE. HE KNOWS HOW ABSOLUTELY HOPELESS THEY ARE SOMETIMES. HE WAS THE PITIFUL ONE. IN THIRD LIFE HE BURNED. HE HAD THE SADDEST TIMES IN LAST LIFE. HE AND ETHO HAD THE MOST DRAMATIC STORY AFTER DIVORCE QUARTET IN DOUBLE LIFE. HE IS THE ONE WHO KEEPS DYING TO SCOTT, HE MAKES STUPID DECISIONS, HE MAKES ENEMIES.

But he still tries. He still has hope that if he just fix it one more time it will stay there if he looks away.

So, Etho’s new family, huh?

They both gave him flowers at different points in the episode. Gem gave Etho an allium and Joel gave him a dandelion and I think it’s up to us boat boysers to make dandelions, like, their thing. I will be propaganda-ing that so be warned.

hey guys back from the dead sorry I haven’t arted in a while I’ve got like a million different pieces and projects that I’m like half finished with but uhh in the meantime, here have a doodle of emo Joel ig. Also that recreation of the 3 cheers cover art on his shirt took forever lol.

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I saw that he had Welcome to the Black Parade on his feel good music playlist, and. Joel. You know what that song is about right? You know right? Right? /silly but yea so I drew this ig um also he’s singing because I was watching his latest ep on Hermitcraft while drawing and he both made another song (yay!!!! And it was a parody of the brobecks as well who I know. Dallon Weekes is an overachiever lol. Panic! At the Disco, The Brobecks, and I DON’T KNOW HOW BUT THE FOUND ME ? Three banger bands? lol I actually saw idk how live recently, it was my first time going to a concert, and it was awesome) and also played another pop song during his timelapse, and so this is propaganda that the next song he either parodies or plays during a timelapse should be MCR. Please Joel Smallishbeans do this it would be like the greatest thing ever. I mean it’s fine if you don’t, I also enjoy the pop music I am being educated in pop and I’m enjoying it. I just. I really want a Joel cover of an MCR song I would listen to that forever and ever lol you have no idea. Collision of my interests like the social collision line at hot topic and okay now I’m getting cringe bye guys back to the grave to continue working on my million bajillion projects!!

the car

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to be honest, joel kind of expected it to be fancier; he’s a winner, after all- you’d probably want to have something nicer than a black void to bask in your glory. he thought- well, he’s not sure he had any specific thoughts about what it'd look like, but he guessed there'd be stuff like sofas and a snooker table or something—a party room, y’know? an endless void is a bit dull in comparison, especially considering the game he just won- although, anything would be dull in comparison to that game, wouldn’t it?

HE DID IT I KNEW HE COULD LOOK AT MY GUY GO

to be honest, joel kind of expected it to be fancier; he’s a winner, after all- you’d probably want to have something nicer than a black void to bask in your glory. he thought- well, he’s not sure he had any specific thoughts about what it'd look like, but he guessed there'd be stuff like sofas and a snooker table or something—a party room, y’know? an endless void is a bit dull in comparison, especially considering the game he just won- although, anything would be dull in comparison to that game, wouldn’t it?

there's a collection of voices that is beginning to come into range, still too far away to make out anything distinct, but they seem to be arguing over something. as he walks (though- he’s not sure he is actually walking. he’s not sure he has a physical form anymore), he can make out a word or two, none of them sensical: something about a comet and jupiter? whatever that means. joel isn’t super sure he was meant to hear it- or even understand it; the words seem to be garbled and warped, and feel far too loud for his ears even as they begin to fade out.

joel keeps walking, because honestly he’s not really sure what else to do. did he miss something? was there actually a party room at the start that he walked past by accident? he probably should have asked more questions when grian and pearl talked about winning in limited and secret life, because he’s completely lost right now- both metaphorically and literally. where exactly is he?

more voices are slowly becoming audible, and joel braces himself until he realises that he recognises them—has he finally found the game room? they'd better have a snooker table, after all he’s been through to just find the stupid place. honestly, this was harder than winning in the first place- they should put up some signs or something.

joel doesn't have time to make this complaint aloud, because all of a sudden, something bowls into him- someone apparently, as they throw their arms around him. "you did it!" grian's voice laughs, sounding genuinely happy.

joel grins, hugging him back—which is weird, when you can’t see anything. maybe it's not a void, and he’s just blind for some reason. "I won!" he crows, pride bubbling up in his chest. "I didn’t think I would- it took me long enough!"

"congratulations, beans!" scar's voice comes from somewhere in front of him, cheery, considering the context. 

"thanks." joel pulls back and finds that his sight seems to have returned. 

the void still surrounds them, but weirder still, everyone seems to look identical to- oh. when they won. grian's hands and face are bloodstained, scott has a lightning scar across his face, pearl's hoodie is instead a singed scarlet cloak, martyn is all piratey and bloody, scar's ebony cloak is lined with poppies and lilacs, and cleo's joints have puppet strings trailing from them. 

joel glances down to see purple-tinted veins crawling up his hands and arms, and his stomach drops until he remembers that he’s already dead. "okay. weird."

"that'll be from the ender pearls." scott supplies. joel is honestly a little thankful that his creaking eyes have gone; they were creepy. "I- d'you know they’re already arguing?"

"well he’s less intuitive than us." grian shrugs, gesturing to joel as if that makes any sense at all. "they've been arguing since martyn."

cleo snorts. "they still haven't agreed on anything." they point upwards, and joel is very confused. "after you three, anyway."

"it stopped being as snappy once I came along though." martyn points out, and everyone but joel seems to understand what he's talking about. "sun, stars, moon- then what? we can’t do the whole solar system and every planet's moon."

scar laughs. "they were talking about- stages of grief or something by the time I won."

"yeah!" pearl points a finger at scar excitedly. "I overheard someone mention the seven deadly sins earlier. didn’t catch much, but you’re meant to be glutton." she elbows martyn, who scoffs indignantly. 

"sounds about right." cleo says, laughing as martyn makes a noise of protest that sounds very much like a squawk. 

joel blinks. "well, I have no idea what you guys are on about, but whatever I am it's a car." he folds his arms, in the hopes that no one is gonna try to argue with him, because he has absolutely no clue what he's signing up for. 

there's a pause. 

"a.. car?" scott frowns, apparently appalled by the concept—which joel finds hilarious and makes him want to be a car even more. 

"yeah." joel says confidently. "joel toretto- fast and furious, y’know?" 

grian cackles and pearl grins along. "sure- a car. i’m sure they'll all agree."

joel shrugs, still unsure about who 'they' are at all, but he appears to be signing himself up for something funny at least. "you never know. if they’re smart they'll pick a car."

I’m over here kicking my feet and giggling eeee thank you bluet I love you too!!!! <3 more hearts all the hearts ever this thank you so much!!!!! Ahhh! We must do more arts together!!!!!!!

@iandoubt for literally everything ily baby girl <333

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ahhhh thank you so much bluet sending that right back atcha I had a ton of fun wit this and would love to do it again and ur art is fabulous!!!!!!! Ily too <3 Everyone go check out Bluets blog right now!!!

(Also woah a Joel fan and an Etho girl getting along no one could’ve possibly seen this coming! /sarc I heart you bluet everyone go and look at her gorgeous art or we will continue to publicly declare our ever lasting love that is a threat)

Dropping a collab I did with the amazing incredible awesome cool sweet adorable @iandoubt !!!!!!

This was literally so much fun I would do it again in a heartbeat ily ian mwah mwah. Marry me.

Taking this time to promote ian: go follow now or we can't be friends. Amazing art, funny, generally cool....literally me reincarnated go follow now and look at the AWESOME HECKING ART !!!

Anyways we decided on Hotguy and Cuteguy because blorbos. Guess who drew who 👀👀👀???a hint that is totally not noticeable: we both signed our names

hey guys so this is actually literally my favorite thing I’ve ever drawn so I am in fact going to keep reblogging it.

also in other news fill out the Smallishzine interest form please I need this zine to happen. I need to be in it.

I’ve spent an insert adjective here amount of time crafting a real life!zombiecleo fanart to make a magic the gathering pun that no one in a million years will get.

It says unstitched. I am a winner Cleo truther, and I love the un- sets, and I decided to put those two things together. This also ties into my unintelligible headcannons about the life series. Anyway I hope you enjoyed or at least weren’t disgusted by this drawing of Cleo coming apart at the seams ^^

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