There Is Probably Nothing Good For You Here.

"read 2 hours ago" okay what if i just block you and you never hear from me again instead

I think one of the worst symptoms of bpd is the lack of emotional permanence no matter how many good and loving people you have in your life the second you are alone it feels like you were never loved and it was all just a figment of your imagination

get gordoned idiot

i think the worst thing about abled people is that even if you explain your perspective as a disabled person, dismantle common ableist narratives, correct misinformation and do all that work. they're still liable to backslide at any point. "but it's inevitable that most people are going to think or say [ableist thing]." their constant exposure to ableism isn't mitigated by having a disabled person to give a fuck about because they're ultimately not affected themselves. and it's hard being the only one in the room aware of the constant, relentless barrage of ableism that exists as a backdrop for our society. so they want to justify it to you. "yes i know this hurts you but you have to admit most people aren't going to accommodate this". they want you, the disabled person, to absolve them of whatever common ableist thing they want to do. maybe it's saying the r slur or being dismissive about someone masking when sick. maybe it's about benefits and what they really think about it. whatever it is, they're always so unreliable. all the effort you put in to change their mind can be undone that quickly it's like why did you even bother to pretend to care in the first place

I just wanted to feel like I was worth something

how the fuck do you make friends.

everyone else in my life gets to go hang out with their friends and go home to their partners and i hate it. i really hate to say that i hate seeing their happiness. it's not that i don't want them to b be happy and lead good lives, it's that im a fucking dumb jealous asshole.

everyone makes it seem like them and all of their friends just clicked together. there was no awkwardness at the start and everything just went so smoothly. meanwhile i can't get past the awkward small talk phase with everyone and it's completely discouraging. I dont want to end up alone. i don't wanna be forced into the shadows while i watch everyone else have a life besides me because i just flat out didn't deserve to have one.

tldr someone pls become unhealthily obsessed with me and i will offer the same in return

feeling unwanted ruins my whole fucking day

Sorry I thought it was attractive when you said you'd stalk me irl and online, find out all my likes and dislikes, and threatened to find me and make all my friends disappear... do you still think I'm cute?

Autistic by birth. My Chemical Romance fan by the grace of God.

Whenever I get horny nowadays I just start hitting my head with my fist over and over