I Think All My Friends Want Me To Kill Myself Lol

keeping myself from cutting everyone off just because deep down I still have hope that some of them actually care and eventually will notice my absence.

chat should i actually block every single one of my friends from my hometown and completely isolate myself in another province

why am i even bothering with sobriety and cleanness at this point. all i wanna do is be high and forget how fucking miserable im gonna be for the rest of my life. just for a few hours. but i cAnT because tHinGs WoNt EvEr gEt BeTtEr iF yOuRe uSiNg. who the fuck cares if it gets better at this point? it obviously fucking won't. i'm trapped in this fucking disgusting body forever. the least i can do for myself is make myself happy for a little while.

he makes me feel so unwanted yet i keep chasing after him like the silly dog that i am

Please pity me, for I'm dependent on your love. Please look at me like I'm nothing more than a sorrowful child, raise me up and praise me, shower me with your affection. Please show me that I'm worthy of being alive. I'm nothing without you.

"Can mutuals DM you?" moots can kick me, punch me in the throat, spit on my face, saw me in half, kiss me, obsess over me, stalk me idgaf

i’m so jealous of passionate ppl.

like, there’s smth u wanna achieve in life? you don’t just feel as if you’re wasting away your time, as if you’re a dull background character meant to make the talented ones shine even brighter?

bc i wish i had that. i wish i had a goal that i wanted to strive towards. i wish that there was smth that genuinely interested me, rather than just seeing it as a good pastime. i wish that i didn’t feel the need to go to extreme lengths just to feel like an adequate person, rather than just being a prop meant to fill in the background.

is anyone else's mother a passive aggressive cunt for no reason or is it just mine

A reminder that if you didn’t need a mobility aid you wouldn’t be day dreaming and fantasizing about how they would help you navigate the world and that no matter how much internalized ableism you hold it won’t change your reality about your conditions and you SHOULD do what is best for you because no one will punish you more than yourself if you keep ignoring your needs

um sorry for moaning when you stabbed me. it's been a really long time since anyone touched me like that