Every Time I Walk Into A Bookstore And Immediately Get Flashbanged With Colleen Hoover I Feel Like I’m

Romantic academia:

Going on study dates to pretty libraries, fighting to find a seat next to each other.

On discord listening to them go through a powerpoint the night before their big presentation.

The Arts/Humanities one proof-reading the STEM one's motivation letters/long emails.

Reading through interesting research in bed together, sharing the one phone screen.

Alternating between who is the one making tea for the study session. (Bonus: matching study mugs)

Study breaks include marveling over some super niche knowledge acquired during the study session.

Emailing an article as a pdf, and titling the email "I thought you'd find this interesting :-)"

Setting a timer for a cuddle break when the assignment work gets too overwhelming. Celebrating together when the assignment gets done.

Sharing the excitement of finding a new productivity app / stationary shop / study hack.

~✧°+* 21 & 22/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

20. & 21.8.2023

It's been all chores, chores, chores, andxiety and poor attempts at trying to cope with the heat.

Very excited for things to be a bit more normal again (and cooler, too) next week.

Positive Things I did these days:

lots of chores

played sims

worked on the hamilton essay

went on a walk

Hours slept: ~9hrs & ~6hrs 45mins Screentime: ~3hrs 30mins & ~ 6hrs Steps taken: ~8.100 & ~800

𝑒𝑛𝑗𝑜𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑐𝑎𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑓𝑒

~✧°+* 35/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

07.09.2023

(this post was written several days in retrospect)

Birthday time!

My siblings turned 17. this year and every time I think about that I am reminded of my own mortality.

Things I did this day:

celebrated my siblings' birthday

spent time with family

helped attend guests

Hours slept: ~6hrs Screentime: ~7hrs 15mins Steps taken: ~1.500

Ask yourself: what’s good about this moment right now? Is the sun out? Can you hear birds? Are you drinking coffee? Can you smell freshly cut grass? Is your bed soft and warm? These little things are oh so precious and yet seem so arbitrary.

A flawless plan, as always

northern downpour | pretty odd

the devil’s whispers:

you can do it tomorrow (if you don’t do it now you’ll never do it ever)

you have a lot of time left (life is actually pretty short and we don’t have that much time)

you can skip this one little thing today (you are functioning solely due to the fact that you have a routine)

i must respond to this one thing that is bothering me immediately (you don’t have to do anything, it’s all in ur head)

I must check my phone (u don’t have to do anything, it’s all in ur head)

panicking is productive (panicking never makes a situation better, but in fact exacerbates it)

I must listen to music while doing the most minute task (u don’t have to do anything, it’s all in ur head. and I like music as much as the next person but moments of sheer silence are crucial)

I must befriend everyone (some people just don’t mesh together and that is ok)

I can skip working out for the day (working out does so much for ur physical AND mental health)

If misfortune happens to me it’s because I am uniquely unlucky (misfortune has nothing to do with preordained circumstances and everything to do with random odds)

If I am mistreated it’s because I am a horrible person and I deserve it (most times people are projecting their issues onto u and it has nothing to do with u)

if I make a mistake I am uniquely horrible (we are all human and we all make mistakes. the important thing is to hold ourselves accountable and learn from them)

I must have this one thing I really want now (u don’t have to do anything, it’s all in ur head. also whatever u want will still be here tomorrow so this sense of urgency is false)

I am uniquely hated/disliked/ostracized (most people are busy w their own lives and don’t have the time to be hating on u. and if they really are then their life is pretty empty and their opinion should not be held in high regard to begin with)