Recovering From A Flu Means Being Able To Come Back To @n@. And I Missed Her.
Recovering from a flu means being able to come back to @n@. And I missed her.
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Feeling exhausted. 3d needs patience
Everybody wants something from me. The world is fucking up. I want only run away. I can't. But I can decline this fucking world by declining eating. This really helps. It's not 3d. It's liberation.
Not eating means freedom and relief from superficiality. Not eating means pureness
First of many days not eating. I am simply not allowed to eat. What a liberation.
Before you report someone's blog and take away their safe space...
Ed's are the most lonely and isolating illnesses there is. You are accepted only if you're successfully recovering, otherwise you're automatically problematic and promoting. Your body and habits around eating are triggering. You're demonetized for simply having a sickness.
People with ed's will always find their triggers, no matter how hard you try to block, report and all. But the thing is, you have to find these spaces. Closed spaces. If we don't have those, people will take their ed's on TikTok or other platforms where they will eventually pop up to everyone to see. If someone looks for these spaces, they're already sick. No one will GET sick by looking at someone's blogs.
These spaces let's you be honest, vent, have people and friends that all go through same things. You're less lonely. These spaces can be toxic, but when you find the right people it can be uplifting and actually good for your mental health: you're not alone.
These days people are mostly nice and pro recovery. M34nsp0 is something only kids post these days anymore. We connect, we vent, we help each other. Until WE are ready to recover. Forced recovery will never work the same as choosing recovery yourself. Reporting everything makes everything worse: you get isolated again, you're lonely again. Most people who D13 from Ed's d13 from taking their own life... It's the loneliness and depression that takes them eventually.
So if you see someone's Ed page, let them have it. Block it if you find it disturbing, but that can be the only thing keeping them alive atm. Just because YOU feel like it's not good, doesn't give you the right to take that safe space, friends and support from them.
If you need to find it, the sickness is already there. We will take these things to another platforms if these ones gets taken away. And then they will pop up to everyone.
So, our businesses are here, yours is there. The problem comes when you're also there, in our businesses. Protect your peace and block. Thank you.
Eastern was not good. Fuck holidays. But now on track again. One meal every second day.
After 48 hours fasting I was so exhausted that I nearly was not able to run, only 6 instead of 10 km. So I decided to eat something. The funny thing is, after intermittent fasting I cannot binge anymore. There is no space in my belly. And that is genius.
Essentially I want to be less. Diminished. 20 kg of me are not needed. I want to be less visible. Paradoxically I find a friend(s) here who sees me. This makes me happy. So I want to disappear while being happy to be seen.
In this box is the key of the kitchen. I can't enter it. I will run afterwards and then leaving the house immediately. No chance to eat. Tomorrow the same. I could block the kitchen irreversible up to 99 hours, but I am not always alone...
