To Be Honest I Don't Really Like That Sometimes Representation Makes Autistic People Look Like Just Silly

'the best form of sabotage is self- sabotage'

— probably deku before break himself all over again to win a fight.

[non-horrible Germa AU]

This AU's major divergent "plot" happens in Zou, of course, haha. There's none of that Bege stuff, everything is fine. Sanji kind of just went to meet his bros and Reiju for a while and then returns with them later after Luffy and Law arrived at Zou.

When Law stops dying he can fanboy about the Sora comics together with Yonji.

Germa scientists: Yonji-sama please stop using up the materials to make comic book robots

14 y.o. me, finding out that autism can be a reason to decline gender affirming surgeries and transition in general: well i guess it makes sense doctors probably know what they do

20 y.o. me, randomly remembering this not-so-fun fact: wait, that's fucked up

Garp is the funniest character of One Piece because he's a marine and yet he had a revolutionary son and then three grandsons who are basically: A communist, an arsonist, and an anarchist. The four of them definitely say "fuck the Marines" on a daily basis but would probably show up to a family dinner as if nothing happened

wait a minute... did bones... did bones finally started to draw aN ASS FOR MIC!? god bless, i was waiting here for years

me, looking at shigaraki who slowly goes insane: he's just silly little guy who does silly little things

projecting my height diff obsession onto sanji? absolutely

so i saw some posts about how izuku too easily overcome his quirklessness after receiving ofa, right? mostly people in and under those posts say that it's a shame that we don't see the difficulties of re-thinking his identity and this situation is kinda unrealistic. well i can understand the upsetting feeling of not receiving an interesting point of character's self-discovering and stuff but i have a thing to say about how this thing will make sense (possibly).

so let's make an assumption that quirklessness in the world of bnha is some kind of disability. as far as i know we don't have clear statement in canon but it make sense, right? like if you search the word "disability" you will find something along the lines "the experience of any condition that makes it more difficult for a person to do certain activities or have equitable access within a given society". sooo in REAL world quirklessness isn't a disability because... well non of us here superpower, right? BUT on bnha world quirks are seen as an extension of human being like leg or hand. so it will be logical to assume that person without quirk can't be seen as fully capable as quirked one within society.

let's not bring the paranormal liberation front stuff because it's a topic for different post and I'm already getting far from point of this one.

so izuku is disabled in the beginning of the story, yeah? then why the hell he overcome his disability with a simple snap of fingers and why did it make sense?

now i will be coming from my perspective. I'm disabled and was like this for good chank of my life. and what usually come with it? disability becomes a part of person's identity. not only for people around disabled person but for them too.

now my rambling make even less sense but wait I'm getting to the point.

from interaction between izuku and bakugo + tone of voice of izuku's teacher in aldera we know that deku suffered from bulling BECAUSE of quirklessness. moreover when izuku asked all might can he become a hero, all might didn't ask him about his skills or why he feel a need to be a hero, no. all might just write him off solidly because of izuku's quirklessness and let me be honest: i believe that that wasn't the first time deku was given such "reality check".

can you smell that? oh yeah the good old ✨trauma✨

why did i wrote that i'll view this situation from perspective of my personal experience? well, i was bullied because of my disability back in school and guess what? most of the adults in my life didn't give me a chance to prove myself before they decide that I'm useless.

and that's the main reason why my disability become the thing that I'm activity trying to hide and don't let this abomination become a part of what make me who am i now.

can you see where I'm getting? izuku viewed his quirklessness as a thing that made his life harder and what made other people see him less of a human. so when The Miracle happened izuku just signed with relief and went ahead leaving behind the thing that made him miserable.

the last part of this ungodly long post: why do i believe that izuku doesn't let quirklessness become part of his identity and rather ignored it? well this is the part where i stop pretending that i have some Absolutely Logical Conclusions and become delusional. so we all remember that for the good part of plot izuku keep telling that he's gonna be hero like all might. well make sense because of ofa and all this razzle and dazzle with all might's successor, right? BUT this also can be applied to quirkless izuku. he WANTED and WAS GOING to become hero like all might, and i see it as if he didn't come in terms with his inability to become Just Like All Might. according to this statement izuku was ignoring differences between him and other (quirked) people. this make me believe that deep down he refuse to accept disability as part (or ex-part according to canon events) of himself.

is it healthy? no.

does izuku have a healthy image of himself? probably not.

did i just come up with unshaped pile of thoughts at night before bed and decide to vomit it straight into the internet? yes, i did.

Zoro going to Chopper about this strange reaction Zoro has been having. His hands get sweaty, his heart races, he feels flushed, his tongue feels too big for his mouth...

Chopper confirms that its probably an allergic reaction and Zoro should avoid whatevers causing it!

So Zoro starts trying to avoid the Cook.

i remember a few years ago i was watching mha and i through to myself that bakugo is really weird because he go to bed at like 8 p.m.

now I'm college student and ALL of my morning classes start at 8 a.m. and i need at least 1.5 hour to get to campus. so let me be honest... bakugo in his 15 years old was wiser than I'll ever be

the man have been aware of life secrets since childhood