I Am The Living Remnant Of Myself.

a clean escape.

The water is drawn and Im all alone.

I look at myself as I take off my clothes.

I look pretty decent.

Its the real me that nobody knows.

I know the secrets that nobody can.

nearly flawless canvas on a broken man.

Im thinking of you as Im lowering in.

Warm relaxing water just under my chin.

the last time you made me smile.

The last time you made me laugh.

This is the last time Ill take a bath.

The sleep is coming. Im going to drown.

Im dreaming of you on the way down.

... Or Give Me Death.

Im nobody, the faceless.

the one you forget and leave nameless.

the one who cares for the careless.

teaches fear to be fearless.

thatll pick you up and be proud of.

the one who will give it all up.

who will bare your pain for a smile.

and all the while....

Im nobody the faceless.

the one forgot, burred nameless

the one trying to find where this pain fits.

wears a mask where their face is

fast loosing their patience.

one thats tired just waiting for days end.

questions existence.

that just want to KNOW.

they made one persons day

then the pain was worth it.

but not taken away

.

lust on your lips and deception in your eyes. I follow to your tune words sung in lies.

learn from your mistakes.

Im getting old. The more you pay attention to time the more it matters to you. Hindsight is 20/20. maybe it wouldnt have been hind if Id have had my head on right. Though the past it cant be helped like our hearts had surely hoped. the future is a mystery fumbling in the dark with eyes closed. Grasping for the handles on the doors left wide open. Not in hurried disarray but with excitement and discovery. may fear be what I leave behind. Nothing in my pockets and nothing in my way.

reality loop error

connecting all the dots now.

a circle has no end.

i make this lone circuit.

do you understand?

i look back with sorrow.

the things that should have been..

i walk forth so blindly.

my eyes are wide open.

the past will always be here..

i will never change.

the future holds yet nothing.

nothing stays the same.

memory now failing.

the time has come you see.

everything a reflection.

never skipping beat.

no way to start over.

mistakes ill soon repeat.

reality is fading.

become dark fantasy.

im the virus in this program.

Error in the registry.

who is in control here?

monkey or machine?

by ShawnCoss

Words hold no truth, bear no meaning.

A flick of the tongue  and a feeling. Combined with a gust of air. A string of linear conscious thought and an inquisitive stare. A thought now gave flesh by word. though its new definition pales when compared.

weak but still standing.

all the words that flow through me, never ending verbal sea. none of which amount to anything... not near what I think they mean. All these thoughts Above me circling. pondering if, and what if there was... some meaning? What could it be. What will this bring? wounds in mending. shaping me. Tear it down, now build it up. break my heart but you cant break me. no matter how close you think I seem.